Yu Zhouzhou often says that the name Benben is very good.

At that time, a cartoon was being played on TV. The protagonist in it was a yellow car that looked like a bumper car. It was flat and as cute as if it was blown by a balloon. The car was also called Benben. The car and a boy were companions and walked through many places in the world together with the purpose of finding a mother.

Yu Zhouzhou didn't know how a confused mother could lose her child, so she felt very sympathetic to Benben. It was almost the first time she thought cartoons were really nonsense.

She looked at her mother who was buttoning her and thought to herself, look, her mother will always be by her side. Thinking of this, she was very glad to pat her chest, as if she had cherished her happiness after a lifetime.

But later she really met a boy who was deliberately lost by her mother.

When the cartoon had a happy ending, she ran to Benben happily, "You will find your mother too, sure."

When he was a child, Yu Zhouzhou always thought that the tragic things in cartoons were nonsense - such as Benben was lost by his mother; and beautiful things must be true - such as Benben finally found his mother and smiled brightly in a sea of ​​flowers.

Only when she grew up did she realize that this kind of cognition was right to be reversed.

Those sad and disappointed guys always make up a lot of good things to deceive people.

Benben is always discouraged. He thinks he may never get rid of his drunkard father in his life. Yu Zhouzhou laughed at him and asked him how he knew what happened so long in his life?

Is life long? A very vicissitudes of wry smile appeared on Benben's face that was not at all aligned with his age. At that moment, Yu Zhouzhou was stunned. She couldn't tell why. She liked his smile, and seemed to be very responsible and like an adult. However, if she thought about it carefully, she felt that Benben would be better for crying - crying like a child.

"A lifetime is not that long. I was pushed by him and my thigh hit the corner of the table. The next day I looked purple, and it turned black in a few days, and purple-red in a few days, and then it turned light yellow in a few days, and then it disappeared."

Yu Zhouzhou was puzzled, "What does it mean?"

"That is to say, I count the day when the bruises disappeared little by little. Before the previous batch was counted, the next batch was hung on me. I just counted these days and found that life was very fast. Is it a long life?"

Yu Zhouzhou later almost forgot Benben's appearance, but she always remembered that a boy told her that the passage of time was not only calculated by calendar calendars.

Time can also be marked in units of the cycle of healing a scar.

Yu Zhouzhou looked at Benben and thought sadly - if she understood that her emotions were called sad at that time - how beautiful the cartoon is, Benben wanted to find his mother, and he could set off immediately and travel around the world. If you have friends, you would not have to worry about food and drink, no gasoline, no long journey, and no train (because it is just a car)...

I heard Brother Qiao from my uncle's family say "Life is a blurred web", but Yu Zhouzhou couldn't understand it very much. But at this moment, he looked up and saw the thin spider web in the corner of the eaves. He thought to himself, life is a spider web, so what are they? Are they little bugs that are stuck on the web and can only wait for not to eat?

"My parents always quarrel, they are very fierce, and they throw things at each other, smashing ink bottles on my head. Hum."

Yu Zhouzhou said this sentence in a strange way. In fact, she had only seen her father two or three times, only one of which was when her parents appeared at the same time. This time it was a quarrel. The two of them were fighting as if they were going to demolish the house. She didn't know that Wen Jing and gentle mother could have such great strength. When she was a child, she learned two words, one was called hysteria and the other was called crazy. She felt that she could give these two words to her mother and father who were on that day.

Naturally, Yu Zhouzhou was not hit by the ink bottle, otherwise she would not have lived now. But she said it out loudly and proudly, just to comfort Ben Ben.

The best comfort in the world is not to tell the other person that "everything will be fine", but to say with a bitter face, "Cry, look, I'm worse than you."

So Benben, who was successfully cured, said sincerely, "Zhouzhou, I don't want my mother, I want you."

Two pure and beautiful six-year-old children naturally couldn't hear how awkward this sentence was.

Yu Zhouzhou continued to pat his shoulder with a righteous man, and swearing, "I will always be by your side."

This sentence was also learned from the cartoon. They were all moved by themselves and each other, with friendship in full swing and the atmosphere was unreasonable.

What a beautiful and sad lie I will never leave you.

Yu Zhouzhou later learned that the first lie she had in her life was thanks to cartoons. She believed in many wrong things, but believed them unquestionably.

Life in the slums is just like this. Yu Zhouzhou still stays at home every day, and it is a thunderous cartoon time every night from 6:00 to 7:00 every night. He goes to his grandmother's house on weekends, and occasionally goes out to play with the children on the night when his mother is at home.

The rest of the time, she lives in the small theater in her brain. Sometimes she fantasizes about headaches and runs out of materials, so she quickly reads a few stories to accumulate new inspiration - she only has three sets of books in her family, "The Complete Works of Andersen", "Grimm's Fairy Tales", and "Aesop's Fables".

