"Then why can you still go in?" Axi shrugged lightly, in an unprecedented relaxed tone, "Yes... that barrier took a lot of effort to complete, why did you do it so easily -

—No, why did something go wrong with the barrier at that exact moment?"

I have been neglecting one thing -

In this endless cycle of reincarnations, what is going on with the tragedies that are constantly happening, the tragedies that I cannot refuse and escape from?

"Don't you know either?" I asked, staring at his back.

"I don't know." He returned to his usual cold tone.

I didn't continue to ask, A Xi didn't say anything more, and her figure finally disappeared into the last light of the setting sun.

If that's the case... then I have to enter the body of my younger self again. Although I can't completely control it, but... it's okay to ask about a few things...?

This time——

Can't fail anymore.

This time, I struggled desperately to ask about that forest. However, most people's answer was, "Ah, I seem to have heard that children were eaten there. There must be monsters in there. I'd better hurry up."

Let's ask an Onmyoji to get rid of it." Just when I had no clue, a figure walked past me.

Is that...Xiao An? By the way, since it was a child being eaten, maybe the companion of the child who was eaten would know something?

I turned to looking for children to find information, but it went well.

"Are you asking about the forest over there? I don't know. But, we all saw Xiao An and A Lin go into that forest, but only Xiao An came out."

"That's probably what happened... It's great that Xiao An is fine, but A Lin hasn't been found yet..."

"That's just what Xiao An said. He and A-Lin have long been at odds with each other. If Xiao An would leave A-Lin and escape, I would believe it."

"Huh? You asked when this happened? It seemed like just three months ago... I remember that I was very happy to go to the market that day, and something strange happened when I came back. That day was obviously

There was no sign of heavy rain, but thunder continued."

…

Now all things cannot avoid Xiao An, and this matter seems to be related to the inexplicable disappearance of Alin. Did Kongli really eat Alin? Why can Xiao An enter the barrier?

No, that’s not right. If we move the time forward, three months ago...

So what happened three months ago? I looked at the tree where Kuizi was in the distance with some confusion. Xiao An and Kuizi were arguing about something - by the way, thunder... thunder... at that time,

It must have been at that time that the thunder from the sky shattered my father's barrier.

It was accidental, but also inevitable. Xiao An and A Lin ran into the forest...

So...the next step is to ask Xiao An.

Before I even raised my feet to walk towards Kuizi, Xiao An had already lowered his head and rushed towards me. I was hit hard on the shoulder, and I lost my balance and fell directly to the ground.

No, he's going to run away...

I got up from the ground and followed him. Finally, as Xiao An ran all the way, he hid in a house - it should be his home.

"Where have you been? Did you go to meet that monster in the mountains again?" A very sharp female voice spoke.

"Kuizi is not a monster!" Xiao An said angrily.

"She's not a monster. That family on the mountain is a monster. They live up there every day and don't lack anything. What are they if they're not monsters?"

"Kuizi is not a monster! She was just bewitched by a monster!" Xiao An said again, "I won't leave, if you want to leave, you go!"

"What on earth are you thinking, brat?!" The female voice suddenly became softer, with a hint of frustration, "You saw a monster like that in the woods and you still didn't leave?"

"I won't leave! I won't leave!" Xiao An seemed determined to stay, "Humph, there is nothing in the forest. I pushed Alin off the cliff. Only those of you who believe in monsters will believe this.

.Alin’s family has been bullying us, and we can’t even eat! How can their family be so arrogant even if they are just a descendant of the nobility? Also, even Kuizi keeps talking about nobility and nobility——”

"Keep your voice down!"

turn out to be--

So that's it...it's just a lie...

Xiao An lied.

Because of this lie, I, with my father's spell, could enter the forest and ignore my father's barrier.

Because of this lie, everyone believed that there were monsters in this forest, and it was clear that they had done nothing wrong...Why is this happening?

Hot desire surged through my body. It was a strange feeling, so strong that it almost drove me out of my body.

Could it be said that this is a turning point?

But what exactly is this uncontrollable strong feeling? I was tortured repeatedly by such hot emotions, and finally escaped from my young self.

The moment it left the body, the young body had already lost its original human appearance.

"You..." I froze on the spot.

"Do you think I don't know what you've done?" I asked, lowering my head.

There was no one else around, so she could only say to me——

However, this is the past, everything I have built, how could it be——

"The truth turns out to be this." When I was young, I put my hand on the door of Xiao An's house.

"No - in this case..."

"In this case, this reincarnation will continue forever. It hurts... it hurts... it hurts so much. I don't want to go through that again... and you don't want to merge with me, so you have to deal with them..."

"no……"

"Why not? You are also thinking that it would be nice if you did this, right?"

When I was young, I rushed into the house and saw her quickly grabbing Xiao An's neck and kicking a woman away.

"It's all your fault..." I murmured as a young child, and as the woman screamed, everyone in the village gathered around.

"It's all your fault..."

Before my eyes was a reenactment of the scene where my brother massacred the izakaya.

"It's all your fault..."

"I" kept talking, and the so-called massacre never stopped.

"It's all your fault..."

"It's all your fault... we..."

There seemed to be something flickering in front of my eyes, but I couldn't catch it...but my own voice sounded in my ears.

"It's all your fault..."

It's all my fault...the whole village is...gone...

Because of the constant reincarnation, I remembered those things when I was young. She has been waiting for this truth... and she was willing to give up her own existence for this truth.

What can I do to stop this? And is my existence still meaningful?

"What did you do?!" A Xi's voice sounded reproachfully behind me.

"I just……"

I want to defend myself, but I am the one who caused this situation... When I was young... I killed everyone in the village.

"...This is something outside of reincarnation." A Xi said helplessly, "It is not allowed. Let's go."

"Going to...where?"

"If you leave reincarnation, this place will collapse soon." Axi stretched out her hand to me and said.

Leave here? But in this case...

"If I hadn't gone out..."

"You will be left in the gap of time and space. Although there is no guarantee whether it will be the same as the narrow space, it will definitely be a place where no living beings exist except you." As if he was worried, he added, "You don't

You would want to go to that kind of place.”

I don’t want to...but if I leave like this——

Then I still haven't changed anything...

I took a step back, but as soon as I turned around, my hand was grabbed.

"...I'm sorry." Axi lowered his head so that I couldn't see his expression clearly, but in just a moment, he pulled me and ran towards the forest where Kongli was.

Looking back again, my vision was blurred by tears, but I could still see smoke burning in the village, and fires everywhere, just like the fire on the day my father left -

Unforgivable——

How can I forgive myself for being like this...how can I forgive myself for acting recklessly because I know the truth and can't bear it...

"Are you here to save me? Ah Xi." I turned around and asked, "Yes?"

Axi didn't answer, she just pulled me and ran forward. The surrounding scenery was originally woods, but now it was slowly collapsing, revealing its original black appearance.

I looked around, the collapse was getting faster and faster, and we... couldn't possibly leave here together.
To be continued...