"Go back to the past?" He asked with a smile, "How long do you want to go back?"

How long ago did it go back? She didn’t know...

Maybe, go back to before Qianqi appeared? No, she will come back sooner or later! That is a disaster that she cannot avoid! A demonic obstacle that she cannot escape...

So, go back to before marrying him? Oh, then he will be the bright moonlight in her heart for life...

Or, go back even further, back to before you were six years old, to the days when you never knew him?

No, she couldn't bear it! The thought of not being able to meet him made her heart hurt unbearably, more painful than seeing him and Qianqi together! If she didn't meet him, what would she use to decorate her dreams in the next twenty years?

What can she use to warm her in the cold winter?

Meeting him, I would rather be covered in wounds than living without him, pale and weak.

Therefore, even to the end of love, there is still no reason to complain...

His heart gradually calmed down at this moment, and he said lightly to Luo Dongqin: "I'm sorry, I said something stupid, just pretend I didn't say it!"

Luo Dongqin heard the hidden meaning and asked sensitively, "Nanny, are you unhappy?"

"No..." She denied instinctively. At the same time, she realized why Luo Dongqin also called her Nannan? This made her a little uncomfortable, maybe because of Lin Kun's influence.

Luo Dongqin has always been kind to people's hearts and never forced it. Knowing that she didn't want to say anything, he just said, "Nanny, take off the beads from your hand, close your eyes and count them one by one, and you will see the dark night.

, the stars are twinkling, everyone who loves you is smiling at you in the starlight, wishing you happiness..."

Is it possible? She has never tried it, but she believes in the power of Buddha...

He doubtfully took off the beads from his wrist as he said, closed his eyes, exiled himself in the endless darkness, touched the spiritual beads one by one, and repeated them one by one.

Counting silently, the sandalwood scent lingering in front of my eyes appeared like an illusion, the cloud temple was leisurely, under the starlight, the world was as clean and peaceful as fresh rain...

There seemed to be a faint Zen fragrance on the tip of my nose, and my mind gradually became clearer. In the starry background, Grandpa's smiling face appeared, as if saying, Nannan, don't be afraid, Grandpa will always be with you...

A sad warmth surged in her heart, and she couldn't bear to open her eyes, and she couldn't bear to see her grandpa disappear in front of her eyes...

Then, a vague woman appeared, shouting "Nanny...Nanny..."

She didn't know who this woman was, but she couldn't suppress her inner excitement, her instinctive yearning and closeness to her, until this woman cried and said to her, "Nanny, I'm my mother... forgive me.

How is mom?"

She suddenly realized that all the closeness was just due to the longing for her mother. She did not need to forgive her, because she had never complained about her mother, "Mom...Mom..." She shouted under the starlight, but, even herself,

I can't hear my own voice either.

Then, a soft "Nanny" came out, and a big smiling black face appeared in the starry sky. She had never seen him smile like that before. All the stars lost their color in his smile, and the clear night suddenly

The room was as warm as a spring day, and tears welled up in her eyes, not because of resentment or hatred, but because of the warmth...

He will always be the warmest beacon in her heart, because he loved...

"Nannan...Nannan...Nannan..."

Those calls were intimate and soft, as if he was still holding her on his knees, kissing her ears, and whispering softly, but his figure was so far away...

Brother Tangtang, I heard you...

Brother Tangtang, I know what you are going to say. Some love and some people are destined to live apart. I don’t hate you. I just hope that you will be happier and better in the days when you are not by your side...

Quiet and warm until dawn.

When I woke up in the morning light, I realized that grandpa, mother, and Brother Tangtang were all a dream.

While she was counting the beads, she fell asleep at some point. The beads would not bring the people who loved her into her dreams. However, the beads had the power of pulling, leading her towards a beautiful artistic conception.

Let her see clearly what she loves most in her subconscious. Those who love her are also the people she loves most...

Still holding the prayer bead in her hand, she stared at it quietly and put it back on her wrist. The phone was next to her pillow. She couldn't help but think of the small note she told someone not to put their phone next to their pillow, and smiled sadly...

That night, she was able to sleep so peacefully, which was beyond her expectation. Should this be attributed to Luo Dongqin?

I picked up my phone and sent him a text message: Thank you. I saw the stars, the people who love me, and my mother...

Luo Dongqin was the only person who heard her mention her mother, so she added the last sentence for some unknown reason.

Luo Dongqin immediately responded to the text message: Why do you say thank you? I will come to Beijing in a week and I will definitely give you the surprise you want.

Are you so sure? Not to mention a week later, it would be enough to surprise her now.

He replied: Of course!

Tao Zi didn't know what to reply. This Luo Dongqin always made her feel a little mysterious. He was a famous young man in S city, he must have some background...

Just as she was about to put down her phone, a call came in. The ringtone "Soldier" hadn't been changed yet. The ringing made her heart ache. Luo Dongqin?

She answered, and Luo Dongqin's clear voice came, "Nanny, I'm sorry for taking the liberty to call you, but I really want to tell you that I am now in W Mountain in City L, with new rain in the empty mountains and the sound of morning bells.

