He stood on a lonely cliff, staring blankly at the churning sea in front of him, and looking around at the endless thunder in the sky.

He is not afraid of tsunamis or thunder and lightning. He can even control the sun and destroy the world. How can he care about such a small thing?

He just felt a little familiar and a little regretful.

Somewhat...reluctant to give up.

What a resemblance. How resembling the time when Teacher Hilliard passed away.

If he starts his 'reincarnation', the 'Hilliard of this world' will probably be forgotten.

Yes, Ian believes that the 'Ian' in the next life will be like his current self, and even love his teacher even more, because all the 'Ians' in infinite time and space are Ian.

Ian's love will be superimposed, Ian's hate will disappear, and Ian's dream will become stronger, more perfect, and more powerful.

He's Ian. He's all Ian. That hasn't changed.

But they are not. Isengard, Adlbert, Anfa and Xio, Ellan and Elder Pude, my relatives, friends and subordinates...

Those who are not Ian, those relatives and friends of Ian, they only have one life.

Ian thought of many people, those who were killed by him in his past life a long time ago.

He thought of the extremely disappointed and disheartened Adalbert, who even died was just a sigh.

He thought of Isengard who happily spread his arms and even inserted the sword into his heart with his own hands. He never doubted any of his decisions, and even death felt that it was a worthy price.

He recalled how he was extremely confused and was still guessing about his true intentions until the end, trying to find excuses for himself and convince her of his own safety. She was still unwilling to believe that her friend would make such a decision just because of a 'guessing' and an 'experiment'.

Such an incredible thing.

He thought of Xio, who was crying and roaring, igniting the entire virtual realm, carrying the inheritance of the five true ancestors, and having a decisive battle with himself who possessed the 'Perpetual Motion Machine of Hades'... They fought and fought, from Terra to Shuangyue,

From Mercury to Deus, they broke through the cold core of the satellite and shattered the devil's abyss. They set off a huge red spot on the gas giant, brought a long stardust orbit in the universe, and finally returned to Terra.

.

He prevailed, and the blood of the Last Dragon dyed the oceans of Terra red.

Who would have known that Xio, as the first-generation true dragon of flesh and blood, actually had the potential to become a Star God in his physical body?

The Star Gods, a group of good old people, are theoretically "degenerate" flesh and blood, but they have buried endless potential for true dragons.

And her blood was actually red at that time.

He remembered. Ian silently recalled, experienced, and chewed on these 'own past'.

He felt guilt crawling up his spine.

…

"I became weak because of my friends?"

For a long, long time, until the tsunami calmed down, until the thunder extinguished, Ian sat back on the cliff a little tiredly, and the seagulls came to him again, staring with him at the end of the sea, the endless horizon.

"Why?" He murmured to himself: "It's obviously a good thing for them, and it's a good thing for me... They can get a more perfect friend with less blood and mistakes on their hands, and I can also get a better friend.

Myself, a better start, a better, perfect, future without regrets..."

"No matter how you think about it, it's a good thing. I'm obviously ready to move forward."

"Why...can't we move forward?"

Ian couldn't answer his own question, he could only remain silent.

Even more, question your own heart.

——What on earth is there that is eternal and exists beyond time and space?

Is it ether? Is it soul? Is it immortality? Is it persistent belief?

Maybe... maybe... maybe it's a little simpler.

The Star God sets the method of awakening spiritual energy to intense emotions and desires, and the light body and immortality are both firm beliefs and wishes... Perhaps, in this etheric universe, what can truly be called eternal immortality and desire

Things that transcend time and space are not entities.

It's about feelings and memories.

For Ian, who has been reincarnated countless times, even the entire universe is meaningless except for his own feelings.

He can leave at any time, he can choose reincarnation, and he can go to 'another universe'.

Just like reloading a game save file or opening a new one, everything will start from scratch next time. All destiny, relationships, power, camp and even the future direction and the ending of the world will start from scratch.

Or even disappear.

It's more illusory than a game, more hazy than a dream.

Compared to 'Ian Beyond Time and Space', even the entire infinite universe is a meaningless 'dream of nothingness'.

Only the emotions and memories in the heart of 'Ian who transcends time and space', his beliefs and dreams are real.

So, why does ‘Ian who transcends time and space’ choose to delete many of his memories and start over and explore again in every life?

