Chapter 132 Self-pacification
Really unable to sleep, Su Yanzhi took a black dress, put it on himself, walked out of the room, stood in the yard, blowing the cold wind, and silently muttered, "Kill him, don't kill him."
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"Don't hurt him."
His hair fell in front of him, and was blown up by the cold wind in the dark night. His black coat was fluttering, and then fell down again. He looked at the arrow wound on his wrist and lowered his eyes silently.
Suddenly, there was the sound of footsteps behind him. Su Yanzhi's eyes darkened and he narrowed his eyes, "Who is there?"
Nan Siyin walked out of the darkness, her hair was still damp, and her clothes were half open. There was nothing visible in the dark, but she felt that this person seemed to have a bit of affection.
"What, can't you sleep?"
Nan Siyin walked to Su Yanzhi and sat down, lifted up his clothes, rubbed his eyes sleepily, and glanced at the closed door, "Is he still asleep? He's not with you.
Shall we look at the stars and the moon together?”
"Who are you……"
Su Yanzhi narrowed his eyes. He obviously had no impression of the person in front of him, but his voice was unexpectedly familiar.
"Western Region, Nansiyin."
Nan Siyin took the trouble to say it again. After all, Su Yanzhi had just woken up and they had not met formally. To someone you just met, you should always introduce yourself politely. This is the teaching method of the Western Regions.
"In the desert of the Western Region, I heard Shi Ting say that you should make good use of poisonous insects."
There are many places for conquest in the Northern Kingdom. The desert wastelands of the Western Regions were the first places that the Northern Kingdom gave up on conquest. That kind of desert is filled with nothing but sand and insects. Sometimes there is no human habitation at all within a hundred miles, and it is of little use to conquer it.
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Nan Siyin smiled and said, "Yes, make good use of the poison method."
Su Yanzhi lowered his eyes, "So, the voice in my head was left by you."
Ever since he woke up, he felt something was wrong. Although his memory was still there, he knew who he was, and he didn't have so many thoughts, but he always became confused when he saw Gu Jingxu.
I don't know what's wrong with me, but when I see Gu Jingxu, there seems to be a voice telling him that he loves him.
After all, it's different from before.
Nan Siyin lowered his eyebrows, picked up his hair with his fingertips, and drew circles on the stone table. He said in a calm voice, "How do you feel? Su Yanzhi."
"It feels like..." Su Yanzhi's eyes instantly lost confusion, and his voice was gloomy, "I... want to kill you."
Nan Siyin smiled, his elegant eyes slightly raised, and he looked at Su Yanzhi, "Don't always think about fighting and killing. Now you have love in your heart and your mood is calm. How good it is."
Su Yanzhi: "..."
Is he in a calm mood? It seems not.
Every time he met someone or something before, he had thoughts of destruction in his heart, which were crazy and sick.
The torture in his childhood and betrayal by everyone taught him to do whatever it takes.
Torturing others also tortures oneself.
Nowadays, it’s more like someone has cut off the source, and I can’t remember the reasons why I did those things. I obviously did those things by myself, but I can’t remember the “hate” I felt at that time.
Su Yanzhi's eyes fell on Nan Siyin, "Did you do it to make me like this? What... did you do to me?"
"You're sick, I'm just trying to give you medicine."
Nan Siyin's eyes were calm, and he knocked on the stone table next to him. His fingertips brushed the cold tabletop and scratched the notches on it. "It is recorded in ancient books that people with depression have a violent temperament, hurt others and themselves, do not know love, and do not know how to love," he said.
If you don’t understand the joys and sorrows, but don’t understand emotions, your humanity is in vain.”
Although Nan Siyin didn't know whether his judgment was correct, he could guess after hearing Su Jingchen talk about some of the crazy things Su Yanzhi had done, and how he tortured Gu Jingxu for no reason, that this person was probably suffering from depression.
Depression syndrome.
"Su Yanzhi, when you have thoughts of killing or torture, why not calm down and listen to the voices in your head."
Nan Siyin leaned on the table, her hair fell, she was soft and gentle, her red lips moved slightly, and her voice was calm, "Don't kill him, don't hurt him, treat him well, and guard him well."
"Under this kind of self-calm, take a good look. In fact... he is gentler than you think."
Even if they only knew each other for a day, and even if they didn't exchange a few words, Nan Siyin could tell that Gu Jingxu was not that cruel and decisive in his treatment of others.
His Royal Highness, the Crown Prince, is always trying his best to leave a way for others.
