059 I miss
Chen Feiyang's confession letter was apart from the beautiful little flower in the ballpoint pen, and the rest of the place was simply unsightly. The typos in the article were changed, but you couldn't treat a sincere person with a perfunctory attitude.
He is very good, except for the simpler ideas, everything else is very good. I have always had a passionate man, and before this, I always wanted to live a passionate life. I talk about love and make friends with passion. Of course, it is difficult for the real society to satisfy my passionate wishes, so I used to like playing games.
I like passionate battles. When Chen Feiyang tells me about his training past, I feel very passionate. There are always a few moments when I admire him on the phone.
And true passion is just the appearance we yearn for, just like war is for peace, often tossing and calm.
Looking back on the life that Chen Feiyang gave me over the past few days, I feel that it is actually good to live like this for the rest of my life. When I was thinking about these things, Chen Feiyang called me and asked if I had read it.
I sat on the bed and said, "I can't understand what I wrote."
"I can't understand where I can tell you."
I said I couldn't understand it, so Chen Feiyang memorized the words in the letter again, but it was not as affectionate and emotional as we memorized the text when we were in school. The problem that can be explained is that he didn't know how many times he had considered this letter, and how many times he read it repeatedly, he had already memorized it like a stream.
I laughed, "In the end, what does it mean to come to my long street to be my home?"
Chen Feiyang was stunned for a moment, "That's right, just be my wife."
"Hmph, where did you learn it?"
Chen Feiyang did not explain that I knew he was illiterate, but illiterate also knew good or bad, and also liked to write two cultural words. I would not look down on illiterate. No one was born to be illiterate, especially Chen Feiyang, who was illiterate, was caused by sacrifice for the country.
"Then do you agree or not?" Chen Feiyang asked eagerly.
"What to promise?"
"Come to my long street and be my homecoming," he said.
I smiled myself, "What will happen if I promise?"
“I’ll be very happy.”
Just a temptation, I said, "Why do I make you happy once?"
"real?"
"Fake."
This sentence is absolutely true. Feelings are too complicated. Even if you really take out your heart, you may not be able to see clearly what it needs. Many people actually go through it in a daze and never see their heart clearly in their entire lives. If you have the chance to see clearly, most of them are stimulated.
I wasn't stimulated, so I couldn't see clearly, I was just as confused as everyone, and wouldn't try to struggle as long as nothing obviously made me feel uncomfortable.
I have long been unable to see how I view Chen Feiyang. If I want to use it, I feel too unconscience. I just think that if I really want to choose someone to live like this, Chen Feiyang would be great. At least I can't find one, and I must not live with him. Now even the fact that he is not of marriage age has been erased by this kid.
I didn't hand over the answer, just like every night, I called him across the wall before falling asleep. At the beginning, I was talking nonsense with him because I felt that he had the need to talk nonsense with me, and he helped me so much that I didn't even want to talk to others. It was not interesting enough.
As I pull it, I get used to it.
Today I was in class, and the children were not very obedient. They shouted to them for a day, but their throats were not very comfortable, so they didn't want to talk, so I asked Chen Feiyang to sing for me.
Chen Feiyang has a good voice and sings very well. He can sing a cappella to express that professional flavor. First, he has a good voice, second, has a large lung capacity, and third, he likes it.
Actually, I think Chen Feiyang is buried. He wants to have a body, a shape, a look, and a voice. He really has the opportunity to become a girl idol, and he has the conditions. But he doesn't like it, and he is shy.
Chen Feiyang sang me an hour-long song, from Jay Chou to Eason Chan, from popular recently to classic old songs, "I will marry you tomorrow, I will marry you tomorrow..."
I put my phone next to my pillow and listened silently with my eyes closed.
"Marry me, my dear." He said softly and seriously. I didn't reply, and gasped quietly.
"Dear? Xiao Chang? Are you asleep? Xiao Chang..." He kept asking tentatively, I didn't say anything, a few seconds later, "Okay, good night, I love you.mua."
The phone hung up, and my ears calmed down again. I fell asleep in his singing and confession. If possible, I would really like to keep it going.
I like.
My throat was uncomfortable and I drank a lot of water. In the middle of the night, I got up to go to the bathroom and saw Chen Feiyang lying in the narrow gap between the sofa and the coffee table, with one of his legs still on the sofa. The quilt he usually covered was already wrapped in a ball, twisting so much that it looked distorted.
