The word mother has always been circling in Shi Yan's mind, but this is the first time I have seen it with my own eyes, or in my memory.

Although she did not turn around, the two of them were connected by flesh and blood, and their blood was thicker than water. How could they not know who she was?

It was twenty years since he saw his mother for the first time. The Shi family had no image of her, nor did anyone talk to him, so his mother was always blank in his memory. The Shi family was not allowed to mention his father and mother, so only in the bed in the middle of the night did Shi Yan miss his parents and secretly wipe his tears. He had hoped to meet his parents once, even if it was just one side, even if it was just a back.

It was not until he "dead" and threw it into the ancestral grave, and wandered out to survive, that this longing for his parents in childhood gradually became hidden.

At the same time, he was ready to not be able to see his parents for the rest of his life, but he did not expect to see him today.

He was not mentally prepared at all, and he didn't even know what expressions to use when the two of them face each other later. Is it joy? Or okay, it seems that other expressions are not suitable for now except joy.

The woman turned around slowly, her eyes as gentle as water, looking at Shi Yan.

Shi Yan looked at him blankly, thinking about what expression to use, but at this moment, his mind was completely blank, and he had long known where he was thinking about it.

Looking at the strange but familiar face, Shi Yan shed two lines of tears in a dissatisfaction.

Is this my mother? I was so beautiful, no wonder I am very handsome.

To be honest, even Shi Yan himself was very surprised. He didn't feel like crying, but why couldn't he control his tears?

The woman's eyes were also wet, looking at Shi Yan greedily, trying to make up for the gap of twenty years in a row, for fear that he would disappear in the blink of an eye.

"You're here." Ji Ling'er opened her mouth and had a lot of words to say, but it was blocked in her throat, and only three words came out.

Shi Yan took a deep breath and said with a smile, "Yeah, I'm here."

The two of them were still standing there and looking at each other, but they didn't say another word. How can thousands of words express their feelings at this moment?

"Madam, this is really not a place to talk." Jiang Bo whispered: "Anyway, the young master has come back, and it's not a bad time."

"Oh, yes, look at me." Ji Ling'er came to her senses and stepped forward to hold Shi Yan's hand, "Come on, I'll take you to your room."

"My room?" Shi Yan was a little surprised. It was my first time here, how could I have my room?

Hua Ruo smiled and said, "Madam, she, as early as when you left, she dressed up a room that belonged to you, just for this moment."

Shi Yan sighed slightly. It seems that for twenty years, not only he has missed his parents, but also his parents missed themselves.

This is not just a room, but represents the mother's longing for herself. The hint of hatred and complaint in Shi Yan's heart suddenly disappeared without a trace.

Originally, Shi Yan had some small hatred and complaints about them. But today I saw someone and realized that perhaps they were not voluntarily about separation, or perhaps there was something hidden.

Along the way, Ji Ling'er held Shi Yan's hand and asked about her well-being. Shi Yan didn't say anything. She just listened quietly.

Finally arrived at Shi Yan's room, Shi Yan looked at his room and felt a little unbelievable.

This house is very big, with a lot of things in it, including cribs, toys, and clothes. These things almost cover everything a person needs from childhood to growth. Let’s talk about clothes. In the huge wardrobe on one side, nearly a thousand pieces of clothes were placed side by side from childhood to adulthood, covering all age groups.

"These clothes are all made by the wife myself." Hua Ruo said.

Shi Yan was moved. For twenty years, she could only look at the house and miss her son, and could only make clothes to guess how her son looked. Clothes were not clothes, but mother's longing for herself every day and night. Compared with her sometimes and sometimes without missing her, compared with her pain when she missed her, she was completely different from her mother.

"Shi Yan, are you hungry? I'll cook for you? What do you like to eat? Tell your mother." Ji Ling'er's thoughts were all on her son who had been lost for many years, with a look of joy on her face.

Shi Yan looked at the woman in front of him who was so strange to him who was connected with him, and shook his head gently, saying, "I'm not hungry."

"Okay." Ji Ling'er looked at Shi Yan who was tepid, and felt a little ups and downs in her heart, "It's okay, my mother is slow anyway, and you might be hungry if you do it well." As she said that, Ji Ling'er went out with red eyes. Speaking of which, Ji Ling'er was looking forward to today's arrival, but she was also very scared. After all, she had not fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother. She was afraid that her son would hate her and blame her. Now he didn't say much, and she was even more indifferent. This made Ji Ling'er feel a sudden feeling, and she had a bad premonition, and her son hated her in her heart.

"He must be blaming me now. I'm sorry, he must be blaming me. I have never been responsible for being a mother for so many years, so it's up to him that he should blame me." Ji Ling'er cried and cried while walking.

"I didn't blame you." Suddenly, a voice from behind Shi Yandao's forehead came from behind. It turned out that she saw her red eyes and followed her.

