"It will be the same."

His eyebrows were delicate and full of spring beauty, which made me panic a little: "Why is it the same?"

Qingming gently unfolded the folding fan and looked at me, as if asking: "Yes, why is it the same?"

…Because, essentially, it’s still the same thing.

No matter how much I reject her, as her "self", it is still her, but she has changed her form and thoughts... and is not another existence.

"I can't stand it..." I stepped forward and snatched the folding fan from Seimei's hand, "To say that my complicated feelings towards human beings must be due to Minamoto Noraimitsu and Seimei. So, the one you want to ask

Questions, I can answer.”

Qingming didn't speak, just looked at me.

"This is a matter between humans and evil gods. I will not interfere. I will try my best not to be used by Yamata no Orochi..."

The handle of the fan is too rounded, as if it has been touched by Qingming many times.

"But, I can't guarantee that I will never take action. I want to find out what happened in the past. Once it comes to this..."

"I understand." Qingming interrupted me, "But...can it only be like this?"

I looked at him, stepped forward and returned the folding fan to his hand: "Hey, Qingming, why do you think I told you this?"

"Why..." He gently held my hand that was about to be taken away, "Of course it's not because of humans, not even because of Heian Kyo and Kagura... Azi, you just think that this favor should be returned to me.

But, have we already become so estranged from each other?"

As long as I am willing, his hand cannot hold me back at all. Just like the "fate" between us, it seems to be inextricably linked, but in fact it can be broken at the touch of a touch.

Maybe it was because I didn't trust him at the beginning, so it became more difficult later on. Things change so fast that I couldn't even give him a clear reason why I alienated him so much.

Is it because of amnesia? But actually, that memory has no impact on me. Even if he forgets those things in his childhood and everything before the separation of yin and yang, it actually has nothing to do with me.

I held his hand with my backhand: "Perhaps it was like this from the beginning. Seimei, at that time... before Yamata no Orochi released his clone, when I was working as a maid in Boya's house, That winter day, you had already made up your mind."

"That winter day..."

"You may not know, but at that time, I have always been very grateful to you, and I was really moved by what you said about Heian Jing who wanted a shemale to live peacefully... You may still remember some of Kidomaru's things, so I don't want to Let me mention it again. Sometimes, it is much harder to build trust than to destroy it. To this day, I still can’t trust you completely."

"In other words, there is no way to take a step back?"

"no way."

"What if it's another me?"

"...Don't you understand yet?"

I let go of his hand, but this time he held it tightly.

"No, I understand. I just want to try again and try to gain your trust."

"..."

"I have failed many times... I have too many things to consider..."

"In this case, I will be out of your consideration. Since we have to deal with Yamata no Orochi, since we have to find a way, if we don't put our heart and soul into it, you humans and you Kyoto City will have no chance of winning. Why do you think he waited until now?"

"..."

"After all, even if I side with Yamata no Orochi, what can you... now do? Lock me up? Kill me?" I looked at him and said, "You can't do it, I'm not You have to consider. Qingming, if you want to gain my trust again, then continue to stick to that idea. Heian Jing, where humans and monsters can live together in peace... After all, that is Aye's ideal."

"That's why I'm asking you this." Qingming smiled, "I... no one wants to be enemies with Azi."

Warmth came from her hands, and Qingming's hands were held tightly.

Not only is he worried, Kagura is also worried. I have shown some connection with Yamata no Orochi before, and when the incident about the old god of Izumo Kingdom came out, this connection was further confirmed.

But, will I stand on Yamata no Orochi's side?

I'm not sure.

I can't be sure about anything until my memory comes back completely. If after my memory is retrieved, I find that it is completely opposite to what I did...

Even though I have grown up, I don't want to experience that kind of collapse again.

more importantly……

"Only on this point, I am not completely sure." I took my hand out, "Only on this point, I cannot give in. The truth of the past is connected to the god Ukiyo, to Yamata no Orochi, to my brother... …”

"God's messenger Ukiyo...the other half of the godhead?"

"Yes, if you have seen my twin brother who looks exactly the same as me, you can also see the difference. Even if my body belongs to my brother, I can't get close to him. I don't know if Axi has told you something What happened during this period, but things will always go in an uncontrollable direction. If I want to know the truth, I will not hesitate to stand on the side of Yamata no Orochi..."

"..."

"But I've also said it. Now, I just want to exist as Yuan Zhizi. It's you who can make her exist... So, until then, I will never take action. Not only me, but also Axi.

Yes, not even in the floating world."

-

Dazzling sunshine...

Xiao Yuan has already gone out, but I am still waiting for someone.

"It's already noon..." A Xi said as she walked to the courtyard to collect the quilts that were drying.

"He didn't refuse immediately." I was a little unhappy, "Since I asked for clues from Qingming, and since he didn't refuse, it means there is hope."

A Xi entered the room holding the quilt: "With this kind of time, maybe I have found it now——"

"Who wants to find that thing?" I frowned, "It hurts just to mention the name... It's just a bargaining chip."

"...Are you serious?"

I was about to speak when I heard a knock on the door. I immediately ran over and opened the door——

"elder brother--"

"Are you so eager to see me?"

What caught his eye was Ukiyo's red eyes——

Did you deliberately imitate him like this because you have seen A Feng’s appearance?

"...Where is my brother?"

"Don't worry, he's still here."

"Then let him come out."

"You have to insist, I won't refuse. But he doesn't want to, and..." Ukiyo explained slowly.

"Stop talking nonsense, you are not him, why do you say that?"

If it weren't for the fact that my body still belongs to my brother, I might have punched him. Anyway, Ukiyo and I hate each other. He only wants his god, and I just want to be Minamoto Chishi.

Ukiyo didn't say anything more and disappeared.

"... If you want me to die soon, come to me more often. I won't mind."

"...Brother, you are still the same." I ignored his disgusting tone, "Are you ready? Let's go when we are ready. Anyway, Qingming and the others have already passed, so we can just treat it as an outing.

Already."

He frowned, his expression changed, and finally he regained his composure: "You can't see Yue, right?"

"...What did that guy from Ukiyo say to you again?" I asked, "Brother, between you and him..."

"If you keep talking nonsense, I won't go."

"Then let's go!"

Although there are still many questions to ask, he and Ukiyo can maintain this wonderful balance...

In any case, since I said those words to Seimei last time at Qijiao Mountain, I will receive letters from him in the next few days. They are daily greetings, and they also contain questions about missing Yue - they

Find clues to the traces of the artifact.

Although there is a possibility of defection, Qingming doesn't seem to care...

No, it would be better to say that if you don’t do this, it won’t be Qingming.

I didn’t go out looking for that mountain…

When he mentioned it to A Xi, he just thought about it and said that it should be a secluded place. Since it is such a place, there must be secrets...

Qingming is better at that kind of thing.

Along the way, I was the one talking, and my brother didn't even bother to look at me. Finally, when we reached the foot of the mountain guided by Qingming, we found that they had already taken a step ahead.

The only one left was Xiaobai, who was sleeping soundly.

"Huh..." Xiaobai yawned, "Hmm... Azi... Hmm... Xiaobai hasn't slept enough..."

"I'm here to see Qingming and his friends, where are they?" I asked, looking at the sleepy Xiaobai.

"They are in danger, hurry up and follow me to find them." A gentle voice sounded behind us.

"Ah? What...what danger?" Xiaobai turned over and muttered, "Who are you? Go away, go away...Azi, please watch for me...Xiaobai...huh..."

Seeing that Xiaobai hadn't woken up yet, I had to turn around and see who was coming.
To be continued...