Obviously you can leave some more critical information instead of giving vague guidance and starting over every time, right?

Ian was originally a little confused as to why his 'last self' did what he did, but now, he vaguely understands.

It's for authenticity.

It is to allow 'Ian, who transcends time and space and is eternal,' to regard this universe as reality and his life, beliefs and dreams as reality.

If even Ian does not recognize the reality of the universe, then the universe will become meaningless, abandoned by him at will, played with at will, doing evil things at will, and doing good things at will.

Because, 'Eternal Ian' and other non-eternal individuals are absolutely impossible to treat each other as equals, just like it is impossible for game players to regard the characters of the game as real and real characters...

...Even if he likes the other person, hates the other person, admires the other person, or hates the other person, as long as the next reincarnation starts, everything will start all over again.

And everyone will be reset.

If we do not regard every life as reality, but as a game and a process of reincarnation, everything will be reduced to meaningless nothingness.

At that time, Ian made the most evil and cruel choice. I am afraid that he would be like the players in the game who want to collect all CG and all achievement trophies. They say sorry and sorry, but in fact there is no fluctuation in their hearts, and they even have some emotions in their hearts.

Be happy.

——A place that has never been touched, a future that has never been reached, I touched and arrived.

Just like Ian from the Killing Line, it is an almost completely distorted mind that is difficult to describe in human terms. Every time he kills a familiar person and a friend he 'truly' loves, in addition to the incomparable grief in his heart,

There is also a kind of joy that is so indifferent that it is almost incredible.

——It turns out that killing him, killing them... I will be so sad, so regretful, so sad that my heart will stop beating, tears will burst into my face, and I will even want to kill myself, give up everything, and start over.

——This is the ‘unknown’ that I have never experienced. This is the ‘feeling’ that even ‘I’ who have died countless times have never known.

——My new ‘limit’.

I shed tears and laughed. I was truly sad and also truly happy.

‘That Ian’ sent himself into a perpetual motion machine, leaving behind a lonely Terra surrounded by a sea of ​​scarlet blood to begin her next reincarnation.

This kind of 'endless curiosity' may lead you to a path of no return, a path that is almost like a monster.

'Past Ian' is to avoid this, so most of the memories that would affect this part of the view are deleted, so that Ian can start from scratch and regard everything as true.

【So do you understand? 】

there's noise.

There was a great voice.

Ian raised his head. He didn't know when he had woken up. Most of the dark clouds in the sky had disappeared. The endless stars in the sky could already be seen in the scattered clouds. And a ray of light lit up from the endless distance, making the stars in the sky sway and turn, inspiring the eternal existence.

the breath.

"I probably understand a little bit."

Ian didn't know who the other party was, whether it was the Star God responsible for guiding the 'newborn Star God' or the guardian of the Great Etheric Gyre, or whether it was the 'Ians' who were questioning him at this moment.

He just sat on the cliff and looked into the distance calmly: "'Ian' is not perfect. I have done many things in the past and even went astray. I do evil things without hesitation and without any reason.

Do good things, because I transcend time and space, I will act for 'things outside this universe', some people will be favored by me, and some people will be hated by me."

"It's like a game. Before the plot begins, there are already characters that are loved and hated because of their looks, lines, voice actors, skill designs and other random reasons."

"But, who is loving? Who is hating? Me outside the game or 'me' within the game? Me outside the universe or 'me' within the universe?"

"The me in the past? Or the me now? All cause and effect have disappeared. Do I need to inherit the original love and hatred in the new universe?"

"Am I going to change everything, get the future I want, and fulfill my 'dream', or am I just going to satisfy my personal preferences and act as I please?"

"What is it that I really desire...?"

"I found the answer to this question, so I deleted most of my memories and started from scratch. Become a member of this universe truly and truly..."

"Then you can start to have real love and hate, have real dreams, and finally..."

As Ian said this, he patted the seagull beside him and let it fly away to the end of the sea and horizon, and he stood up again: "Truthfully, fulfill my true wish."

Ian wants the starry sky. He wants it more than anyone else. He wants it more than anyone else. He wants the infinite universe, he wants the endless unknown, and what he loves is the endless distance. No one can deny it.

No matter what dangers or obstacles it may be, it cannot stop it.
To be continued...