"Yang Lixin, you are too extreme, so what about the poor family? If you want to work hard and polish the foundation little by little, you may not be able to turn the tables!"

"Reversal? I used to think so, but reality always makes people feel powerless and desperate. The so-called reversals are all about cheating children."

He lowered his head powerlessly. At this time, Yang Lixin was like a loser, and his whole body was filled with a decadent aura.

"Hengzhi, you don't know that although I have been the county magistrate in Lujiang City for several years, I actually have no prestige at all."

"Those high-ranking families and gang families take me seriously! Sometimes I wonder if I am not as good as a puppet."

"I tried hard to do something for the people, but failed again and again and again and again!"

"I don't know how many times I lost, until a few months ago!"

Looking back on everything in my mind, everything that happened a few months ago is the fundamental reason why he has fallen to the present.

It’s not that he wants to become like this, it’s just because he has no choice.

"Hengzhi, you don't know some things. A few months ago, I don't know why the strength of those warriors suddenly increased greatly, and they began to become arrogant, and even the most basic disguise was torn off."

"The improvement of strength brings about the expansion of ambitions. They don't care about anything else at all. The original battle in the dark is completely on the surface."

"At that time, Lujiang City was full of struggles and blood was bleeding everywhere."

"They acted recklessly, as if they wanted to reveal the most sinister side of their hearts. They killed and set fire, and began to do everything like bandits."

He clenched his fists, and the story of the past was vivid in his mind, which was a nightmare he didn't want to recall.

At that time, he was still powerless and could only be bullied and ravaged by the arrogant masters again and again.

"At that time, the ordinary people in Lujiang City were completely affected by heavy casualties. Every family was hanging white silk, and people were wailing and crying every night."

"I watched the people be killed, and I couldn't bear it, so I went to beg them, begging them not to attack the people, and not to hurt the innocent."

"But they don't agree. I beg them, they just don't agree!"

"They made me kneel down, asked me to bow my head, let me learn to bark, and even let me lick their uppers. I did all this. For the sake of the people, I can tolerate it!"

"I just hope they can kill fewer people, I just hope they can restrain themselves, at least not make the people in Lujiang City panic. At least, it can give the people a way out!"

"But in the end I was still fooled. Not only did they not have bracelets, they became more and more rampant."

His eyes were red, and those humiliating memories engraved in his bones were unforgettable. Those ordinary people who died tragically in front of him seemed to be complaining about his uselessness over and over again.

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"Shen Yu, you don't know at all. They forced the robbery of the civilian girl in front of me and the county magistrate that day. More than a dozen people defiled a young girl who had not yet reached the mark."

"You won't know what kind of scene it was. The girl finally dripped in blood between her legs, and finally she couldn't even make a wail."

"She just looked at me like this. She hoped that I would save her, and I wanted to save her, and I tried my best to save her."

"But they stepped on their heads and couldn't even get up. I could only watch and you know how helpless I was at that time!"

He looked at Chen Yu with a roar. At this time, Yang Lixin was almost crazy, as if he was about to vent his anger in his heart.

At that time, he really had the urge to destroy everything, and that feeling was still difficult to erase even now.

"Hengzhi, Brother Chen, I am different from you. I am a waste, a useless waste!"

"You said, what can I do? What can I do? I just want the people under my rule to live and work in peace. I just want them to kill less, but I can't do it!"

"I can only watch the people being killed, I can only listen to their wailings, and I can do nothing except roaring at the evil thugs helplessly!"

"After killing, they will show it in front of me with great swagger, as if showing off their record."

"My county magistrate is just the clown they use to entertain!"

He sighed decadently, who could know the sadness at the beginning? Those warriors who acted recklessly were mocking him for being incompetent, and those suffering people were calling him useless.

And he himself had no choice but to swallow all the suffering into his stomach.

What he could do at that time? As long as he had a little chance, he had to hold on to it.

"That time was when I was the most helpless and painful time, and I wanted to give up for a moment."

"I can only buy drunk every day to numb myself, and even hope that I can't afford to get drunk, so I won't have to suffer from it anymore."

"But at this moment, I met that person, and I made a deal with him. He gave me strength, and from then on, I handed over everything about me, including my soul!"

"I have no choice. I can no longer watch so many innocent people living in dire straits, so I can only do this."

"Relying on the power he gave, I successfully suppressed all the people in the city who were in trouble. I made them feel fear, and from then on I will never dare to oppress the people at will."

"They all thought I had endured for several years, and once it broke out. I didn't know that I sold myself to get this kind of power!"

"But do you know the price? The price is that I am not me anymore!"

Looking up, Yang Lixin's face was full of coldness, and murderous intent seemed to quietly begin to occupy his mind and deprive him of his reason.

"Every night comes, I start killing people. I can't control myself, and my hands are covered with blood."

"I am helpless, I am confused. I watched myself killing the whole family. I heard the crying baby finally lost his rest in my hands, and I was completely broken!"

"You know, I became the person I once hated the most and hated the most, that's the price!"

"I can't accept such a reality, and I can't stand myself becoming what I am now."

"Gradually, I began to block my memories, I began to try to forget the fact that I would kill people at night, and I began to deceive myself gradually."

"Tell me that I am a good official, and my strength is what I have learned from my own hard work, not a transaction, not a betrayal of myself!"

"But now, you want to pull my memory apart and remind me of the past."

"You don't know everything I've experienced. Of course you can be high above you. Of course you can stand at the moral high point and insult me ​​wantonly, but does anyone know how I lived."

"Kill, kill, I want to kill everything and destroy everything!"

As the memory returns, Yang Lixin becomes more and more abnormal at this time, and his murderous intent begins to boil, and his whole body is filled with extreme irritability.

"No, why am I like this? Shouldn't I lose myself only at night? Why is it still like this now?"

Listening to Yang Lixin's words, Chen Yu's eyes swept around and couldn't help but whisper to himself, "Maybe, it's because I showed up!"

"Hengzhi, kill me, kill me!" He grabbed Chen Yu's shoulder with both hands, and Yang Lixin's red eyes seemed to have endless blood, which was a tyranny that seemed to be possible at any time.

"I don't want to be controlled, nor do I want to be a sinner covered in blood with my hands. I've had enough. While I'm still a little sensible, you can kill me, which is also a relief for me!"

Seeing that Chen Yu did not take action, Yang Lixin pulled out the knife of the constable next to him and straddled it to his neck.

"Ziheng!"

"Hengzhi, don't have to come here. Do you remember what we said before the scientific examination? We encouraged each other and said that we must be a good official in the future and benefit the people."

"But now I have broken my promise. Not only did I achieve nothing in the past few years, but today is contrary to my original dream."

"Hengzhi, you must be a good official. Don't be like me, and don't be like me!"

He took a deep breath and the blade in his hand slashed across his neck, bringing up a large piece of blood and spraying it out.

Immediately afterwards, Yang Lixin fell into a pool of blood, and his body continued to twitch. His eyes were staring at the sky without any attention, as if he was expressing his unwillingness.

Chapter 773 I just want to be a good official
Chapter completed!