Sometimes, an important choice leads people to a different path.

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I looked at the endless abyss ahead, and in the rushing of countless snakes of desire, the flashing moment was the terrifying sea of ​​snakes of desire.

In my eyes, what is swimming in this sea is not desire but pain.

Unbearable pain.

Looking at the man wandering on the sea, I gritted my teeth, picked up the rope, and slowly walked towards the sea of ​​greed snakes.

As soon as I stepped into the sea of ​​desire, pain spread throughout my body.

I wanted to scream, but the pain followed me like a shadow, and I couldn't even make a sound.

In horror, I quickly retreated with all my strength, climbed to the shore and gasped with all my strength.

No, it can't be saved.

He is dead.

I gasped heavily and thought so.

"It's not that I can't do it if I don't save it." While comforting myself, I hurriedly threw the rope outside the wooden house.

I climbed onto the bed like a escaping, for fear that I would run slow down, and I would see the uncle's gaze asking for help when I looked back.

Lying in my uncle's wooden house, I still gasped, wanting to forget all this.

Just thinking about this, I fell asleep at some point.

I once expected how good it would be to end the story here.

But when I wake up.

The uncle has been rescued by Ming.

...

Why didn’t I ask others for help at that time?

I often ask myself.

But I dare not answer myself because the thoughts that passed by briefly at that time were too dark.

I can't save it, so naturally no one else can save it.

Maybe I didn't have this idea at that time, but before I could save it, I started questioning myself.

Even I began to doubt everything I did before.

Why should I tell you that Ming actually relies on being beaten to exchange for food?

Is there a moment when I actually want to see Ming’s dignity be trampled on?

I fantasize that I am extremely dark.

Because I failed to embark on that bright road.

I want to find a reason for the dark side that I have not yet determined. What is the reason for?

Why did Ming and I embark on two paths?

Because when everyone was hungry, I didn’t stand up? Or was it because of my cowardly manifestation when I saved someone later?

None of them...

While thinking, I looked at Ming's smooth chin, so I subconsciously touched my chin with small tentacles.

Yes!

It's because of this!

If I was born as a "person", then I could naturally be a real person!

All the sorrow must be because of this reason.

I'm cheating on myself so much.

...

The ship in the dream really appeared.

I looked at the ark, and the shock in my eyes was unspeakable.

"Where has he been going? Why haven't he come back yet?" Guo Tieping looked at the direction of the imperial city worriedly.

Uncle and Ming were both there.

"Uncle will definitely be fine." I said confidently.

I had the dark thoughts that I had caused by self-blame three years ago because I had an uncle.

He has always taught us knowledge and morality.

I am also glad that I can meet the uncle on this deserted Forbidden Island.

If I were to choose one between the cold Wu family and the uncle.

Then I will definitely choose the uncle without hesitation.

Because I clearly know that compared to the Wu family, this "little prison" wooden house is more like my home. The uncle is more like my father.

There is nothing to be taboo about this. I dare not say anything Ming dares to say.

The uncle is my father.

But he never asked me if I wanted to call me Li Ruyuan. Among these children, he only asked Ming.

So I want to leave here too.

Because Ming and I are different from our uncle.

I can see my desires clearly.

What they want is a home, and what I want is to be them. But staying here, under their protection, I will never be them.

I'm going out!

Looking for the group of people I can protect, I want to live as a real person!

Climbing this ark carrying hope may be my chance.

"Let's get on the boat first, they will come here later!" I stared at the ark and said happily.

Guo Tieping hesitated for a moment, but out of trust in the uncle, they still got on the boat with me.

I found the ropes on board the boat from the wooden house.

The rope was saved by me on the day I saved the person and was later taken to save the person.

For Ming, perhaps this is a memorable item.

But for me, this is my cowardice.

I handed him to the adults without hesitation, and I watched helplessly as the hook of the rope penetrated deep into the body of the ark.

"Ming! That's Ming! Ming is back!"

Guo Tieping excitedly pulled my sleeve.

I looked at Ming, but my eyes were no longer excited.

Because I also want to be a person like him, and to be a person like him, just aspiration is not enough. I want to look at him on an equal footing.

Guo Tieping greeted Ming happily on the boat.

But Ming seemed to be unable to hear anything, and just walked into the sea of ​​desire snakes on his own.

Isn't he afraid of pain?

I thought so.

Ming kept touching the ark and slowly sank into the sea of ​​desire snakes.

broken!

I looked at him anxiously, trying to leap down, but my body suddenly started to feel phantom pain!

That was the pain brought to him by the desire serpent kelp that the body once remembered, and it was a warning from biological instinct.

"thump!"

"thump!"

The sound of going into the water fell into my ears.

It was over Tieping and the others, and they did not hesitate to go to the water.

I stared at them blankly. I used to think I was just a little bit short of it, but I didn't expect everyone to be a little better than me.

I didn't save anyone again.

And the person was rescued by others again.
To be continued...