149、I will be your underground lover
Although only one day later, when Chen Guobin, who was having a headache, was immediately particularly happy when he heard Dong Wanning's voice on the other end of the phone. However, when she mentioned Maggie Cheung, Chen Guobin found that he didn't know what to say. This was not an easy thing. He had many things difficult to face even if he was so familiar with her.
Dong Wanning didn't ask him much about this. Although she wanted to know very much, she even knew that even if he made a mistake, she would explain it to her clearly, but this time she did not explain it, which made her heart a little heavier, and things seemed much more complicated than she thought.
Dong Wanning sighed lightly and changed the subject: "Did you have a quarrel with Yaqin?"
"I didn't make a noise." "You deliberately made a cold war?" "…………………” Chen Guobin agreed.
"Guobin, I feel uncomfortable when you do this." Dong Wanning frowned.
"Wanning, hold on for a while." Chen Guobin felt sorry for his cheering. "I can't do it all in one go this time, and it will be even more difficult in the future."
Dong Wanning held back and did not continue to put pressure on him. She thought that she could only be content with letting him try hard. She said softly: "Guobin, don't think too much. I believe you know how to do it, just don't force yourself."
"Um……"
After putting down the phone, Dong Wanning suddenly fell into deep thought and felt particularly heavy.
When Dong Wanning came back this time, although she felt so many familiar things about Chen Guobin, she also felt a little unfamiliar and couldn't catch some things in his heart. She didn't know what else had happened to him besides coming to this world.
The reason why Dong Wanning went to Xu Shuyan to express his intention to resign without telling Chen Guobin was that she did not want him to have too much and unreliable hopes, and she was not sure that Xu Shuyan would continue to insist on her resignation due to the inevitable loss of Xu Shuyan. If she could successfully hold on, she could make a big step forward on the road to Chen Guobin's beautiful wish (she also had this kind of wish, but she was more rational), so that his hopes could be greater. As long as she did not stay in the officialdom with many taboos, the problem would be relatively simple. If she could not hold on, she would also use this to show Xu Shuyan that she would be firmly determined to have nothing to do with Chen Guobin.
Dong Wanning worked hard and ultimately failed to insist on resigning. She deeply understood that Xu Shuyan treated her as a sentiment to a large extent and devoted too much effort, which made her feel very heavy and could not be so ruthless, but she still took a step back and showed her determination, forcing Xu Shuyan to agree not to interfere with her si-man problem.
Dong Wanning deeply understood that Chen Guobin's desperate efforts this time would encounter various obstacles that were unimaginable. She actually really wanted to do everything and even stay away from here together so that he would no longer be in such pain. But she couldn't do it, and there were always too many problems, whether it was her or him, it was difficult to escape. She was not good at giving him unreliable hope, nor could she cool down his enthusiasm for hard work. She was very conflicted in her heart, and she felt more and more deeply how painful Chen Guobin's torment over the past year was. She had only been here for two days. Her heart hurt even more, but she found that she was so helpless and could hardly help him. If her sister had not experienced rebirth, the problem would have been much simpler, but it was the same.
But Dong Wanning's determination became more and more determined. No matter what incredible things he had experienced, she would keep a warm harbor for him in a daze, so that he would not be so lonely.
She had already felt that even if she was desperate, she could not make him completely lonely. Although this could make him intoxicated and happy before, she forgot a lot for the time being. She knew that he actually liked simplicity very much, but obviously encountered some very difficult things. She felt that he had settled a lot, although he immediately started to play with a child's temper when he met her again. Thinking back to the anxious expression on his face when he saw him asleep in Yueshan that night, the sorrow on Dong Wanning's face became more and more serious............
When he went home for lunch at noon, he was whispered by Mei Lanxiang again, and he couldn't save it at night. Even He Liping knew about it. He called and said a lot. Xu Shuyan also asked Chen Guobin's ears were filled with everyone's enthusiasm and care, but these people were so close to her. He found that he became a super typical person who was determined to do so. Just as he started, he felt many obstacles and it was so difficult. He had the urge to take their sisters directly abroad, but in the end he could only think about it. Not to mention anything else, Dong Wanning's conscience was difficult to pass, and Dong Yining was heartless and hard to say.
