My dad was hospitalized for more than half a month, and he was still well taken care of in the later period. I just had to pay careful attention to his diet and not let him eat messy things. Half a month later, when the new year was over, I took my dad home from the hospital.

This family has no human touch now. My brother is very busy now. He basically doesn't learn anything except English, and the school doesn't care about him.

My stepmother is looking for ways to make money everywhere and doesn't care about him.

Things at home were in such a mess that I really couldn’t focus on solving my emotional problems, so I called the company and continued to ask for leave. This was a loss because my boss, Li Baitian, was an acquaintance of mine. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be able to work by now.

It has to be lost.

The problem I am facing again now is poverty.

Sometimes I was so poor that I robbed my brother of his pocket money. Hey, I am already in my 24s and 50s, so I am really shabby. I thought that when my dad recovers and there is nothing to do here, I still have to

When I go back to Beijing to work, I have to thank Li Baitian for providing me with a good enough platform so that I, a young girl from a poor art school, can have a fairly adequate job.

Before I was about to leave, I shamelessly asked my biological mother to borrow money. How could I have some money in my hand when I went to Beijing? After the first month, I couldn’t go back and I would have to trouble Li Baitian.

My mother is very angry at me for not coming back for the Chinese New Year for two years. I can't help it. Last year, I was dealing with Lan Tian during the New Year, and this year, I'm dealing with my dad.

Then my mother asked me: "Where is your boyfriend? How old is he and you haven't brought him back yet?"

I felt annoyed when I heard her nagging, so I said, "She's getting married."

My mother almost jumped up. At this time, she didn't understand her daughter. She just wanted to criticize me. She said that I must be very ignorant and they don't want me anymore. She said that I was like this, how could I get married in the future?

I have to go out and tell her that I am not married yet, and now she feels like her face is not bright when she walks out.

Because my place is small, girls get married relatively early.

My mother also gave me an example and said: "Your aunt's cousin is only one year older than you. Now she is in Q city. She doesn't even have a boyfriend, but she is living a good life. Is she being arranged by someone else?"

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I said, "Mom, why don't you ever think the best of people? What's wrong with people who live a good life and are capable?"

My mother said: "Why don't you get married if you have the ability? Is it because you can't have children?"

I thought, she was really mad at her. When I was angry, I stopped talking, and my mother kept nagging her, just telling her to get married early. It would be embarrassing not to get married. The older you get, the harder it is to get married. She kept talking.

Then, he started talking about Shen Song again.

Shen Song is really capable. My biological mother and my stepmother have not seen each other in these years, but they regard each other as enemies. Only Shen Song can coax these two old women into submission.

Shen Song is considered a standard Phoenix man. In the eyes of my mother and her generation, he is a perfect marriage partner who can make money and live a good life.

After leaving my mother's house, Shen Song called me and said that she would come over to pick her up. I was very polite and said, "You are not allowed to come over!"

I really don’t want to drag down Shen Song. The better he is, the less I want to drag him down. Why should I drag him down? Since he is a good man, he deserves a good girl, a girl who only loves him wholeheartedly. From this point on

Say, I am not worthy of others.

But I was only out for a short while, and my father had a stomachache at home again.

The reason is that my brother gave him something that was not suitable for him to eat. These days, because I pay too much attention to my dad's diet, I am starving him. He is very greedy, and my brother does not understand this aspect. .Anyway, the two of them are causing trouble again.

At first I thought it was food poisoning, but Shen Song sent my dad to the hospital. After the examination, it was revealed that it was intestinal obstruction again.

It had only been a month since his last surgery. Wouldn't it be a risk to him to have another surgery now? The doctor said we should give him conservative treatment first. Seeing my dad moaning and screaming in pain on the hospital bed, I felt really upset.

I went out and scolded my brother again.

I haven't scolded my brother for a long time. I was too irritable today and scolded him fiercely. My brother is also a 10-year-old boy. Unlike when I was a child and I cried when I scolded him, now he talks back.

He was a child who liked to shirk responsibility, so he said, "Well, if you were out for a year and no one cared about you, my dad should still eat and drink. You would get sick as soon as you come back."

What's the matter, is my father's illness caused by me, my nemesis? I felt so unhappy, and I said, "Isn't he different now from before?"

My brother said: "Then I don't know. I still have to go to school. When I go abroad in the future, my mother will not care about him. What are you thinking about?"

Ahhhhh! Another headache. If I had money in my hands, if I had money in my hands, I wouldn't need them to take care of me.

Chen Song couldn't listen anymore and said, "Why are you talking to your sister? The one lying down is not your father, right?"

