My existence is meaningless.

This thought came to me when I was in the belly of the monster in Hazama. In the darkness with nothing, and all the hopes at that time were all shattered, I just released all the power that can be regarded as anger, and cut off one of the monster's heads as an act.

ending.

If before I was swallowed, my brother said that he would not kill me. Maybe I would have stayed in the narrow room and endured the loneliness, and would not have returned to this world.

I should understand that if it is just to be killed by my brother, then I am no different from other livestock that are raised. The meaning of those livestock's lives is to be slaughtered, and the meaning of my life is also to be slaughtered.

Such a meaning of "being slaughtered" completely fails to convince me why I want to live.

It's really too contradictory. If you only live for your brother, then you don't need to think about the meaning of your life at all.

After all, brother is everything...

When I returned to the singing studio, the lights were still brightly lit. I walked to the door of the room, pushed the door open, took a step forward, and leaned against the door.

"Yo! You're back? It seems you're quite popular, you have so many gifts..."

I didn't speak, I just slowly followed the door and sat on the ground: "Really?"

"Of course we have some credit for this." Star Bear Boy sat down next to me and put a plate of things in my hand.

I looked up at him, and Hoshikuma Doji was still smiling. When he saw me looking at him, he picked up the plate in my hand.

"Would you like to try these fine cherries?"

The sweet fragrance of bright red cherries reminded me directly of the scene I just saw and the smell I smelled in that room.

My hands trembled, I took one and put it into my mouth, trying desperately to bite it off. My stomach was churning and I had no choice but to cover my mouth, and finally the cherry also fell down.

"Hey! Are you okay?"

"...Go to sleep." I pushed away the hand holding me by Star Bear Boy, "If you have to appear again tomorrow night, I will call you. Now you can go wherever you want."

I didn't care whether he left or not, so I took off my complicated kimono, blew out the lamp, covered myself with clothes and closed my eyes to sleep.

In the darkness where there is nothing...I am walking alone in the darkness again.

I can't see anything, I can't touch anything, and nothingness is tearing at my chest. The more I want to live, the more nothingness I feel. All this is meaningless...

"...Love...you...yo..."

Such vague words came vaguely from the darkness. A white object began to appear in front of me. I stopped and watched the object getting closer and closer to me.

The thing called fear was thrown into that scene as early as I saw everything in that room. Even if there was fear, it was meaningless. There was no difference between me and the ghost-like thing in front of me.

The resentful spirits touched my skin, and a chill spread from my skin. I knew those resentful spirits would cause harm to my body, but it didn't matter.

I just closed my eyes, but I didn't fall asleep. The voices of those resentful spirits echoed in my mind little by little along with the sound of the waves. When I opened my eyes again, the light from the window came through.

"Sister is the same as before."

A faint voice came from above me, and a pair of golden eyes looked at me with a half-smile. The boy's smile looked particularly pure in the dim morning.

"What's the same?"

I reached out to rub my forehead, but was blocked by Hannya's hand. His fingers gently pressed my temples.

"Without any defensiveness, she is still as innocent and cute as before."

Prajna answered softly, and the movements of his hands became softer and more comfortable. I held his hand and asked, "What is your purpose here?"

"Well -" Hannya asked in a long tone, "Sister is really ruthless. It was obviously me who reminded Xicao to help sister yesterday..."

My eyes suddenly cracked: "Did you remind me?"

Prajna bent down to look at me, blinked and said, "Of course, monsters always understand danger better than humans. I guess the person next to my sister must have sensed it yesterday, right?"

I followed his gaze and saw the unconscious Star Bear boy sleeping on the side.

"As for why he didn't come to help my sister, I don't know." Prajna's cold fingers gently touched my face, "But I like my sister very much... so I won't let anyone use my sister's body."

People make things dirty...Sister must not know the purpose of my coming, right?"

"..."

"It's for strength." Hannya's forehead was pressed against mine. "Xicao's hatred awakened me, and I must repay her... But every time I see my sister, I can't help but approach you. Logically speaking

...Sister, there is no smell of hatred in her body, I should stay away from her..."

