141. The distress of double wear
On the sofa, Chen Guobin slowly moved his gaze, feeling this special place he had been to seriously, and his emotions became more and more intense. When he came here in a hurry last time, he felt something different, but he deliberately got used to ignoring it.
Unlike her sister's house, Chen Guobin felt more and more that the layout here was so familiar, so familiar that he was scared.
He finally thought carefully that every time he suddenly met Dong Yining alone, her eyes were actually so lonely and sad, and he always ignored it and forgot that when she was this age, she didn't know what real pain was. Before her sister left, she was actually very happy.
Even after an earlier investigation, he learned that the development trajectory of Tianning Company was so special and there were so many magical coincidences. He was still very accustomed to it and simply used the will of heaven as the only reasonable explanation.
Chen Guobin finally understood that many so-called butterfly effects were actually not because of his appearance, but because of Dong Yining. He himself had already subjectively denied the reunion subjectively before going to Jiangxia to find them. It was because he himself did not want or dared to believe that possibility. This was not only because of Zhao Yaqin's existence, but also because of the relationship in his previous life, it had become a knot, so it was difficult for him to face the two sisters at the same time.
In fact, it was because he had been ignoring intentionally or unintentionally that he had so many situations that he turned a blind eye to it.
Chen Guobin also deeply felt that he had never ignored Dong Yining's feelings and had never really felt her attentively. His main focus has always been on her sister, and even under so many and obvious traces of familiarity, he still ignored her existence so thoroughly.
He remembered the moment when Lu Hu rushed out of the road and soared into the air, her eyes were so firm, she trusted him, and so persistent about reunion in the next life. In the blink of an eye, only tears were left of mortals, and he could not answer directly to her except for the love for the house and birds because of her sister.
Chen Guobin felt confused about this magical, absurd but real rebirth phenomenon.
He knew that he had been escaping from the emotional world, whether it was this life or the previous life. Occasionally he wanted to stay away from all this.
However, he found that he had been deeply involved in this life and brought more things, whether it was the past or later "when it was necessary to face it seriously, it was so heavy. Just a few days ago, he felt heavy pressure on Zhao Yaqin's fertility problem. Such a span was too great for him." He could not make himself forget everything else with peace of mind.
Chen Guobin didn't really take the fame and fortune in front of him seriously. He could give up these clouds without hesitation. However, when the clouds were so closely related to them, he could no longer be so free and easy, and put on a heavy shackle. The complete Astronomy Network was too far away, and he could not afford to do so...
Before he knew it, he walked to Dong Yining's warm bedroom with many dolls and a full breath of little girl. Chen Guobin stared at a group photo of the two sisters on the chuáng headstand for a long time, and the smiles on their faces were so bright. But he saw the sadness in Dong Yining's eyes more and more. Maybe it was just his illusion, but he could easily feel how hard she had been waiting for him.
He understood that he had made her feel familiar many times, just like the sprained foot that time, she could lie in his arms so peacefully... He also understood why she protected her sister much more vigorously than in her previous life, and why she was so determined not to let her sister look for other men. She was not only waiting for him, but also holding her sister to wait for him.
Chen Guobin had no doubt that when needed, Dong Yining would give up herself without hesitation and make way for her sister. She only needed to enjoy limited love and be happy together like she did in her previous life.
Compared to her great spirit, Chen Guobin was ashamed of "he had never been able to make choices."
He had already owe too much heavy things, and he didn't know how to go back to this world. Before the showdown, he could still deceive himself and wander in a state of acting that he had subjectively imagined. "In fact, he found that his acting level was really poor, he was just singing a fake drama." When he woke up, he had fallen into too deep. Apart from continuing to perform along with habits, he didn't know what better way. They all met were so special and so easy to get hurt.
Chen Guobin deeply understood how lonely he was in his heart as a reborn person who came again with deep trauma. He had experienced so much himself. Although he could endure it and buried it deeply in his heart as a man. However, Dong Yining, who was once so weak, had to bear the things that even he felt very heavy, so strong courage it took to endure. In an instant, he understood why she often acted so innocently, even more than her previous life.
She needs a fantasy bird topography. Only this comfort and paralysis can support her to move forward strongly, waiting for her brother-in-law who has known the truth but still has no courage to stand up and is often close to her.
Chen Guobin knew that she often had a familiar feeling for him, but because she was trapped in the impression that the past was too deeply rooted. It seemed incredible in subjectively, but in fact it naturally denied it, just like he had always turned a blind eye to her when he saw her.
