Chapter 4: There is no way out. Another village is dark and bright.

Author: Biantang Wushi

Chapter 4: There is no way out. Another village is dark and bright.

Zhu Xiaoman turned around and walked towards the community. I stood there motionless, watching her leave. Midway, she stopped several times and looked back at me. I quickly waved at her and signaled her to go back soon. It was not until she disappeared from my sight that I turned around and found the jifeng, and returned to school with the car bell as accompaniment, singing the song.

On the way, Ji Feng said to me, Third Brother, if someone didn't reject you, he had already succeeded more than half of it.

real?

Of course, if she didn't tell you the answer in front of you, it means she was not disgusted with you. She had to give her a chance to cultivate her feelings, and that wouldn't happen naturally!

Oh, then how long did she think about it when you chased Xiao Fang before?

Haha, it's only a few days!

Oh, then what you mean is that what I have to do at this time is to wait and see what has changed?

Yes, yes, yes, don't worry anyway, don't urge others tomorrow, be calm, stay calm, do you know? Let's go have a skewer

I tossed and turned all night, without any sleepiness. I have lived for more than 20 years and I have suffered from insomnia for the first time in my life. What a weird thing! In the past, I was the one who fell asleep when I got up at the pillow. It was not until Cheng Zhibai got up in the middle of the night and slammed the door switch, which made several roommates wake up, muttered and scolded him, and then I fell asleep in a daze.

I, who rarely dreams, had a rare dream: by Yunlong Lake, flowers blooming and butterflies flying. Zhu Xiaoman stood among the flowers in a long skirt, his big eyes flashed with love, and he held the love letter I wrote to her in his hand, and walked towards me affectionately. I was so excited, at a loss, and asked her how she was thinking. What about her, she just looked at me with a smile, but she didn't say anything.

I was anxious and asked twice quickly, but she still didn't say a word. This made me very anxious. I raised my foot and rushed towards her, kicked my legs, and kicked the quilt away, and woke up. Oh, I really hope that this dream can continue. But the more I wanted to fall asleep again and relive the dream, the more I woke up, and I couldn't sleep anymore, so I picked up the watch under the pillow, and it was 5:20, so I just stopped sleeping, so I got up!

I got up gently, washed up, and came to the playground. I ran for more than 20 laps in one go, but I didn't feel tired at all. It was so much beyond my usual level. Seeing the figures on the sidewalk in the distance gradually increasing, I was about to withdraw and returned to the dormitory to take a cold shower. The appetite for breakfast was surprisingly good. I ate four cabbage and tofu buns and drank two big bowls of porridge.

Today's first class was a big class. I sat in the first row as early as before, secretly aiming at the door of the classroom with one eye. At the same time, I was still thinking silently in my heart. When I saw Zhu Xiaoman later, how should I say hello to her? Should I say "Good morning" as before, or say "Hi, Xiaoman, hello"? Should I strike while the iron is hot and take the initiative, or should I pretend to be nothing as Lao Liu said?

Just as I was thinking about it, the class bell rang and the teacher came in, but the position next to me was empty. Zhu Xiaoman, who had always been very punctual, was actually absent. What's going on? My heart suddenly jumped.

I don’t know how I got through this class, but in short, I didn’t listen to anything. During the break, A Zheng asked me to go to the bathroom, but I didn’t move. After class, on the way back to our Guomao classroom, I stopped Liu Yina and asked her why Zhu Xiaoman didn’t come today? She was never late and missed class.

Liu Yina said she didn't know either, and Zhu Xiaoman didn't come to the dormitory this morning.

I felt 10 centimeters shorter at once. Could this be a tactful way for Zhu Xiaoman to reject me?

Although I had been mentally prepared in my heart and had imagined hundreds of possible results, but I really spread to myself and the cruel reality was in front of me. I still couldn't accept it for a while. In the next two classes, my mind was always thinking about it, as if it was a mess. I suddenly felt that today's world was gray and lost its original color. After school, I finally got off the corpse and went to the cafeteria with the crowd. On the way, a few buddies greeted me, and I just agreed perfunctorily.

I had no appetite at all, so I made a jar of porridge, a steamed bun and a shredded potato. I found a corner where there were few people to sit down, tore off a steamed bun, stuffed it into my mouth, and swallowed it three times left and three times right, but I almost choked, so I hurriedly took a bite of porridge and delivered it.

Just when my three souls left, two souls, and seven souls left five souls, and I was indulged in love with my life, a sweet and familiar voice suddenly sounded in my ears. May I ask, is anyone sitting here?

I quickly looked up and saw that Zhu Xiaoman was standing in front of me with the food in his face full of spring breeze. The tenderness and pampering in her eyes were something I had never seen before. At that moment, everything in the world was re-colored, and it was colorful. My eyes could only accommodate that face that I could never forget. Nothing else was in my eyes. For a moment, I was stunned and at a loss.

What's wrong? Don't you ask me to sit down? She still stared at me with a smile.

Ah? Please. Please sit, please sit. I quickly took out a tissue from my pocket and wiped the stool and the table, then trembled and took the bowl in her hand and put it on the table. The joy in my heart couldn't help but say "yeah" in my heart. I succeeded, and the thick sweetness spread all over and filled my whole body and mind. The feeling was indescribable.

