At 7:30 in the morning, there was a strong wind outside the window, and the sound of rushing. I went downstairs to buy breakfast in a slipper and a coat.

Pedestrians rushed to work on the road. I was lucky and a little envious. I have been working in temporary workers in recent years, and the longest one I have worked in is less than half a year. I bought my mobile phone two years ago and it is not easy to use.

I also want to have a stable job and have a suitable girlfriend, but things went against my wishes, and I didn’t even have the courage to go home during the New Year.

I sent a WeChat message to my former colleague Xie De and asked him to find a job together.

I don’t have a job, and I feel empty and have no sense of security. As long as I find a job and work hard for a month, I can buy a new phone.

Of course, I don’t have that strong desire to buy, my heart is very calm, what’s the difference between buying or not? Maybe you don’t agree with saying that I’m hypocritical.

I don't explain, I don't need to explain to those I don't care about, and the people I care about have not yet appeared.

Xie De and I first went to the environmental protection factory he mentioned to see, and whether to accommodate or not, they were working in two shifts. We were hesitant about whether to fuck me, and Xie De was the same.

It was cloudy just now, and in a blink of an eye, the wind and clouds changed color, and the clouds were cloudless. The blue sky was like a beautiful sea.

I decided to be a temporary worker. The next middle-aged uncle from the elevated urban railroad called us and introduced a 14-hour job in a colorful way.

We surrendered. It was almost the end of March. There were not so many factories recruiting workers, and there was no money on them. In addition, working hours were OK, so let's work for a month!

I invited Xie De to lunch, ordered a stir-fried bacon with braised eggplant and dried beans, and a mushroom chicken soup, which costs 37 yuan in total.

I was very full but I was unhappy because I had poor teeth and couldn't eat hard foods. It hurts all day. When I eat alone, I basically ate noodles, dumplings, tofu and other foods.

I have many physical problems, which is why I live unhappy. I can't blame my parents for not taking good care of me since I was a child, because my parents lived in that poor era.

I used to be very angry: "Why did God treat me like this? What did I do wrong."

No one answered me. Sometimes I felt that I was not as good as a dog. As I got older and understood more, I became unhappy.

After having a job, he had at least one thing to worry about. Xie De thought of me sleeping in a rented house for one night, but I didn't agree. I said to him: "I'm pretty dirty, so don't go, I'm embarrassed."

In addition to being dirty, it is more private. The quilt has not been washed for more than a month, the dirty clothes have been stored for three days, the ground has not been dragged for half a month, and the pots and bowls have also emitted a strange smell. Anyway, as soon as I entered the room, I smelled an unpleasant smell.

It's ugly, I don't want others to see it, and I heard that it's different from seeing it with my own eyes. I'm not perfect and have many shortcomings. I have always comforted myself like this: If I meet that her, I will definitely work hard for her.

A man who lives in a dream can only hypnotize himself, which woman will like it.

I know I'm wrong, but I'm alive like this. Some people will say that rotten wood cannot be carved. I really have no hope or ambition.

Hawking is a great scientist, Beethoven is a musical genius, and my body is also incomplete, so why can't I be remembered by the world like them?

Having written this, I was silent. I was indeed unwilling to give up. Everyone is also human, why can't I be as dazzling as the sun?

2018.30, at 1:30 p.m., Zhongshan, Guangdong was sunny and strong windy.

(End of this chapter)
Chapter completed!