The sofa is narrow and short. For someone who has such a long strip, he is really frustrated to sleep. Chen Feiyang is sleeping on the ground, but he hasn't sensed yet and is sleeping soundly.
The floors are still very cool this season.
I couldn't stand it after coming out of the toilet, so I went over and kicked him, woke Chen Feiyang up, and looked at me in a daze while lying down.
"Get up." I ordered.
He got up, closed his eyes and climbed onto the sofa, and I kicked him again, "Sleep on the bed."
Chen Feiyang was stunned for a moment, and I lowered my eyes, "You don't go."
As I said that, I walked towards the room. At the moment of closing the door, Chen Feiyang blocked the door and blocked the door that was about to close with his arms. I deliberately clamped him with the door panel, let go, lifted the quilt and lay on the bed.
Chen Feiyang finally went to bed after a long time of hard work. I turned my back to him and was smiling secretly. Actually, I could squeeze with Wu Yuqing and give this bed to Chen Feiyang to sleep, but at this time, I didn't want to.
I feel like I have made a decision and given him a chance to make a decision.
I am indeed not a person who cares about chastity or not, and I have to admit that I have gradually reached the age of need. Although I don’t think too much, now there is a man with such an attractive figure next to me, I can’t help but think too much.
In countless lonely nights, I once longed for hugs, even if it was a hug from a woman.
Chen Feiyang lay down, after swallowing twenty mouthfuls in a row, he stretched out one arm to hug me. Seeing that I didn't resist, he became a little more courageous and stretched out both arms.
I turned to face him and we did.
Well, I really broke a virgin. At this time, the virgin was so excited that even her knees were trembling. Under his wide hug, I rippled lightly, without making any sound, but just slowly closed my eyes.
This 18cm is not something to be swearing. To be honest, it was not comfortable at the beginning because I really couldn't get used to it.
The human body has memories. When I close my eyes, I can clearly feel the memory of my body being quarrel with me. I once had only one man. I remember every sense I hugged him, his body shape, and when my hands were wrapped around me, I could just touch an inch of joint.
My body remembers that someone in front of me has changed.
My body feels more sad than my brain. So it is unable to cooperate, and any cooperation makes it feel a bit shameful. Maybe the body may really be more loyal than the brain, but unfortunately the body is ultimately dominated by the brain.
I know this is wrong. I always miss Wang Zhaoyang when I do this with Chen Feiyang. I can't tell him, or even be honest with myself.
I have never stopped myself from these shameful thoughts, and sometimes even regarded them as a kind of relaxation. Because I know that what I miss is no longer possible to go back.
A song rang out in my head. Chen Feiyang sang it to me before falling asleep:
I asked why the girl sent me a message and why you didn't explain that she lowered her head and was silent.
I should believe that you love me very much and I don't want to be perfunctory. I still understand that you don't want to save anything anymore
I want to ask why I am no longer your happiness, but why I smiled bitterly and said I understand everything
Self-esteem often drags people to the twists and turns to pretend to understand because I am afraid that the truth is too **
Being embarrassed is more uncomfortable than losing
What I miss is saying everything I miss is dreaming together
What I miss is the urge to love you after a quarrel
I remember that birthday that year and that song and that starry sky
The tightest right hand warmest chest
Whoever remembers and who forgets...
Forgive me for copying this lyrics to such a long paragraph, because every sentence is my voice, and every sentence can involve the most painful part of my heart, and it hurts very happily.
After this incident ended, I pursed my lips and cried by myself. Chen Feiyang had no experience, didn't know anything, didn't know how to wipe it for me, nor did he hold me to wash, but he lay on me, and did not withdraw easily, and apologized with my tears, "I'm sorry Xiao Chang, did I love you, I'm sorry for me in the future..."
I pulled his hand away and buried it in his chest and cried for a while.
What I miss will always be vague. I believe that many people have not been fortunate to stay with the one I love the most. I believe that many people can still live well after settling down, and balance this nostalgia and adapt to a new embrace.
I will adapt to Chen Feiyang and take care of it.
Chen Feiyang knew that it was not the first time I was, and I never planned to panic with him. He just said that he felt regretful and regretted why he was not born a few years ago. He would hate it a little, but he also said that he didn't care about a layer of film.
Chen Feiyang has two classic quotes, I don’t know where he learned them.
Chapter completed!