It was already six o'clock when I got home. My mother was sitting at the table making dumplings. Yu Zhouzhou turned on the TV to watch cartoons.

"It's frozen today, I've walked so far."

"No." She shook her head. She couldn't even remember how she walked along the way. She was not tired at all. She only had two rabbits' big teeth in her mind.

The mother didn't know that her daughter gave up the opportunity to be a queen for herself and remained unmoved in the face of glory and wealth.

"It's too unsafe nearby recently, otherwise you wouldn't have been following me in the middle of winter. Zhou Zhou is sorry," my mother pinched the edge of the dumpling apron with her thumb and index finger, and her eyes were a little red again. "There is no nursery nearby. It would be great if she could go to the provincial government kindergarten back then."

Every time when I mention the provincial government kindergarten, Yu Zhouzhou feels embarrassed and blames himself. I remember that when the kindergarten recruits students, my mother led her over. Many parents and children lined up to meet the three aunts in charge of the admissions. When it was her turn, an aunt with round face asked her, "What are the specialties of children?"

Specialties?

What do you do?

Yu Zhouzhou thought calmly for a while. She had just heard several girls performing singing and dancing. She could sing, but she really couldn't do it. However, those talents were too ordinary, and she wanted to do something special.

“I know martial arts.”

My mother was still standing there and saw that her daughter was already squatting on her horse stance and waving her hands, "Hey!" "Ha!" and attacking the teacher...

Naturally, he was not admitted later. Yu Zhouzhou, a generation of heroines, retired from the world and felt deeply ashamed.

In fact, she didn't know that these so-called "interviews" were just formalities. The real interviews looked at the parents' background and gifts. She was wiped out not because the interview teacher looked down on her martial arts.

Yu Zhouzhou and her mother felt guilty for different thoughts about this. This is why Yu Zhouzhou didn't feel very regretful. Although she passed by the kindergarten and saw the beautiful small slides in the yard and the beautiful children, she sat at the colorful table to compete for who had eaten quickly and more. But once she heard that the children in the kindergarten had to take a forced nap every day at noon, she was very glad.

But she didn't know that once her mother took her to the dormitory of a factory to do massage. She hugged the stray cat in the factory and slept soundly by the boiler. However, her mother looked at her sleeping soundly and thought that she had no ability to let her go to a better kindergarten, and she cried sobbed with guilt.

Many years later, when she grew up, what she remembered was the scene of herself as a female warrior fighting the big boss with the Holy Beast Mount (the cat) in the Demon Volcano (boiler). Everything was happy, without any sign of hardship.

For Yu Zhouzhou, life has never been hard. The long journey, wind, snow, and scorching sun can be transformed into a magical background, and she has long since left the real world and lived in another country with a special identity.

Fantasy is her AT force field. She lives elsewhere, a magnificent and wonderful "other place", and nothing can hurt her.

Even if you sometimes encounter contemptuous and insulting gazes - for example, when passing by a beautiful musical instrument store, my mother pointed at a white piano and asked for the price, while the waiter looked at the mother and daughter from head to toe with naked eyes, and sneered and quoted a fearful price - Yu Zhouzhou could also remember the waiter's face, then hung her face on the face of the great devil, lifted the Sword of Shia and beat her to the water.

Then he sat at the table peacefully, imagined it as a beautiful white grand piano, raised his hands lightly, imitated Richard Clayderman on TV, knocked randomly at the edge of the table in the most elegant posture, finally stood up, lifted the corner of the skirt that did not exist, bent his knees slightly, and smiled perfectly.

Yu Zhouzhou is very happy.

But occasionally she felt lonely. Sometimes Duke Grigri and Viscount Crickley didn't speak, Athena and Seiya were silent, and the three-eyed prodigy even had their mouths covered with cross tape, and her imagination also failed.

In the rare loneliness, she was surprised to find that she could see the moon in the afternoon.