The real world finally became quiet. When he went to bed at night, Chen Guobin found that his dream world, which had been briefly quiet because of Dong Wanning's return, seemed to be chaotic again. One by one, the very short fragments were blurred, but he could clearly know who they were.
Since dreaming of the village girl dressing up in an official tour organized by the provincial party committee last year, Maggie Zhou, Chen Guobin's dream world has been in a mess for several months. He has always calmed his mood as much as possible and did not put pressure on himself, thinking that it was just because of pressure. After all, everything is possible in the dream.
But in the days that followed, Chen Guobin was always entangled and trapped by three situations: the real world, the accurate memory of the two sisters, and the inexplicable things in the dream.
He has been trying to understand the reality, and has tried to suppress the two sisters in his memory - that is just a thing of the past. For the things in his dream, he once thought that there was something wrong with his mental problems and wanted to go to see a psychologist, but in the end it was not. He did not think that he would be so cowardly that he would have mental problems.
At the same time, he tried to calm down his mind, relax the pressure, and hoped to return to normal naturally.
But no matter how hard he tried, the things in the dream were still like shadows, and after long-term exposure, his emotions were infected a lot, and an indescribable hesitation increased day by day. That possibility was too incredible. He could not imagine that he could experience so many reincarnations in the same era at the same time with different identities. He tried his best to firmly think that everything was just a dream, because he had a problem with his own thoughts, and he could do so many shocking things that blushed.
Recently, I suddenly discovered that the two sisters had returned, especially Dong Wanning's just arrived, which made Chen Guobin seem to see infinite light. He made himself forget as many things as possible and almost desperately strive to pursue his beautiful wishes. He understood that in this complex and influential environment, as long as he hesitated for a moment, nothing could be changed, opportunities are always so rare and easy to lose. As long as he can be firm with Dong Wanning, he believes that he can be intoxicated and try to forget those illusory things that should not belong to him.
But he and she both have huge constraints that are difficult to get rid of.
Chen Guobin knew that his desperate behavior was funny. It was difficult to work if it fell into one person. It was even more difficult to fall into two people with similar difficulties. Reality was always helpless to make it so difficult to be at will. But he had no choice. If he didn't try hard, he would only be unable to find himself even more. He was already confused, which was much more serious than the confusion he had just passed through.
He has always been afraid that Maggie Zhou will be injured because he has deeply felt her injury in his dream.
This dream about Maggie Zhou is the clearest one he has so far. It is also in this era. He endured Maggie Zhou's long-term long-term words and finally couldn't help but run away from the village angrily, but she encountered an accident while looking for her husband aimlessly, leaving forever. He could not forget the bag she left with her, and put the white towel that used to wipe his face enthusiastically every day... He really wanted to never talk back to her again, but it was always difficult to do it. He and her were born to be uneasy to talk to her...
He also dreamed of some people and things. These people were so familiar and unfamiliar in his life circle. No matter how illusory the dreams were, he still tried hard to make himself change a lot when dealing with them in reality. He always had one or another problem in his dreams.
Since these situations gradually emerged, Chen Guobin felt more and more like a huge nightmare, making him feel heavier even though he was constantly trying to relax. Because of this, he could no longer transmit his emotions to Lin Shilei to share, and the deep spiritual communication with her once gradually faded away..................
Even after Dong Wanning, who knew his heart best, came back, Chen Guobin could not explain this. He could not determine the absurdity of these things and did not want Dong Wanning to share these too heavy things, and at the same time he could not face her with these things.
In the middle of the night after she came back, Chen Guobin slept very peacefully and did not have any dreams, which made him feel surprised and saw a brand new hope.
But he soon discovered that this was just a temporary cover-up effect of the huge pleasure that Dong Wanning had when she came back. On the second night, when he returned from Pingjiang to the Director's House in Xinyang with a heavy mood to sleep from Pingjiang to sleep, although he did not dream, he was very uncomfortable. Zhao Yaqin's last look always made him feel uncomfortable.
And tonight, after fully feeling the many obstacles of the family and the lack of confidence in Dong Wanning, Chen Guobin's hot mind was cooled a lot. He had to face up to all kinds of real and non-realistic problems and continue his crazy behavior on this basis. He was helpless to find that those dreams that had disappeared briefly came to him again.