Having endured the incomparable loneliness deep in her heart and waiting for it despite the ruthless passage of time, Chen Guobin didn't know how painful his heart was. He remembered the scene where the Supreme Treasure in the Westward Journey, and once wanted to take out his heart and take a look.
But when he really opened his cards, Chen Guobin knew that the blow to her might be much bigger, which made her even more unacceptable. He was once so upright and infatuated in her mind, but now he has become a person who is wandering in the middle and constantly escaping. His changes have been too great.
Even if everything is left alone, Chen Guobin cannot think that he can repeat the previous life with her sister with peace of mind that he and Liang Yining have experienced the future, which will inevitably be an extremely ridiculous act. After the events of the previous life, it will be difficult for him to face the two sisters at the same time in this life. If they can remember the previous life, it will be even greater pain for them.
At the same time, he fell into this life so deep that he even found in horror that Zhao Yaqin had a deeper impression in his mind. When he looked back, he seemed to be close to Dong Wanning, who had disappeared in his heart.
Standing firmly in the middle of Dong Yining's bedroom, Chen Guobin stayed up all night, and in a while, his impression of her had changed unprecedentedly. But this came too late. If he could wake up so much in his previous life, he could have continued to shine in that life. He smiled bitterly...
Dong Yi woke up very early. She remembered that she had some stubbornness last night, so she asked the man to go to her and her sister's closest home alone. It was incredible that she hurried out and went downstairs and rushed to her own house.
Soon, Chen Guobin heard a hurry and familiar knock on the door, but the familiar feeling was much stronger than before. Some things can only be felt with care.
He found that he was so calm at this time that he even cruelly decided to capture Dong Yining's fantasy, so that he would no longer have any illusions to her casually and let her continue to maintain that persistent and beautiful dream without having to withstand the ruthless torture of cruel reality like him. He believed that although waiting was cruel, it was at least better than torture. He chose to endure the torture by himself.
"Have you got up so early?" As soon as the door was opened, Dong Yining looked suspiciously. She found that the man seemed much stranger.
"I have to rush back to Xinyang to work, of course I have to get up early." Chen Guobin had a smile on his face, and felt her extremely familiar gaze very seriously. He took out the key and handed it over, "I'm going to send you the key, it's better if you come back. Well, I'm leaving soon, thank you Yi Ning." He resisted the strong idea of making breakfast for her.
Dong Yining took the key and said, her spirit seemed a little calm: "Brother-in-law walked slowly." Looking at him leaving in a hurry, for some reason, she suddenly felt a deep loss in her heart that was difficult to describe, and she felt very uncomfortable in her emptiness.
Chen Guobin walked very fast, and he found that he could not reach the level of being able to wear a mask completely, so he could only minimize contact. Especially her gaze made him feel particularly tingling. Whether he was standing opposite but not recognizing him, or standing opposite but clearly knowing but not recognizing each other, it was cruel, and the latter was even worse.
He felt more and more sleepy about why he came to this world. In the past year, he had already walked out a lot, but he fell into it again, and it was even worse than when he first came. However, he had already settled a lot more than he had at that time, and obviously had more rationality, although he wanted to act more.
My thoughts were a little lost. When the Friday shift was about to get off work, Chen Guobin grabbed the phone and dialed a number that he rarely called but was very familiar with.
"Yaqin, haven't gotten off work yet? Let me tell you, I won't come back this weekend, I want to go out if I have something to do..."
When Zhao Yaqin heard his words, she was suddenly stunned. She was even more uneasy than similar things he said before he went out like this a year ago.
Like that time, Zhao Yaqin did not stop him and explained seriously: "Be careful when you are away, eat well and sleep well, and don't be late for work next week." After a short pause, she said firmly again: "We don't need any pressure. How can life be our own choice, just be easy."
Chen Guobin felt warm and stunned: "I know. Yaqin, you should pay more attention to your health..."
When driving onto the street, Chen Guobin didn't know where he was going for a while. He didn't want to go to places where he missed it too much and continue to be troubled.
Suddenly I remembered that there was a sister who taught in an elementary school in the mountainous area of the western province and that brother-in-law who had a very weak impression. Chen Guobin decisively turned the steering wheel and drove along National Highway No. 9 to the northwest overnight. He knew that he needed to adjust his mentality...!
Chapter completed!