There are several days every month, and you can see half a moon in the blue sky in the afternoon. The edges are not clear, as if translucent, pale and blurry, as if it was a white watercolor that was accidentally smeared on the pure blue canvas.

Benben, come and see, there is a moon in the sky.

"YiTiao" is a quantifier invented by six-year-old Yu Zhouzhou. Later, in the third grade of elementary school, he used the phrase "YiTiaoTiao" in his composition, and was circled by the teacher and modified as a typo.

When Yu Zhouzhou felt the loneliness of young, she would chat with Benben - although it was a chat, but in fact she was the only one who spoke herself. Benben knew how to listen quietly. She told Benben many stories, some of which were derived from cartoons, and some were simply made up by her. Those stories crawled out from the small hole in the heart, releasing the melancholy of youth.

Somehow, one day I suddenly talked about the white piano.

Benben, who had been silent all the time, suddenly said, "I'll ask my mother to buy it for you."

"Your mom?"

But Benben didn't know where she was. He thought it didn't matter. Although he had never thought of looking for his mother like in the cartoon described by Yu Zhouzhou, if it was for Yu Zhouzhou, he would be willing to find his mother, not asking his mother to take him in, but only asking her to buy a white piano for Yu Zhouzhou.

Didn’t they all say that his mother is very rich?

Yu Zhouzhou pinched Benben's face with emotion and said, "Yeah, I believe in you."

She thought that she and Benben were indeed in love. She could give up Lanshui for him, and he could ask for a mother who didn't know where she was for her.

However, her "feeling" with Benben has not been in crisis.

It was already early spring in 1994. The spring breeze in February was like scissors - it was cold and painful on its face, which was even colder than the north wind in the cold winter. However, these children could not wait. After a long winter at home, they couldn't wait to run out of their houses and play in the unmelted snow. "Glass wire transmission", "Red lights and green lights and small white lights", "Two-sided cities", "Real and fake landmines"... all kinds of simple games made them run red in the cold wind, and their childhood made the crispest laugh under the blue sky.

When they were tired of playing, they sat on the same cement pipe as in "Dragon Cat" and everyone listened to Yu Zhouzhou telling stories obediently. Yu Zhouzhou has a very high prestige among the children of different ages. Although she doesn't often appear to play with them, and there are many different gangs within the children, and they fight in private. However, when Yu Zhou appeared on Monday, they were willing to surround her and listen to her tell stories.

She told them the story of the little angel who secretly came down to earth to cut off a blonde hair and finally died in order to save the person she loved deeply, and Andersen's "Dream under the Willow Tree", "Little Fir Tree", and "Daughter of the Sea"... But when she told these stories, the ending was tampered with as a reunion, misunderstandings were eliminated, and resurrected from the dead.

She remembered Chen An saying that the happy ending was boring.

But Yu Zhouzhou likes reunion. Life is no longer reunited, so the story doesn’t have to be broken anymore, right?

When the story was told, everyone was still feeling dry. Yu Zhouzhou suddenly had a light of inspiration and said to them excitedly, "Let's play the White Snake game!"

Everyone was solemn.

She pointed her hand and said to the two little girls, "Now you are Bai Snake and Xiaoqing," and pointed at Benben, "You are Xu Xian," and then pointed to the oldest and oldest boy and said, "You are Fahai!"

In addition to the main characters, the others include "sister", "brother-in-law", "master", "susian", and "bridestage woman"... Yu Zhouzhou arranged the plot for them, and the children quickly got crazy and could perform in a turbulent manner without her guidance. Yu Zhouzhou sat on the water pipe alone with her chin, watching them performing illogical plots happily in front of her eyes, and even scenes of stealing the show often happen. Everyone talked to themselves and was unwilling to be lonely.

Only she looked at it quietly, and only she was most willing to be lonely. At that moment, she suddenly realized that loneliness could give people a condescending attitude. She suddenly felt that she was different from others, more sober and more helpless. This sober helplessness had a sense of aging that was not suitable for her age, which made her unable to stop.