Stay away...

Hatred. By the way, at that time, my brother was driven by hatred, which led to that ending. My brother never told me what happened between him and Prajna, but I vaguely felt that there was a bigger secret hidden in it.

"However, the closer I get to my sister, the more obsessed I become..."

Prajna said that he followed Xicao to repay her, so where did Xicao's hatred come from? Prajna came to Xingyuan to gain strength?

"I should be able to become good friends and best friends with my sister." Prajna's cold hand rested on my forehead, "A real good friend... Because my sister has been hiding her hatred since she was a child... My sister is calling in her heart.

He wanted me, so I showed up."

"...Liar!" I shouted out loud, "You are my brother's shikigami! Otherwise, why would you trick him into doing such a thing?"

Prajna chuckled: "It seems that sister has realized it."

"Liar!" I grabbed my clothes and tried to cover my head, "You're lying to me!"

Prajna grabbed my hand, with a coldness brewing in his golden eyes: "I would never lie to my sister. It's only right that my sister is aware of my existence. Otherwise, why would I go to Mr. Xi's room every night?

?”

My eyes widened in disbelief, and I immediately struggled to wave away his hand, curling up tightly in my clothes.

"I originally thought that my sister would become braver, but I didn't expect that she would still be so timid." Hannya put his hand on my curled up body, "I came here to tell you about Xicao. She helped you, and now it's you who will repay her.

It's time. Destroy Hongying Song Studio, and her wish will be fulfilled."

Even under the cover of my clothes, I can still imagine Prajna's vague smile.

"Sister, don't be afraid. If sister really turns into a monster one day, I believe we will be very good friends."

The honey-like ending of Prajna disappeared, and when the door closed gently, I opened my eyes.

I finally realized that the reason why my brother hates me so much is not because I ate the snake demon Konguri that I have never met, nor is it because I am a half-demon myself, but because he has seen my true nature clearly.

I...summoned Prajna and asked him to bewitch my brother to kill people? In this way...in this way...

"In this case, aren't you truly evil?"

A familiar voice sounded in my heart.

I sat up suddenly, the bright light outside hurting my eyes.

"Who...are you?" I asked in horror.

The only sound in the quiet room was my own voice.

It seems that I can vaguely think of that person again...

That girl named Aoiko...

It happened a long, long time ago, and the three of us were still very good playmates. That's right... so good that it couldn't be good, so good that...

No, I can't remember that... I can't...

I hugged myself tightly and kept comforting myself, but the less I wanted to think about it, the more I thought about that person.

We have a good relationship...

So good that my brother ignored me...

So good that her brother only has eyes for her...

So good that as long as Kuiko is alone in the world, she can...

"Ah, you're okay." Star Bear Boy sat up sleepily, "We just noticed a little bit of demon power, is it my imagination?"

I suddenly came back to my senses, looked at Hoshikuma Doji blankly, shook his head, and said no more. I was willing to let my brother seal the demon power to this extent, and I can't cause trouble yet. The so-called Shiranui, I haven't yet

After finding out what happened, I also don’t know why my brother sent me to Xingyuan.

What Prajna said to me just now was also strange.

Why did Xicao destroy the Hongying Song Studio?

It's all too messy...

Anzuhara Castle was very peaceful during the day. I tidied up and was going to sit in Ukifune's room and inquire about Shiranui.

When I entered Ukifune's room, she had just woken up.

"You want to ask about Shiranui's story?" Ukifune was a little surprised when he heard my intention.

"You mentioned it that time, so I'm a little curious..." I expressed my meaning as tactfully as possible, "Please tell me about it."

Ukifune pondered for a while and shook his head: "I don't know Shiranui's story, I just know that because of her, the once magnificent Riren Pavilion disappeared."

I had no choice but to get up, thank Ukifune, and think twice before walking to Xicao's room. Xicao lived alone, so when I went there, there were only a few maids in the singing room cleaning the corridor, and Ye Zi was also there.

in.

"Miss Zi Ji." Ye Zi quietly followed me and looked up at me again, "I heard that you were raped by Mr. Matsui that day..."
To be continued...