My brother thought it made sense, but he refused to give up and said, "Then I can't not go abroad because of this. What will he do in the future? She can't control my sister like this."

I became even more upset and yelled at him: "Do you want our dad to die soon?"

After saying this, I couldn't help but cry. I thought why my biological father was so miserable. He found a wife who complained about his poor health. His son only thought about going abroad and thinking about his own affairs. My daughter didn't. He can't even find a son-in-law.

At this time, Chen Song suddenly acted like a man, pointed at my brother's nose and said, "I don't need you anymore, I'm in charge. Your dad will be in my charge from now on, get out!"

I have always thought that Shen Song was a gentle man, who would go to his mother to cry and complain when he suffered hardships. I have never seen him scold my brother in such a manly manner when he was such a man.

But I'm in a bad mood right now. I'm still crying. I don't have time to be moved or anything. I just feel aggrieved for my dad.

My brother was scared away by Shen Song.

I stopped crying and sat outside the ward with my arms crossed and angry. After Shen Song finished his harsh words, he stood there for a while, then sat next to me to comfort him. He said, "Youyou, don't worry, what's wrong with your dad?" You called me immediately when everything happened, I still don’t believe it, we can make your dad die if we work hard.”

At a certain moment, I was indeed touched by him, but I am a person who knows how to be close to each other. I didn't want to trouble him when it was unnecessary. I sniffed and said, "Okay, thank you, go back first, I can see through it."

Shen Song still has a job and can't spend time with me in the hospital.

My dad's condition is not very serious this time. After a few days of conservative treatment, the intestines should be smooth. But I don't dare to leave now. I'm afraid that if I walk on the front foot, something will happen to his back foot.

I also thought about taking my dad directly to Beijing, but seeing a doctor in Beijing is more troublesome, so don’t be delayed by waiting in line.

I was planning every day and worrying every day, and finally one day, I worried myself out of control.

Because I stayed with the bed in the hospital, I didn't sleep well at night, and I had various disorders in my body. This time after my dad was discharged from the hospital, I discovered that I had a problem, that is, I would be woken up by my own breathing while sleeping.

It's not a loud shouting sound, but a pulling sound like a bellows. Sometimes I can hear that strange sound even when I talk, but only I can feel this strange sound. I will miss it very much at night.

cough.

I didn’t pay much attention to it at first, because usually after waking up in the morning, I would be fine, and I thought it would be over. But the feeling of being woken up by the sound of breathing at night was very scary, and I took every breath I took.

If you don't come here, you'll never wake up again.

So I went to the hospital. The hospital here was too small and the diagnosis was not accurate enough. At first I thought it was pneumonia, so I was forced to be hospitalized. I was treated for a period of time according to the pneumonia method, because I was allergic to one of the drugs, and the treatment was a little difficult.

Delay for a while.

My own condition is getting worse and worse, and my bronchial tubes are not in good condition.

During my hospitalization, I underwent various examinations and found abnormal blood indicators. The doctor said that my physical condition was really bad, especially after the miscarriage that year.

If you use too cold water, you are risking your life.

I was afraid of death, so I cooperated with the treatment. The doctor said I shouldn’t be tired or stressed, so I tried my best not to think about anything. After a few days in the hospital, I spent all the thousands of dollars I borrowed from my mother last time.

, my father spent a lot of money while he was in the hospital, and Shen Song’s money has not been paid back yet.

I said I’m not worried, but how can I not be worried?

So the condition was getting worse and worse, and the medicines I took were not very effective. Later, I started to undergo physical examination, and also had to undergo fiberoptic bronchoscopy, which is the kind of examination that involves looking into the tube from the nose down. Before doing it, you need to inhale anesthetics and inhale.

The whole mouth and lips were numb, and then the tube was inserted. It was very difficult to insert the tube. After the tube was inserted, I tried to cough but couldn't. Some blood or other messy things came out of my nose and mouth. I don't know if it was blood.

I used to always feel as if I was dead, but this feeling is truly as uncomfortable as death, and not as pleasant as letting myself die.

After the tube was inserted, I kept coughing and something came out of my mouth. Then I took the test form and went from one hospital building to another.

The spring breeze in W City was blowing hard. I was wearing a skirt and the wind kept blowing it at night. I pressed the left button to turn it right and the right button to turn it left.

I endured various treatments and examinations with determination, but was finally defeated by this disobedient skirt. I opened my mouth and cried in the spring breeze.

I cried so much that I didn’t even want to live anymore.
Chapter completed!