Chen wanted to lock the door the most, but he didn't want her to see her dirty appearance now, but he didn't take medicine just now and didn't put any strength in his body.

On the contrary, he was almost suffocated because of the pain, but he still forced himself to get up on the ground. He held the wall tremblingly and moved a step before he almost fell backwards.

This feeling was like the state he had just recovered. The doctors clearly said that his bones had grown, but the strong stinging sensation that would appear under stress still exists.

Before he could get to the door, the door of the room was pushed open from outside, and the light outside shone into the dark room.

Chen subconsciously covered his face with his hands. He didn't want her to see the embarrassment and disbelief at this time.

"elder brother!"

Jiang Yan hurried over and wanted to reach out to help him, but he was thrown away.

I saw him turn his back with difficulty, leaning against the wall and supporting him without falling.

"go out!"

The hoarse voice is very low, and you can hardly hear it if you don’t listen carefully.

But this was almost exhausting all his strength.

Chen Zui turned his back to her, closed his eyes embarrassedly, and tears flowed down from the corners of his eyes.

His fingers were tightened, and even though he felt unwilling to give in, he didn't want to see the sympathy and fear in her eyes at this time.

Yes, he was afraid that Jiang Yan would find that he was different from normal people, and that the situation was not as good as she expected, and then she would regret it and regret standing on his side.

There was a slight movement behind her, which was the sound of her footsteps. Before Chen could speak again, she had already arrived in front of him.

She raised her face, her eyes were pure and heartbroken: "It hurts very much, does it?"

"No," Chen opened his eyes the most, "It doesn't hurt."

Jiang Yan lowered his eyes and hugged him before tears fell.

He stiffened and he spoke hard, "Aren't you afraid?"

She shook her head in his arms, no matter what he became, she would not be afraid of him.

Jiang Yan could feel her hugging body trembling slightly. He was trying his best to suppress it, otherwise he should have trembled even harder. If he could control it, he would not show it in front of her.

She wiped her tears and saw the pills scattered on the ground. Jiang Yan moved her feet and his arms were clenched hard.

Jiang Yan looked back at him and saw that his eyes were full of begging.

"Don't go."

"But you will feel very painful," Jiang Yan's heart was trembling, "Just eat one, can you?"

Although she didn't know what medicine it was, she knew that as long as she took the medicine, he would be able to relieve it and it would not hurt so much.

Chen Ji gritted his teeth and shook his head, and the cold sweat flowed from his forehead.

He didn't want to be controlled by the drugs. He could do it, even if he didn't take the drugs, he wouldn't die.

It's just a little harder to endure.

The room was so quiet that he could only hear his slightly heavy breathing. The two of them looked at each other and Jiang Yan was the first to defeat.

"What can I do for you?"

She wanted to help him relieve some of the pain.

Chen wanted to squeeze out a smile to comfort her most, but it hurt that he was almost unable to breathe, let alone joking.

"You go out first, okay?"

He didn't want her to see what he looked like now.

"…good."

Jiang Yan raised her head and smiled at him, but her misty eyes still betrayed her.

"Brother, I'm right outside the door and accompany you."

Chen Zui was so painful that he couldn't speak, but he still reached out and patted her head gently, his voice lowered and lowered, "Okay."

The moment the room door was closed again, he knelt on the ground in vain.

Jiang Yan, who was standing outside the door, listened to the noise coming from the door, and felt heartbroken, but she couldn't go in.

He is so proud that he should be the pride of heaven.

Jiang Yan didn't know what specific disease he had. He didn't even have a name on the medicine bottle just now. It must have been deliberately replaced by him.

So, did he have been through this for the past five years?

Every time he had an attack, he could almost have half his life.

Jiang Yan didn't know how long it took, but her eyes were sore and her legs were numb. She didn't move anywhere.

Until the door of the room behind him opened, he came out wearing a white sweatshirt, and the ends of his hair were still dripping. He had just taken a shower.

She looked up at him, even a little dazed, as if the one she had just now was not him.

Chen Zui didn't say anything, bent down and carried her to the sofa, took a soft tissue to wipe her face gently.

It was only then that she realized that her tears had fallen down at some point.

His voice was so soft that it was unreasonable: "It was my brother's fault that scared us Yan Yan."

Jiang Yan shook her head and her eyes fell on his clean eyebrows. If it weren't for the fact that there was still some red blood in his eyes, she would have thought it was an illusion before.

“…is it a sequelae left behind?”

Chen Zui paused her fingers, and soon returned to nature. "Not counting, it's PTSD,"

She didn't know how determined he would need to speak these words.

Post-traumatic stress disorder, only individuals have delayed and continuous mental disorders after suffering severe trauma.

The pain that the body remembers will reappear thousands of times, and will become irritable and irritable, and may even have aggressive behavior.

In the long run, other mental illnesses may occur.

Jiang Yan didn't know how he tortured herself over the years. It turned out that the hurt she thought had passed was still trapping him.

And he seemed to be punishing himself, and while suffering, he was punishing himself with this pain.

However, it was not his fault that she was injured. Why did he blame him for all his faults?

"Actually, I'm getting ready."

Although his words were dull, the tremor could not escape her ears.

"There have actually been fewer attacks recently, and you have hit me in the only two times." Chen Zui put the towel aside and lowered his eyes and smiled, "I originally thought it was not a big deal, maybe I couldn't use it."

It will be better after how long it will be. It's not intentionally hiding it from you, but I just think I will become normal sooner or later..."

The sudden hug interrupted him. He closed his eyes gently, sat there motionlessly for her to hug, and did not hug her back as usual.

Because he didn't know whether he was still qualified now.

He was afraid that his dirty self would defile the little princess he wanted to protect.

"It's my fault, I should have discovered it long ago," Jiang Yan patted his back gently, "You shouldn't have to bear this on your own,"

"Also, brother, you have always been a normal person. You are just sick. It's nothing, it will get better if you get sick."

"I……"

Chen was the most rare thing to want to say but stop. He wanted to ask if he had become a burden to others for laughing at her.

When he thought of this, his body became a little restless.

Jiang Yan held his hand: "Brother, you are my pride, you have always been."

Chen was breathing his mouth as his jawline tightened into a line.

"Jiang Yan, I, I can't become your pride."

"I'm sick, not only physically, but also psychologically."

"The doctor said, I may not be cured in my life."

"I have a strong sense of self-defense. I went to fight black boxing because I found that I was aggressive and needed to vent."

"I pretended to be a normal person during the day, but in fact, I could not sleep all night in the dark, and my body was still very excited."

"…I've really become a monster, a monster that is different from everyone."
Chapter completed!