, the drizzle hits my face, soaking in the coolness, as if it has washed all my internal organs! Listen! Do you hear the bell? "

Tao Zi was stunned. What was "dang-dang-dang-" on his phone was the morning bell of the temple.

"Are you in the temple?" she asked in surprise.

"Yes!" He chuckled, "I came here on the first day of the new year and have been here for more than ten days!"

During the Chinese New Year, everyone is getting together with their families, so why is he going to the temple?

"It's strange, isn't it?" He added, "Wshan holds Dharma gatherings from the first to the fifteenth day of the lunar month. I'm here to observe the Dharma gathering."

"Dharma meeting? Are you very knowledgeable about Buddhism? Are you a believer?" While she was amazed, she finally understood why Luo Dongqin always seemed so calm and calm. How could a Buddhist person be impetuous?

"No, it's just because my mother believes in Buddhism and occasionally comes to listen to a Dharma meeting to cleanse her soul."

"I know..." A thought came to her mind.

After exchanging a few words with Luo Dongqin, she inquired about flights to City L, immediately booked the ticket, and decided to go to the Dharma conference.

The world is complicated and chaotic, and she needs time and place to think, recover, and calm her mind, and the sound of morning bells in the empty mountains and new rain described by Luo Dongqin is exactly what she wants.

She did not tell Luo Dongqin that she would go. It was her journey alone. She did not need company or anyone to take responsibility. In order to avoid Miao Miao asking questions, she only said that she had just received the notice. The author's New Year.

PEN Club.

Then, I turned off my phone and embarked on my own spiritual journey.

W Mountain is located on the outskirts of L City, with beautiful mountains and clear waters. It is indeed a good place full of spiritual energy.

The temple is built on the mountainside, with the corner of the temple exposed among the lush green pines and cypresses, surrounded by mountain mist, giving it an otherworldly quiet beauty.

When Tao Zi arrived, it was already dusk, and the Dharma assembly had ended. It was estimated that there would be no Zen room for female guests in the temple, so he did not plan to go to the temple to disturb him, and just faced the dusk on the winding bluestone road in the mountains.

Going up, feel the clean and moist air in the dim dusk, and the mountain breeze carrying the scent of incense, blowing towards your face like light mist, obscuring the worries of the world.

Not long ago, she and... Maybe Luo Dongqin was right, this is really a good place to cleanse the soul.

Pilgrims and believers came down from the temple in twos and threes, but she was the only one walking in the opposite direction, which seemed quite abrupt.

It took about an hour to climb halfway up the mountain. The temple is in front. There are winter bamboos, pines and cypresses on both sides. A stone bridge connects the inner and outer sills. The lotus flowers are left at the bottom of the bridge. Do you want to cross the stone bridge?

Are they the people within the threshold?

She hesitated, but saw a dark figure walking from the other end of the stone bridge, as elegant as bamboo...

Luo Dongqin...

Eventually we met.

Unexpected and expected, we met in many places we shouldn't have met, but in the same green bamboo, how could we miss it?

His eyes lit up and he was extremely surprised, "Nanny?"

She stood still, smiled slightly, and said, "Hi, it's me."

"Why are you here?" Her appearance was a big surprise to him. He didn't even know why he had to describe the situation in the temple to her on the phone. It was just that the morning wind was blowing and the drizzle was misty.

It was just the right thing to talk about, so he said it.

She didn't answer, just looked at him in the dark dusk. Behind him was the thick clouds and the last light of dusk faintly revealed through the gaps in the clouds.

At first, I was worried about whether I would be scared if I walked alone on the way back to the bottom of the mountain. Now, there is no need to be scared at all. There is no reason. Under the dusk, his blue-gray figure has the magic power to make people fall into meditation.

"Where are you going?" she asked.

He smiled, "I plan to go for a walk in the bamboo forest behind the temple. Have you just gone up the mountain? Have you eaten?"

Not really. As she climbed up, she felt even more hungry. She shook her head honestly.

"Then follow me and have a vegetarian meal without meat!" He smiled, with a little sparkle in his eyes. He has always been a cold person, and he can always see the world and people with the same cold eyes, rarely feeling happy.

When you win, your eyes rarely have such luster. Today, it is special, for her.

She smiled. She still knew what vegetarian food was! She was not like someone who didn't choose, as long as she had meat every meal... Why did she think of him again? Her heart suddenly hurt...

"Then let's go! Follow me." He turned and walked back.

There were pilgrims and believers eating vegetarian meals in the hall. Luo Dongqin took her to sit at one of the tables and brought her a plate of steamed buns, a plate of pickles, and two plates of side dishes.

Tao Zi watched him serve her naturally, and had an indescribable feeling. Even though she always deliberately kept Luo Dongqin away from her, she never felt strange to him every time they met...

"I'm sorry, this is the only food in the temple. Fortunately, the steamed buns are very strong and the vegetables are grown by the monks themselves. They are all natural. You have to work harder. I will treat you well when I return to Beijing." He said with an apologetic expression.

Even if the food is simple, what does it have to do with him? Why should she apologize? Moreover, she is really not particular about eating, so she smiled and said, "Where, I like to eat steamed buns, you don't know, s..." Before she said anything,
To be continued...