042 I'm afraid I won't hurt enough
After being misinterpreted by Yun Mengxue, Luo Haochen was so heartbroken that he was about to suffocate.
"Xue'er, I don't mean that."
"I don't want to test whether it is yes or not, those have nothing to do with me!"
Yun Mengxue pushed Luo Haochen away with force and turned toward the intersection on the other side. She was in a very messy mood and almost fell down when she slipped under her feet. Fortunately, Luo Haochen, who was following him, supported him.
"Xue'er, are you okay?"
Luo Haochen asked Yun Mengxue with a nervous face. His look of concern hurt Yun Mengxue's heart, and he shook Luo Haochen away with a cold face.
"Don't you always do this? It's fun to do this on purpose to shake my heart and then hurt me again, right?"
"no……"
Luo Haochen shook his head, and he felt that the topic of the two of them had returned to the source point.
"What else do you say except shaking your head and saying no?"
"I……"
Luo Haochen seemed to have a fish bone choked in his throat. He really didn't know what else to say, because those things he wanted to say had already been told to Yun Mengxue, and the problem was that she refused to accept them all.
"Xue'er..."
"Don't call me!"
Yun Mengxue was very irritable. She couldn't control her emotions anymore. She raised her foot and kicked Luo Haochen, stretched out her hand and beat Luo Haochen, and kept scolding him.
"Luo Haochen! Listen to me! Even if you cut out your heart with the knife now, I will be so disgusting that I don't want to step on it with my feet, and will directly ask people to throw them to feed pigs and dogs! Because people like you deserve this treatment!"
Yun Mengxue scolded Luo Haochen, but he did not react in any anger. The "I recognize" attitude made Yun Mengxue even more angry.
"Feeding pigs and dogs is considered as a way to polite you. Giving your heart to them is simply an insult to pigs and dogs! Even beasts will not be happy when they call you a beast!"
I really couldn't find any more vicious words to scold Luo Haochen. Yun Mengxue started crying tremblingly. She hated her for being incompetent. Why did she cry in front of Luo Haochen the more she didn't want to cry? She hated so much! She hated so much and hated herself so much!
"Xue'er, don't do this."
Luo Haochen grabbed Yun Mengxue's hand with distress and wanted to wipe the tears that fell for her. Yun Mengxue twisted her wrist and wanted to break free, but the more this happened, Luo Haochen tightened his clench.
"I don't want to let go! Xueer, I can't live without you! The days of losing you are simply dark, and I spend every day in deep self-blame and regret! Xueer, I love you, I... don't know what to say to make you believe me...ah!"
Before Luo Haochen could finish his sincere words, Yun Mengxue bit her hands hard. The biting degree of her teeth was very fierce and hard, but she also had irresistible tremors.
Even so, Luo Haochen refused to let go. The more annoyed and distressed he felt in his heart, the more Yun Mengxue tried her best to bite Luo Haochen hard. Until a trace of blood broke into her mouth, she paused her eyes and bright red blood flowed down the corners of her mouth.
Yun Mengxue was stunned, and the teeth embedded in the flesh finally slowly loosened, and two rows of clear tooth marks were deeply imprinted on Luo Haochen's hands.
"you……"
Before he finished speaking, Yun Mengxue's tears poured down like a river breaking through the river.
"Luo Haochen, are you used to trampling on my soul? Are you afraid that you will not hurt me like this? So you repeatedly sting my wounds?!"
Yun Mengxue cried so hard that she admitted that her heart felt heartbreaking for Luo Haochen in an instant, and why did Luo Haochen treat her again and again? She loved him so deeply, and knew that there was still warmth in her heart, but she always caused her to sink into hell.
"Tell you the truth, once... I had so much tenderness and love to give you, but... you always have too many reasons and excuses to push me away from you over and over again. Do you know what kind of pain it is? Do you understand how lonely and pitiful the trembling trembling is forced to let go?"
Luo Haochen looked at Yun Mengxue in pain. The words were like extremely sharp blades, piercing his heart one after another. What is the pain in his hands? Compared to the damage Yun Mengxue suffered, Luo Haochen felt that this was not enough to make up for it.
After saying what he said, Yun Mengxue's body shook slightly and took two steps back. Luo Haochen was about to reach out to help him, but she dodged away.
"You refuse to accept my heart and hurt my love. After I cried until my heart was broken, I had to use this method to save me back and piece together the perfect beginning of your thoughtful love! Luo Haochen, why do you treat me like this? Why do you hurt someone who loves you again and again?! Why? Why do you!"
Yun Mengxue squatted on the ground in pain, holding her arms with both hands, she looked helpless and weeping. At this moment, she hoped that her warm hands would embrace her in her arms, and her gentle words comforted the injured soul.
That’s right, there is indeed such a person in front of me - Luo Haochen, but Yun Mengxue’s grudges cannot be eradicated. She cannot convince herself to forgive and accept Luo Haochen. It is absolutely not possible!