It seemed like an open-air mental hospital near the cement pipe, and there was a so-called stage drama that was being danced by demons. It was getting late, and the moon in the sky sank, but it became clearer. When parents got off work, they passed by the mental hospital one by one to pick up the "patients". The stage slowly became deserted, and in the end, only Benben and Yu Zhouzhou were left, and there was a little girl named Dandan.

"Zhouzhou, go, I have something to say to you." Dandan touched him affectionately, took Yu Zhouzhou's arm, and said viciously to Benben, "At far away from Zhouzhou, be careful that I curse you with rotten feet!"

Unclear disgust, Yu Zhouzhou was dragged away by Dandan in an unknown state. When he turned around, he saw Benben blushing and standing alone.

They walked to Dandan's doorstep. Dandan looked around sneakily, and then said to Yu Zhouzhou in a low voice, "Zhouzhou, do you like Benben?"

Yu Zhouzhou didn't know whether to nod or shake her head. She wanted to say she liked it-she did, but she also understood vaguely that the "like" mentioned by these children actually did not mean the same as their own.

Dandan said that likes is the kind of adults. Yu Zhouzhou knew that Benben was very good-looking, and many little girls liked to play with him, and he was different from those boys. He didn't swear or bully people. But this just made him in a difficult situation - because the girls liked him, they deliberately pretended to hate him, and as long as someone else was present, they would not talk to him; while the boy regarded his politeness as a sissy, thinking that he was not worthy of playing with them.

Yu Zhouzhou's loneliness comes from her imagination, but Benben's loneliness is real.

Dandan asked again with a little anxiety, "Do you like Benben?"

In the end, Yu Zhouzhou shook his head, no. Dandan breathed a long sigh when she heard the sound, as if she was finally relieved. She continued to whisper with her eyes rolling around, "I will tell you something, don't tell others."

Yu Zhouzhou thought to himself, nonsense is definitely something that everyone already knows. Everyone will say to another person, don’t tell others.

"I went to find Yueyue to play that day, but guess what I saw?"

"What?"

"Yueyue and Benben..." Dandan looked very embarrassed and paused for a while, "They were in bed and they were wearing nothing!"

Yu Zhouzhou opened his mouth wide and stared at the divine Dandan - although these children actually don't know much about "sex", and even Yu Zhouzhou didn't even know what "kissed" is, and believed in the statement that "I was picked up by my parents from the garbage station" - however, they all knew vaguely that a man and a woman were naked together was definitely a shameful thing, a very bad thing.

Dandan’s little mouth Balabala said endlessly, such as “Yueyue has always liked Benben”, “Yueyue thinks she is beautiful, and sometimes she runs outside with her mother’s lipstick”, “Everyone thinks you like Benben, so she never dares to tell you this,” “How can you still let Yueyue play Bai Snake and Xu Xian with Benben”…

Yu Zhouzhou walked home alone and happened to see Benben standing timidly at the door, his eyes flashing, as if he knew what Dandan said to Yu Zhouzhou.

A kind of rusty and embarrassment that has never been before has arisen between two people looking at each other.

Yu Zhouzhou lowered his head, walked around Benben, knocked directly at the door and shouted into the room, "Mom, I'm back."

After opening the door, my mother saw Benben standing at the door, and smiled and said, "Benben is here too, come in and watch the TV for a while."

Benben kept lowering his head, knocking the hard snow on the ground with his right toe, poking out small holes in the shape of half a month, and whispered, "No need, aunt, I'm back."

After entering the door, my mother looked at Yu Zhouzhou who was sitting by the bed watching TV, and asked with some concern, "Did you have a fight with Benben?"

Yu Zhouzhou shook his head blankly, as if his soul had left his body, and turned around to continue watching the advertisement.

The first time, she didn't know how to use fantasy to relieve her annoyance.
Chapter completed!