After waking up in the middle of the night, he looked blankly at the snow-white and shiny sky board, and Chen Guobin, who was lying on the chuáng, was shrouded in deep confusion.
He has been working hard to break the vicious circle that makes people easily panic. Just a few months ago, he made up his mind to make himself firmly live in reality. Only by carefully choosing a model under three different situations that exist simultaneously can he prevent himself from continuing to be confused.
During that period, it was the miyue of him and Zhao Yaqin. Although the two still had so many bumps and bumps. He thought that maybe one day, he and Zhao Yaqin would be together so naturally and no longer have to struggle. As long as he could settle down, he fantasizes that those things would disappear naturally.
But Dong Wanning suddenly came back. At that moment, although he was very happy, he was actually very frightened at the same time, which had seriously damaged his already unstable psychological balance.
Chen Guobin understood that he had to make a quick decision and choose a person in a mode so that the confusion could not continue. He chose Dong Wanning, who was actually difficult to choose. He knew that he didn't have much hope, but he was still desperate. Without working hard, he could not correct the normal concept of time and space, and he was very sad to live a normal life.
Their sisters have actually lived in this world. Although this brought about very sharp problems, it also made Chen Guobin less likely to face a situation. Now he only needs to face the reality and the things in his dreams, and he does not need to continue to face the memories of their sisters. The degree of confusion has been relatively reduced.
Moreover, Dong Wanning's existence is like a warm lamp, which can make him feel warmer when he is wandering. It is not that hard. No matter what, he still firmly believes that at the end of the ice and snow, he can always find a warm home. And the dream that seems to be the only one left has always been his greatest spiritual sustenance in a disordered state. He cannot fall down in that dream. He must muster up unprecedented courage to continue moving forward, regardless of wind and rain.
He once again struggled to trek under the storm, his waist was straighter and his pace was more steady,...
He felt a warm hand again and reached out.
"The sun is almost sunny and my butt can't get up again?" Mei Lanxiang's voice with a hint of pity and anger suddenly sounded in her ears, "Do you want to go to work?" Chen Guobin opened his eyes suddenly and saw the rich expression on her face. He couldn't help but hold her hand tightly and smiled obediently: "It's okay, I'm the director, I will go whenever I want." "What are you doing?" Mei Lanxiang frowned and shook the guy's hand, staring at her a little annoyed, "Director is amazing, right? Get up quickly!" While raising his hand to pretend to threaten. Humph, even if you are the provincial party secretary, I dare to spank you! Mei Lanxiang was full of fantasies in her heart.
Chen Guobin laughed and quickly turned over. This time, Mei Lanxiang finally stopped telling him the legendary story of Chen Shimei, but working hours were coming. He rarely overslept like this.
He was so angry that he was so angry that Chen Guobin was not late when he finally arrived at the office. Chen Guobin had lasted the long cold war for more than a month, and it was the scorching July.
Every week, except when he picked up Mei Lanxiang and returned to Pingjiang's home, he always lived in the director's home in Xinyang. During this period, he always met Zhao Yaqin, and the two of them always said nothing.
He saw Zhao Yaqin devote almost all his energy to work, which made him feel a little relieved, and even more uncomfortable.
However, Zhao Yaqin still remembers to exercise on time, especially turning the hula hoop to maintain the necessary figure and not look down on people. Chen Guobin finally felt a little more relieved.
The people around him have advised countless people, such as big principles and small principles, but Chen Guobin was like crazy and still insisted on his own until the persuasion almost lost confidence and persuaded them less and less. They were all in a bad mood. However, Zhao Yaqin did not express any expression. She did not care whether Chen Guobin came or went or did whatever he loved. She continued to be her county party secretary seriously and never mentioned the issue of divorce.
Chen Guobin couldn't drive it. He would have driven it long ago if he wanted to drive it.
He and Dong Wanning may not meet each other once a week, and there are few phone calls. It is difficult for them to get closer in such a heavy state, not to mention that Dong Wanning has a sister to be careful. During business, Dong Wanning has had a single conversation with Zhao Yaqin several times. Every time she can fully feel Zhao Yaqin's extremely cold attitude and a clear resentment contained in it. This makes Dong Wanning always feel uneasy, and she keenly realizes that Zhao Yaqin will not agree to the divorce at all, but is ready to drag it to the end so that they can't let them fly together with peace of mind.
