"Bang, bang, bang" was accompanied by the sound of friction between the train wheels and the rails. Bi Xia slumped on the hard seat, swaying slightly with the ups and downs of the train. His muddy brain was running rapidly, which caused his whole body to fall apart, as well as waves of nausea and vomiting.

Retching.

"Haha..." Putting his hands on his forehead, unconsciously slumped on the back of the seat and the corner of the car window, Bi Xia raised the corner of his mouth slightly and let out a self-deprecating smile.

This is a train carriage, and the whole train is filled with teenagers wearing khaki camouflage military uniforms. These teenagers are not very old, some of them look only seventeen or eighteen years old. Their young faces show reluctance, curiosity, and longing.

Some of them lowered their heads to read, some were whispering. No one could be indifferent to the life they were about to face. From the clothes and ages of these teenagers, it could be seen that they were a group of recruits, or recruits who were about to join the army.

Eggs.

Contrary to their novelty, timidity, or expectations, Bi Xia was completely confused at this time. The slightly frowning brow and the mocking and painful smile at the corner of his mouth showed that he was not so calm inside.

Bi Xia is a sophomore student in the Directing Department of the Capital Film Academy. He is in the age when young people don’t know what it’s like to be sad. There is no compulsory military service in China, let alone an ivory tower student like Bi Xia joining the army. What happened just a few weeks ago

This incident caused Bi Xia's simple world to undergo earth-shaking changes.

One day three weeks ago, Bi Xia received a call from home. It was an unacceptable fact. His sister choked and sobbed silently and told him that when his father and mother were out, a car accident happened and they were both hospitalized. The hospital issued a critical illness notice.

Book.

Bi Xia was stunned and confused. He could not imagine what his world would be like without his loving mother and gentle father. He immediately asked for leave from school and rushed home overnight.

God's will does not transfer to an individual. His pleas and prayers could not bring a miracle to his father's life. When he rushed to the hospital, he still did not see his father for the last time. He only had his father's cold body and a rescue plan that failed.

Notice.

Bi Xia still remembered the mood at that time. Tears dripped down his cheeks, and his shoulders twitched uncontrollably. He wanted to cry loudly, but tried his best to suppress it.

Just because her mother is still in the hospital, she is even sadder than herself. Bi Xia can only put away his cowardice and pitiful sadness, and use his pretended strength to comfort his mother who is still in the hospital bed and his teenage sister. Because he is

man.

If this was the only misfortune, Bi Xia might be able to bear it. However, God played another joke on him.

In this huge car accident, there were too many injured patients and the hospital did not have enough plasma. Bi Xia volunteered to donate blood to his mother. It was because of this incident that Bi Xia heard the biggest joke in his life.

"Hey, why is your blood type A? Did the testing center make a mistake?"

"What's the matter, doctor?"

"Your father has blood type B and your mother has blood type O. Genetically speaking, it is impossible to have type A and type AB."

This sentence "coaxed" exploded in Bi Xia's mind, leaving him stunned. Only he knew that the hospital was not at fault and that he did have blood type A. In other words, the two parents who had raised him for more than 20 years,

Not his biological parents?

His father passed away and his life experience was revealed. Under the double blow, Bi Xia was at a loss. At that moment, he didn't know where the sadness came from. He only felt as if he was isolated and abandoned by the whole world.

He resisted not to confirm to his mother who was immersed in grief. He forced an ugly smile on his stiff face and accompanied his mother and sister to comfort him.

With the help of relatives, he completed his father's funeral arrangements. After his mother was safely discharged from the hospital, he rushed out of the house without even saying hello. Because he felt that his patience had reached the limit and he didn't know how to deal with himself.

He didn't know how to face it. He was just a child, a child who had never experienced setbacks and hardships.

It happened that at this time, in order to respond to the country's call and improve the quality of the army, the school organized and encouraged college students to join the army. In order to escape from this familiar environment, Bi Xia ignored the advice of his friends and teachers, and even signed up to join the army without telling his mother and sister.

Faced with this drastic change in his life, he chose to escape.

The day before leaving school, it was a night of heavy rain. Bi Xia walked alone on the campus, looking at the plants and trees he was familiar with. He was about to leave the familiar school and go to a distant place that was completely unknown to him.

Environmental life, he doesn't know whether he is right or wrong, and no one can comfort him at this time.

It's a dark night, the rain has stopped. How lonely is it?

Lightning flashed across the sky, lighting up the night and roaring on the earth, but it could not dissipate the darkness in his heart.

A flash of lightning struck a tree next to him, sparking fire and illuminating Bisha's numb face. The random currents in the air, under the influence of the rain, directed all of these currents to him who was in a daze.

Maybe dying like this is a good choice. When Bi Xia fell straight down, his empty eyes looked at the sky, where his childhood and his joy were.

When he woke up, it was already five or six o'clock in the morning the next day. He didn't know why he didn't die, and he didn't even have any injuries on his body. He just didn't know if he caught a cold after being caught in the rain. He just felt that his brain was extremely heavy, and there were countless people saying no.

Something unknown suddenly appeared in his brain, making him feel confused.

He got on the train numbly, and when all the recruits in this period gathered together, he was like a puppet on strings, completely unable to control himself. After getting on the train, he just stayed there like this.

This day I have been in a state of drowsiness, sleeping and waking up, waking up and sleeping, and so on. This is a kind of sadness that cannot be greater than death.

While my mind was grieving for my own experience, I was sorting out these inexplicable things. They were like some mottled fragments, but they were vague and unclear. They occasionally crossed over, like duckweed on the water, disappearing and appearing.

, or like a shaken carbon drink, gushing out and crowding the brain.

Whenever this happens, Bi Xia will feel a slight swelling and pain in his brain, as if the CPU is running rapidly and makes a "click" sound.

In this groggy state, Bi Xia couldn't tell what the reason for all this was, and he couldn't tell whether it was an illusion or a fact. At the same time, he was too lazy to distinguish these, because in this kind of confusion, he couldn't tell the reason.

Can temporarily forget the inner pain.

These mottled memory fragments appear...disappear...appear...disappear...

I don't know how long it took, but this "fantasy" finally receded a little. He was finally able to think and explore on his own.
Chapter completed!