The text is complete, without illustrations. Yu Zhouzhou knows a lot of words, and they follow the subtitles below when watching TV, and basically just get familiar with each other. When she reads story books, she guessed and swallowed everything, and she was very happy to read it.

Text rather than comic strips actually fulfilled her imagination. Without the shackles of her predecessors, she studied the long descriptions of scenery in "Dream under the Willow" and "Flowers of Little Yida", and gave those plants and food that had never been heard of before, which belonged to Yu Zhouzhou's image...

So in the sixth grade of elementary school, when Lin Yang generously and friendlyly invited her to watch Disney's "Snow White", she stared at Snow White with short hair, blue skirt, bright eyes and white teeth on the screen, and said in a daze, "No, no."

"What's wrong?" Lin Yang asked her with her eyebrows raised.

"She doesn't look like Snow White."

"Ha," Lin Yang smiled, "Have you ever seen living?"

She stopped talking to him, just stared at the screen, and the little girl who was less than nine years old looked helpless and tired.

Anyway, the Snow White in her heart is not like that.

Lin Yang nibbled and gnawed the apple, and there was a little mouse in her heart, gnawing at the secret garden that only belonged to her.

However, the worst crisis Yu Zhouzhou encountered when she was 6 years old was that the city and provincial TV stations played two cartoons she also liked at six o'clock. She had no other choice but to frequently change the remote control, and she was in great pain.

When she grew up, she heard that her good friend was walking on two boats. The first thing she remembered was the TV screen that she frequently switched when she was six years old.

She sympathized with her good friends. She thought it must be hard and boring.

The beautiful life ended in the goal of that year.

The youngest daughter of the family in the westernmost part is dead.

The body was found in the edge of a ditch not far from the slum, and it is said to have been strangled to death. Of course, the women were also whispering with a mysterious expression that they were naked and unclothed when they died. Tsk, Tsk.

Yu Zhouzhou didn't understand why the bad guy stole her clothes.

The last scene she remembered about that little aunt was that a few days ago, this very beautiful woman wore newly bought flare jeans and curly her hair. When she walked to Yu Zhouzhou's doorstep, she smiled at her mother. Her mother said that she was dressed so beautifully. She didn't pretend to be modest, and she smiled, her bright red lips were shiny in the sun.

It's really beautiful, Yu Zhouzhou thought.

At that time, Yu Zhouzhou already knew how to appreciate other beautiful women. When she was very young, when she heard her mother and aunt praise a woman passing by, dressed up fashionable and beautifully, she would twist and walk to them unwillingly, pretending that she was also a passerby, then turned her head and pointed at her and said to her mother, "Mom, tell me quickly, this woman is so beautiful."

The little aunt's family did not mourn at a big fanfare, and even cried was depressed, as if it was a very embarrassing thing.

Later, Grandma Chen's house in the tofu shop was pried again, and the 200 yuan in the drawer was stolen. The slum was suddenly in panic. I don't know if it was a tramp or an insider in the yard, and everyone was panicked. The mother no longer dared to leave Yu Zhouzhou alone at home. When she was working during the day, she kept her children with her.

Yu Zhouzhou's mother failed the college entrance examination that year and only entered the junior college degree of the Provincial Medical College and studied in traditional Chinese medicine. Later, after a series of changes, she was unemployed and laid off very early. She opened a small clinic for Chinese medicine massage and acupuncture. In fact, she was the only one who was busy inside and outside. When giving physical therapy and massage to customers, she often had to go to the customer's house to serve alone, so she rode her bicycle to travel around the city most of the time every day.

So now there is another Yu Zhouzhou on the back seat of the bicycle.

Her mother always feels very guilty about letting her daughter work hard with her too early. If her childhood is bleak, it will be reflected in her mother's self-blame. However, Yu Zhouzhou is actually very happy. She feels like a little bug that flies away from the spider web and sees a different world.

Three religions and nine ranks, this world is so big.

She learned to deal with adults well, speak when it is time to speak, and remain silent when it is time to remain silent. Sometimes the customer's house will worry that she will be bored alone, and will always find some toy comics for her to show, and sometimes there are fruits and snacks to eat. But they don't know that she doesn't feel bored at all. Different people living in different houses can give her new inspiration. She has no way to perform arrogantly, so she can only sleep quietly in the corner, internalize her galloping imagination, and then swim beyond the sky with them.

In winter, the northern roads are always covered with a thick layer of ice. In addition to the main roads, the snow on many small streets has been tightly compressed by passing vehicles. They have to be careful when walking in anti-slip shoes, let alone riding bicycles. Yu Zhouzhou began to walk with her mother, squeeze the bus, and sometimes she was squeezed so hard that her feet were suspended all the way from the ground. However, she liked to walk because she would always buy her something whenever she passed by a fragrant pancake stall or a small cart selling candied haws.

She felt it was an unexpected gain, but her mother treated it as compensation.
Chapter completed!