"Yan'er, you blame your mother for being right, it's right."

"It really doesn't. Maybe it's been there now, but now, it's really not at all." Shi Yan said: "It's just that everything that happened today shocked me too much. Things happened too suddenly and it made people unable to get by."

When Ji Ling'er heard her son say it in person, she felt relieved and laughed. She also understood that today was the first time she met in a real sense, and there might be many things that were not adapted to, which is normal. She would definitely think of it normally, but now it is related to her son, and she is concerned about her and has a lot of trouble, so she is worried.

Shi Yan took out a silk scarf and carefully wiped away the tears from his mother's face.

"You are my mother. Didn't you lose me as well when I lose you? How can I bear to blame you?"

Ji Ling'er was crying with joy, shed tears, and looked at Shi Yan with loving forehead.

She wiped away her tears and smiled happily, "You go back to your room, I'll make you something delicious."

Looking at his mother's departure, Shi Yan was complicated.

"It's the first time I've seen my wife cook in so many years." Jiang Bo sighed.

"For your blessing, I can finally taste the craftsmanship of my wife." Hua Ruo smiled.

The dishes are very rich, and a large table is set up, made of various precious ingredients, and there are even many precious spirit beasts. If the ingredients of such a table of dishes are announced, it may make the world crazy.

This is how my mother hopes to give her son the best in the world.

There was only mother and son and Hua Ruo on the table. Jiang Bo claimed that he was a servant and was not allowed to attend the table, so he was waiting aside.

During the meal, Ji Ling'er almost didn't eat much. Most of the time he picked up food for him, or looked at him with a gentle and loving look, staring at him blankly.

After dinner, Ji Ling'er kept holding Shi Yan's hand and talked in the back garden together.

In fact, speaking is just Ji Ling'er's words, Shi Yan listens.

"Yan'er, do you know how long I have been waiting for this day?" Ji Ling'er's eyes were a little red. When she remembered what happened at the time, she was both regret and self-blame. "When I sent you away with my own hands, my heart seemed to be broken. For so many years, I have been missing you and looking forward to the arrival of this day. Finally, this day finally came."

Shi Yan smiled bitterly, "Why did you send me away? At Shi's family, you are not allowed to mention you and your father. Whenever I see others playing with their parents and growing up with their parents, I am particularly envious."

Ji Ling'er's voice choked, "Yan'er, you've suffered."

"Is it bitter?" Shi Yan smiled and said, "To put it bluntly, it's hard, but it's not hard. For so many years, I have been running around for survival, and I have no time to stop and miss it. It has almost closed all my longing for you, so the pain of missing you is very little."

"How are you doing at Shi's house?" Ji Ling'er asked.

"Is the Shi family? Haha, I haven't been back for twelve years." Shi Yan said with a dark look, "At the time, my grandfather found all the famous doctors and immortals, but could not be cured. Finally, he was thrown into the ancestral grave and let me die. Fortunately, I was never stopped, and I survived by me." Then, he said everything about the past years. Only he knew the pain in the past, but now, he was like a child who was wronged, "complained" in front of his mother. In fact, this was also a kind of spoiled act. Before he knew it, he had already integrated into the role of his son.

Ji Ling'er listened to Shi Yan's experience over the past twelve years and burst into tears. "You have suffered. I only know that you will come back here at the age of 20, but I don't know that you will experience so much pain. If I knew, I would never let you leave no matter what." As he said, he hugged the past Shi Yan: "Yan'er, you have suffered so much for these years."

He was hugged by his mother, resting his head on his chest, and listening to the familiar heartbeat, Shi Yan suddenly felt that time had stopped, everything in the world had quieted down, only the heartbeat sounded in his ears.

Bang bang, bang bang

Shi Yan felt warm all over, as if he had not been born yet, and he grew up quietly in his mother's body, listening to her heartbeat.

"Your father had no choice but to send you away. With his ability, he could only calculate a few key points of the path you were walking, and could not deduce them all, so he didn't know your experience." Ji Ling'er whispered: "But even if your unscrupulous father knew, he would not care. He would definitely say, 'If God is going to give a great responsibility to this person, he must first suffer his mind and mind, exhaust his muscles and bones, starve his body, and be empty of his body, and act to disturb his actions. Therefore, he should be moved and endure his nature and increase his ability.''Boys should go through various difficulties before they can achieve something in the future' and so on."

Shi Yan smiled embarrassedly and was immediately confused. Why didn’t he see his mother?

When he asked his mother the question, Ji Ling'er smiled bitterly: "He deduced your trajectory for the next twenty years, looked at the secrets of heaven, and was punished by heaven."

"Heavenly punished!" Shi Yan was shocked. Could it be, "Father is he dead?"

PS: These chapters are a turning point, it’s a bit difficult to write. Xue Jun is Kavenka so much that he wants to die
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