"Xue'er, I admit that I am very... Although you say the word "beast" is considered an insult to beasts, I can't find any words to describe myself. I am the most despicable existence. I hurt you, make you sad and sad, and you are wronged. It's all my fault, it's my garbage!"
The teeth marks on Luo Haochen's hand were slowly bleeding, and the bright red fell on the snow-covered ground, dyed with dazzling red.
He really didn't want to make Yun Mengxue sad, but his original intention was to torture and hurt Yun Mengxue. Even though he knew that he could not let go of her, he didn't want to break up. He really wanted to keep this hard-won love, but in the end he gave up and ruined it with his own hands.
"Although I really want to say forgiveness to you this time, I feel ashamed of what I say. But I want to tell you that no matter how far away you are from me, my heart is always thinking about you and thinking about you."
Yun Mengxue's breathing stopped. She stared at Luo Haochen with wide eyes and looked up at him. Tears slid down her cheeks, stinging Luo Haochen's eyes.
"For two years, I have been searching for your whereabouts continuously. I love you! The days without you are really... I really feel so empty. I really want to find you again, love you very much, and don't want you to leave again."
With sincere confessions of longing, Yun Mengxue's heart trembled uncontrollably for what Luo Haochen said.
"No... don't say it, I... don't listen! I beg you not to say it!"
Yun Mengxue covered her ears with her hands and shook her head desperately. She didn't want to hear those words that affect her mood. Although she had become less determined now, she still didn't want to let her willpower collapse so quickly under the influence of Luo Haochen.
"I want to say! Xueer, can I finish talking?!"
Luo Haochen took a step forward and pulled Yun Mengxue who was squatting on the ground, holding her shoulders with both hands, preventing Yun Mengxue from leaving.
"Now, I can finally see you again in the face that makes me miss love. I... can't help but become crazy, and will also make some extraordinary actions that make you disgusted! I..."
Luo Haochen felt that he had become so stupid, like a cucumber boy with a dazed head. He was at a loss when facing his beloved woman, and was so panicked that it was ridiculous.
"Xue'er, I admit that my heart is messy and doesn't look at it at this moment. Really... I don't know how to express my feelings! I... I just want to say... I love you, I love you Xue'er! My heart will never change! It will never change!"
"Stop your mouth!"
With a "bang", the crisp slap broke Luo Haochen's words of confessing love and broke the quiet atmosphere of Xue Luo.
Yunmengxue's hands were so painful that it was numb and painful. She couldn't tell whether it was because she hit Luo Haochen, or because it was so cold outside for a long time. In short, her fingers were connected to her heart, and she wanted to chop it off and remove the pain.
Red finger marks appeared on Luo Haochen's cheeks soon, and his words were stopped, but the wishes he should have been expressed were also passed on to Yun Mengxue, but they were still not accepted by the other party.
"Luo Haochen, don't think that your sweet words can make me forget the past and forget the hurt you once gave!"
Yun Mengxue was cruel and tried her best to prevent her from having feelings for Luo Haochen. Whether it was because of love or purely feeling pitiful, all of them were not allowed.
"I...I understand, today... let's do it for the time being. At least... today, I won't bother you anymore, Xueer..."
Luo Haochen's expression became extremely lonely, his eyes were filled with sadness and silently lowered his head, turned around and walked in the opposite direction.
Looking at Luo Haochen's back as he left and his sudden change in his attitude of not chasing each other hard, Yun Mengxue felt as if she was being grabbed by a big bird and flew up to the clouds, but she was drifting and suddenly threw it into the bottomless valley.
The extremely strong psychological gap made her feel uncomfortable, and the thoughts in her heart also made Yun Mengxue resent her.
"Yun Mengxue, what's wrong with you? Haven't you been disgusting with Luo Haochen doing this all the time? But... but why? When I saw him turn around and leave again, why would there be a feeling of loss spreading all over the place?"
Why did it become like this? Why did it feel like this in my heart? Yun Mengxue cried and asked herself over and over again. In fact, she knew the answer, but she just didn't want to admit it.
The sadness in his heart was indescribable. Yun Mengxue wanted to stand up, but found that she had been squatting for a long time and her feet were already numb and undirected. The sudden feeling of blood was filled with indescribable discomfort, and bursts of unbearable tingling pain came.
“Uh…ah…”
His body shook, and Yun Mengxue's mouth was filled with pain. Seeing a girl across the street almost slipping, she was held by her boyfriend beside her and snuggled up with sweet smile. Yun Mengxue's heart seemed to be being stolen by a knife.
Just now, she had experienced the same action, but Luo Haochen's concern was cruelly rejected by him.
"Do you know? Actually... I really miss that feeling, I really want to... be hugged and comforted by you... But Yun Mengxue can't do that!"
You can't do that! You can't let your heart shake! Luo Haochen is not worthy of forgiveness! You can't be deceived by his appearance! You can't be soft-hearted!
He cried over and over again, and felt a pain in his lower abdomen. Yun Mengxue frowned and arched her body slightly, and her hands were pressed secretly on her lower abdomen.
Chapter completed!