I just saw a colleague driving a car to get home from get off work, sitting next to him with his girlfriend, who was seventeen or eighteen years old, and I was 26, and I went to the factory cafeteria with a cigarette in my mouth.

Bathing in the sun, it is indescribable to feel comfortable. I was thinking that it was boring no matter how you lived. Working in a factory is simple, but it is boring.

I want to leave, and my monthly salary is a little over 3,000. Then where to go? Should I write a book or write while traveling? What if I don’t have any compensation?

What to eat and where to live? A very realistic question.

During dinner, I posted on WeChat my sister I used to recognize in Huizhou: "Don't you play games in your spare time?"

She replied: "I'm very busy and don't have time to play games or play games."

I was puzzled: "How is it possible? I don't believe it."

She didn't return, and after a few minutes she didn't see her return, I asked, "So motivated?"

She soon replied: "I'm studying graphic design now."

"So there is no time to play, even if you have time, just chat and study."

"Even if I don't study, I didn't play games before, so I only had three minutes to get popular."

I sent three messages in succession, and I replied: "Design."

"admire."

"I didn't work so hard."

My mood is complicated. She and I used to meet in an electronics factory in Huizhou. She was two years older than me. I didn’t expect to be studying design now. Besides working, I play games, drink alcohol or ride a bicycle.

As for the novel I wrote, I always feel that I am unique, arrogant and disdainful of being with others. When I go to work, I usually don’t talk to my colleagues. I think talking to them is a waste of time. It’s better to think about the plot of the novel.

She replied: "I can't learn well, I."

"After learning, I can't use a software very much now."

Working time is up, I didn't reply, and I don't know how to reply.

Whether working in a factory or writing novels, I don’t have the motivation or patience, and I feel that I’m useless.

To be honest, I understand the truth. I know that I should work hard and earn money for a year, so that I can calm down and write novels.

But I didn't do that. I felt that why I had to be so tired. There were gains and losses. Just like I became friends with him on WeChat, and I could get some news and company from him, but I also paid some things.

He slept in my rented house for two nights, invited him to have a meal, borrowed money from me without money, and asked me for any cigarettes or tissues.

Facts have proved that everything has gains and losses, and what is gain means losing, and what is lost means gain.

I felt that everything was so contradictory and bothered me. There was a girl in our workshop. I began to fall in love with her, but she was someone else's girlfriend.

My dad posted a photo of my grandmother planting melon seedlings. I commented: That is also a kind of happiness.

My dad replied: You can find happiness outside, and dad doesn’t tell you.

It seems that my dad and I haven’t had a good chat. We are not on the first channel. What should I do? We still remain silent when we argue hard!

Sometimes I think this way, going to school may not be a good thing. I shouldn’t have studied at the beginning, so I can do things with Feifei and the others, drink, play together, and play together.

Feifei is my childhood friend and my brother. When we were young, we had a very good relationship, but now we have a sense of distance. He has only been to the fifth grade of elementary school. Where is me? Although I have only been to junior high school, I like reading books and have been reading.

We speak and do things in different ways. I have an indescribable feeling, just like we are people from two worlds.

He divorced not long ago, and his two daughters belonged to him. He is now making money on the construction site to support his family. If possible, he will find a well-known woman to marry. If not, forget it.

What about me? I want love, beautiful love, it doesn’t matter whether I get married or not, whether I have children or not.

2018.3.28, Zhongshan is cloudy.

(End of this chapter)
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