Why do you eat this little bit? I heard from Yina that you can eat very well!

Oh, I just felt that I didn't have a big appetite.

Look, I bought an extra steamed bun today, you can help me eat it. She glanced at my bowl and handed over a steamed bun.

I quickly took the steamed buns from her hand and said in dissatisfaction, "Why didn't Liu Yina say good things about me, but said I can eat it?"

People don’t mean that. She heard from Wang Changzheng that you go to exercise every morning, at least 10 kilometers, and consume a lot of money, so you eat more.

Hahaha, that's what it means! Yes, I ate more in the morning! I scratched my head embarrassedly.

Then didn't you go for a run this morning?

I ran away, and I ran 5 or 6 more laps than usual. I held the steamed bun in my hand and pinched it, not daring to look at her in the eyes.

Why don’t you have an appetite yet? How can you eat just this little? Let’s help me eat some. As he said that, he picked up a chopstick and braised eggplant on my plate.

On the contrary, I just don’t want to eat anyway, so I don’t move anyway in the morning, so I’m not too hungry.

Ao, I just met Yi Na, and she said you were not energetic this morning. Even the teacher asked you to answer the question, but you didn’t respond. Is this a matter? What’s wrong?

Me.I.Hahaha.I smiled awkwardly.

What's wrong? Why is a big man still hesitant? Where did the courage to send me a letter to me last night?

Yes, what's wrong with me? I usually host meetings of hundreds of people in the student union, and I talk endlessly, citing classics, and it's no problem for an hour to talk. Xiaoman is a girl, and she is so proactive today, me. I.

Today is such a good opportunity, I can't be timid. I pursed my lips, looked up at her, and said, "I didn't see you in class today, and I thought you were angry and didn't want to pay attention to me anymore."

Hehehe, you are stupid. We have known each other for more than three years. Even if I reject you, I will give you a reply in person. How can I hide in a quiet voice? I felt a little uncomfortable when I woke up this morning. My mother was worried and insisted on taking me to the hospital for a look, so I didn’t catch up with the first class.

Oh, that's the case, is it okay now? Is it still painful? I asked with concern, and I was embarrassed for my random guesses before.

It was nothing, the doctor said, it was a psychological effect, and now it was all gone. She smiled.

That's good, you don't know, I didn't see you in the classroom at that time, and my mind was completely messed up.

Hehehehe, I have read your letter. I think the one written three years ago is better. Why didn’t you give it to me at that time?

I'm sorry, I'm afraid you will refuse.

Then don’t be afraid now?

I'm afraid, of course I'm afraid, otherwise I'll lose my appetite?

Fear, give it back?

If you don’t give it, you will have no chance. I believe that I will have the ability to give you the best in the world in the future. I want to take care of you forever.

real?

Well, of course, I swear that I wish to win one person's heart and never be separated from my old age.

OK, OK, you liberal arts students will be able to speak loudly.

Then you are wrong, I am the only two science students in our class.

Then look at what this is? She took out a book from her bag and handed it to me.

When I saw that it was a textbook of theirs, I didn't understand what it meant, and my suspicious eyes floated towards her.

What's the first time you met me? Do you still remember?

Of course I remember, on April 8, 1995, at 4:50 pm.

Then open 48 pages to take a look.

I quickly opened to page 48 and saw that the ginkgo leaf I gave her three years ago was lying there safely. The word "天" I wrote is still there, but now it has become four words "famous all over the world". So that's it.

Later I realized that my love with me was Zhu Xiaoman's first love. Before entering university, she focused all her energy on studying. When she entered university, her classmates in the same dormitory began to fall in love. She realized that she could fall in love too. There were few girls in the physics department, and there were only five or six people in a class, which was very expensive. Zhu Xiaoman remembered her mother's advice and never dared to accept anyone. She was pretty and had a good study, mainly because she had not learned how to deal with boys.

During the short-term pursuit of Zhu Xiaoman, I wrote a lot of love letters to her, almost one letter every day, and I could not finish my love words and thoughts every day, purely handwritten. Because I promoted the director of the inspection and evaluation department at this time, I handed the love letter to her every day. When she led the classmates in the department to check the dormitory, she stuffed me under Zhu Xiaoman's pillow. According to Zhu Xiaoman, the first thing she did when she returned to the dormitory every afternoon was to look through the pillows to see if there were any new letters. Reading the letters I wrote to her every day became her best memory.

Until several years later, when I met Liu Yina, she told me that Zhu Xiaoman had kept these love letters. She also said, Third brother, everyone in our dormitory reads every love letter you wrote to Zhu Xiaoman. I remember Chen Lin, you still remember, the flower of our college said at that time, if any boy wrote so many beautiful love letters to her, she would definitely have followed him.

Liu Yina is the witness of Zhu Xiaoman and I getting together, but she has always been upset about the fact that we didn’t get together in the end and couldn’t figure it out. How could two people who are so compatible and clearly love each other be well, and they just say they are separated?

(End of this chapter)
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