Every time she met Chen Guobin, she didn't even hold her hands. In fact, it was not easy for Chen Guobin to stretch out his hands, as it was always heavy.
The two met again.
This time they met under the night view of Yu Xingcheng on Wednesday night. In order not to worry Chen Guobin, Dong Wanning came in a special seat of the "Book" who had been subdued by her and no longer informed her sister. After meeting Chen Guobin, she sent the tactful nanny to drive to the hotel.
Chen Guobin and Dong Wanning walked down the river embankment of the Xiangjiang River and sat next to a stone on the side of the river beach. The neon lights around the world were flashing, but it was hazy here. The river tides under their feet hit one after another, beating the shore and surging endlessly.
They felt quietly for a long time but didn't speak, and it was rare to relax. Once they spoke, they were always heavy.
"Guobin, are you tired?" Dong Wanning finally asked softly.
Chen Guobin smiled relaxedly: "A little bit, tingting will pass."
"I'm tired." Hearing her say this, Chen Guobin's heart suddenly became tight. He couldn't help but reach out to gently embrace her who was right beside her, but he didn't know what to say.
Dong Wanning's body softened a little, and her head fell on his shoulders. "Guobin, stop continuing.
Because we two make so many people unhappy, it's really bad. We have too many obstacles to overcome." Chen Guobin looked bitter: "How can we be happy if that?"
"Let the people around us be happier, and we will feel better." Dong Wanning said firmly, "If we are too self-conscious, we will not be better."
"Is this our destiny?" Chen Guobin smiled bitterly.
Dong Wanning reached out to hug him and said erectly: "Guobin, I won't let you be alone."
Chen Guobin shook his head gently: "I'm not afraid of loneliness, I'm just afraid you won't have a good time."
"As long as you and Yi Ning are there, I will be happy., Dong Wanning pats his back to comfort him, but it is still difficult to express the long-standing suspicion. She knew that he must have something to do, but she didn't want her to know.
They snuggled up and were quiet for a while. The cool river breeze on the summer night blew on their bodies, making people drunk. They wanted to close their eyes and stop thinking about any questions.
"It's very late. Guobin, let's go back to the hotel." Dong Wanning suddenly said gently, which made Chen Guobin stunned, "We?"
"Yeah!" Dong Wanning nodded vigorously, clenched his hand tightly, her face full of determination. "If you can't be your wife, I will be your underground lover. I can't let you continue like that! That will ruin you!"
"Wanning" Chen Guobin was immediately thrust hard in his heart, shook his head anxiously, and before he could say it, he felt a warm mouth blocking his mouth. He saw clearly the beautiful big eyes in front of her, with a lot of tenderness inside.
His body suddenly stopped, tears seeping out. He understood what she meant, and wanted him who had been floating around forever to have a warm and reliable harbor, which was no longer so difficult. It was a huge sacrifice.
But he was immediately melted and lost the power of rejection. She was so firm and determined. He could no longer take her away from all this, and she would not agree. She was so great at this moment that he felt extremely heartbroken.
Chen Guobin finally opened his mouth, stretched out his awkward tongue, and reached into the sweet holy land, sucking the long-lost gurgling juice.
He tried hard to make himself forget everything and was extremely serious in his work. He just wanted to keep this most precious moment forever...
The cold war with Zhao Yaqin came to an abrupt end, and life returned to normal was so natural that everyone felt relieved.
Chen Guobin became more enthusiastic, making the people around him relaxed and happy, and also worked hard to make himself relaxed and happy, and worked hard to get to the next level as soon as possible and take off the disgraceful hat of a section-level cadre. Everyone thought he was a little taller.
Dong Wanning changed back to her before she went to Yueshan. She was still the good sister who loved her sister highly. He and her always had a heart, although they rarely met each other, so they would say a few words.
He still dreams, but he is no longer afraid. If he loves life well, he will be much more solid if he can make them who are not far away from him feel better...!
Chapter completed!