As the semester ends, the results of the previous exams have been released one after another. Liu Fan's matrix theory is B, and the numerical analysis is only C, and English C is very bad. In fact, he already feels after the exam. Although love is sweet, it does affect his studies. He has made a lot of effort and the result is very bad.

If you are in a bad mood, you will easily quarrel.

01     Liu Fan: The mood at this moment [January 12]

I can't explain my mood at this moment, and I always feel that why life is not inseparable from me again and again. How much does it have to hit me? I have to make me lose control. I don't want to complain about anything. I don't understand how the world works. I always face the fate of injustice again and again. I always feel so depressed that I always make me feel bad.

It may not be enough to describe the discomfort. How much does it have to endure? I will never give me a good mood.

I did something wrong, what was wrong? Yes, really, I suddenly felt so cold. When did it start? The smile in my heart is gone. I always disappointed me again and again. I don’t get the same rewards when I give it. Where did my efforts go? Can one thing really limit me so much?

Oh my God, I really can't help but complain, why do you mean this? I really get out of control. I always have to face it again and again if I want to give up or exile.

Cruel, trembling, maybe my rhythm is already messed up, I haven't found the current rhythm yet, can anyone tell me what to do, make my heart messed up, and then force it to control it again, what kind of pain is this? When is the end?

However, I will not admit defeat. I will eventually find my own rhythm and find what I have lost. I have experienced such a bad situation. I just want to see how bad the situation can be. I also want to actively change my style.

The next step is to take positive rest, and do things actively.

02     Liu Fan: That boy [January 13]

Everything seems to be repeated, and the contradictions seem to be torn. When I was young, I was always taciturn and silently looked into the distance, and the things in my head spread outwards one by one.

As a weak person, I always accumulate strength and overcome difficulties. Before the college entrance examination, it seemed that I had overcome all my weaknesses and started to be proud when I was in college.

I returned to these vicious circles. No matter how much I felt, I felt a lot, and during a moment of kissing with my baby, my breath was calm and hesitant, and my true temperament would quietly appear. Yes, I am a pessimistic person, and I was very hesitant.

For a while, it was like Qian Le in "Friends", who played endless jokes in order to cover up his inner embarrassment.

Everything returns to zero, accumulate energy from a new beginning, and overcome problems from a new beginning. This is a rare opportunity to surpass yourself again.

The result of transcending this stage will definitely be satisfactory, but please remember that when you are satisfied, don’t be proud and imagine the pain of these frustrations.

[03] The two had a conflict in the evening.

04     Liu Fan: Twitching (2009-01-13    23:45:00)

Once again, again.

My heart was twitching, and I remembered Daolang's song. If you didn't know how many cups I drank that night, you wouldn't know how much I loved you.

Looking at the cold expression and without looking back, my heart twitched and tears rolled in my eyes.

Moving step by step, walking through the bridge hole, the cold wind blew my declining heart, not high, full of fighting spirit. At this moment, what do I feel? It seems that you are about to leave my expectations, your heart sinks, and you take time a little bit.

I have always been disliked in my heart. I have to pretend that nothing can make me fluctuate in my heart. So I think about the worst and then adapt to the worst mentality so that my heart will not fluctuate. I hate the waveform in my heart, and the twitching makes it difficult to breathe.

Maybe I should exercise again, otherwise how can I bear it? If that sudden feeling will definitely swallow me up.

The reason why love is fascinating is that when two people who are not related inadvertently encounter each other, they will change their life trajectory for each other. However, when they leave, it doesn't matter anymore. It's like this person has never appeared in life. The memory related to each other is deleted. The mind is not like a computer, and can be formatted and deleted forever.

What kind of pain is that? Take time, maybe my heart is sentimental, rational thinking, and people are contradictions.

Here you can express your thoughts and calm your heart. As you write, your heart will be calm. If you want to take the exam tomorrow, don’t be nervous, it will pass, no matter whether it is good or bad, it will pass.

I have a good night's sleep tonight, and that feeling comes again. Because it's beautiful, I'm afraid of losing. The better it is, the more painful it is. What should I do? It's a little bit changed. If the short-term pain can avoid eternal pain and regrets, I want to choose short-term pain.

05     Liu Fan: Cold butt (2009-01-14    12:46:53)

I don’t like it the most, I use enthusiasm to stick to my cold butt. I started last night and tried my best to endure it. If you take the exam today, don’t have anything to do, why do you have to make trouble?

I have to do this and not cherish my body. When I go back, I can’t get up early to read books? I have to lie on the table and sleep for an hour, making myself very uncomfortable, and then read for another hour. I feel uncomfortable and have a bad rest. I can’t read books today.

Why is it like this? Why can’t I figure it out? I don’t take my body seriously. I’m very angry and very angry.

[06] The couple in love quarrels quickly and sadly, but they also go quickly. When Yan Ling finished the exam in the afternoon and ended the final period, Liu Fan went to find her to have dinner together. The two of them smiled happily and fed each other sweetly, without any enemies who were still fighting each other in the morning.

Yan Ling was reviewing the last difficult exam and felt a lot of pressure.

Liu Fan's grades in several courses were very average and he was very disappointed.

It is easy to cause conflicts.

After relaxing, Yan Ling also went to perm her hair.

The two went back to Liu Fan's dormitory together and did it on the bed twice.

Afterwards, Liu Fan recorded in his diary: ML4-5, time: 2009-1-14    Around 7 o'clock in the evening, location: On the bed in my brother's dormitory, the baby permed his hair, very pp, twice in a row, and then he experienced the beauty!

Not only that, Liu Fan recorded in his diary the next day: ML6-7, time: around 16 pm, 2009-1-15, the baby arrived at his brother's dormitory, on his brother's bed, his posture was basically skilled and he blended in harmony.

07     Liu Fan: Love Sex (2009-01-15    23:00:34)

I did twice yesterday and twice today. I was a little tired and felt a very wonderful touch.

Although this semester is not satisfactory, I have also paid for it, so I need to adjust my mentality, be calm, and enhance my desires.

Have a good rest, adjust, and handle things well. Just go out to play tomorrow. To be familiar with it, reading thousands of books is worse than walking thousands of miles.

[08] On January 16, I completely let go of the pressure of the end of the period. The two made an appointment to visit the Chenghuang Temple, a famous scenic spot in Jianghai. They ate delicious snacks from Benbang. Although they were tired, they were very excited. After the tour, they walked to the Bund to visit and took pictures of many moments along the way.

When passing by a bamboo forest, Yan Ling's baby could not walk and his legs were sore. The two stopped to rest. Liu Fan sat on the ground and Yan Ling sat on his lap. The two also took some selfies with a SLR camera, and naturally they had to kiss each other honey. The two always sucked each other's lips untiringly.

There were so many tourists on the Bund, two little fools hugged each other, Yan Lingxiao, who was born with cold body, was so cold that she was trembling. Liu Fan opened the down jacket and wrapped her inside.

After going back tonight, Yan Ling was fine. Liu Fan had a little cold. She felt very distressed and said, "Brother, let's prepare to drink ginger tea tomorrow."

The weather is at the coldest moment of the year. She stayed alone in the dormitory but didn't feel cold. This year's cold winter is particularly warm.
Chapter completed!