Perhaps this path may seem "stupid" to others, but sometimes, people who are wandering between good and evil need this path to move towards the light.
"Su Yanzhi, why not calm down and give yourself a chance to take a good look at the beauty of this world."
The man standing, his black clothes fluttering, his dark eyes staring at Nan Siyin with a sarcastic smile, "Sick? I'm not sick!"
Seeing that Su Yanzhi was still struggling, Nan Siyin raised his slender fingers and brushed his lips, "Do you still remember why you forced Gu Jingxu for the first time?"
Su Yanzhi frowned. He had the impression that he had indeed forced Gu Jingxu. As for the reason for doing this suddenly, he couldn't remember clearly. It was because of... what?
However, he remembered that later on, their interactions seemed to be "beautiful", or at least "comfortable" to him.
After a long silence, Nan Siyin saw that Su Yanzhi was silent and knew that this person must not remember, so he asked again: "Then do you think he loves you?"
Su Yanzhi stared at Nan Siyin. After silence, his eyes were dark and firm, "Of course you love me, otherwise how could you stay by my side? Die with me, and still stay by my side... etc."
I wake up."
Nan Siyin raised his eyebrows, "If you think so, that's the best thing. He loves you and you love him. But remember. Don't forget..."
"He loves me, I love him..."
Su Yanzhi muttered another sentence silently, then glanced back at Nan Siyin. When he lowered his eyes, his voice was hoarse and evil, "Thank you."
Nan Siyin: "..."
The silent man stared at Su Yanzhi, watching quietly. After sitting for a while, he stood up and left. When he walked to the edge of the courtyard, he stopped again and looked at Su Yanzhi, "You can't chase the past, Su Yanzhi.
Remember, if you love him, don’t hurt him.”
After walking out of the courtyard, Nan Siyin was walking on the corridor. It was a little cool in the valley. Just when he felt a little cold, he saw Su Jingchen walking towards him with clothes in his hand.
When Su Jingchen came over, his red clothes were still a little messy. He handed the clothes in his hand to Nan Siyin, "Your clothes are not properly worn."
Nan Siyin looked at Su Jingchen, sighed, took it and put it on himself. While putting it on, he said, "I have tested Su Yanzhi, and he will not hurt your highness for the time being."
When Su Jingchen mentioned Su Yanzhi, he became a little irritated, "He deserves to die, A Yin. How do you know that he will not hurt His Highness?"
"If a person's memory does not change, his temperament will not change. As long as he is a madman for one day, he will remain a madman for the rest of his life."
Su Jingchen didn't believe that Su Yanzhi would suddenly realize his conscience and feel guilty for His Highness. People like Su Yanzhi would only bring harm to others if they stayed in the world. What was the meaning of living?
"Su Jingchen, if a madman forgets his madness, he can become a normal person."
Nan Siyin put on her orchid gown, leaned against the wall a little tiredly, and looked at Su Yanzhi, "The secret technique of the Western Regions can be used to control the mind with poisonous insects to produce love and desire."
"Su Yanzhi's love for Gu Jingxu now is much deeper than your love for me."
Nan Siyin turned his eyes sideways and stared at Su Jingchen, "Illusion of love will make him forget to hurt."
He didn't need to know what Su Yanzhi's character was. From his test just now, he knew that the poison he cast this time was very effective.
At least now, in Su Yanzhi's eyes, Gu Jingxu loves him, and although he doesn't know how to love yet, he also knows that he loves Gu Jingxu.
If you tell yourself over and over again, the illusion will become true.
Su Jingchen narrowed his eyes, suddenly leaned forward and pressed Nan Siyin's wrist, "He doesn't love His Highness at all, but I love you..."
"What to me?"
Nan Siyin interrupted Su Jingchen's elegance, glanced at Su Jingchen's abdomen, put his hands on his shoulders, and leaned closer, "Do you want to tell me that you are also very deep? Xiao Dujun? Yes... deep
,However, it’s not enough…”
His voice was hoarse, and he leaned against Su Jingchen's ear, "The deepest time was by myself, right..."
"Have you ever taken the initiative?"
With dark eyes, he pushed Su Jingchen away with a gentle push, "I want you to lock me up, do you dare? Little Poison Lord?"
"Look at Su Yanzhi's desire to possess your Royal Highness."
As soon as Nan Siyin talked about this, he couldn't help but feel helpless to Su Jingchen, "What about you, what do you have for me? Su Jingchen... your desire to possess me is not as intense as Su Yanzhi's desire for your Royal Highness.
one."
Chapter completed!