"He still comes to me on time after school every day. No matter how late it is, he won't go back until he sees me.

Whenever I see him looking at me with such a gentle smile, my heart aches.

Can I... be worthy of his affection?

With my dirty body...

I asked him, why do you like me?

This is the first time I asked him this question.

Because I have always been afraid of hearing the answer from him that I am pursuing you because you don’t like me.

He told me sincerely that the first time he saw me reminded him of his mother.

I laughed and said, do I look a lot like your mother? I really want to take a look if I have the chance.

His eyes became lonely when he heard what I said, and he told me that his mother ran away with a rich man after he gave birth to his younger brother. Two years after his mother ran away with someone else, his father's business suddenly

It got bigger and bigger and became a nouveau riche.

I also told him my life story, which I had never told him before.

He looked at me with a bright smile. It seemed that we were really a destined couple, even our experiences were equally tragic.

I just laughed and didn't answer. In fact, my experiences with him were different. He was much happier than me.

I asked him what would happen if he didn't like me anymore.

He told me that no matter what happens, he will always like me.

I know...he just didn't know what happened to me that's why he said that.

If he knew I was dirty, maybe he would abandon me.

Although this is very selfish, I will not tell him about my rape. I will pretend that I lost that membrane because I often rode bicycles when I was a child.

Even though it's a little too selfish to deceive him like this, I'm really... even more afraid of losing him!"

"I'm going crazy! I didn't expect that grandma passed away suddenly.

I felt very uncomfortable today and wanted to vomit from time to time. When I was in the hospital, the nurse asked me if I was pregnant when she saw that I was about to vomit and couldn't vomit.

Hearing the nurse's words, it felt like a basin of cold water had been poured on me from head to toe.

I secretly went to the drugstore to buy a pregnancy test, but to my surprise... I was really pregnant.

Why does God treat me so cruelly?

Yesterday he told me that he wanted to go abroad with his father today and would not be back until a few days later.

When he comes back, how should I explain to him and how should I face him?

I think I have no choice, no way to live with such a dirty body." In the last diary, a few words seemed to have been blurred by Xu Ruoning's tears.

At this point, the diary ends.

Behind it is a letter tucked away.

Qiao Ximo read the contents of the letter.

In the letter, Xu Ruoning told Chi Yeche the reason for her suicide. However, the letter seemed to be given to Chi Yeche alone, and the diary was found later.

Because in the letter, Xu Ruoning told Chi Yeche that she left because she could not accept the sudden death of ***, Xu Ruoning did not tell Chi Yeche about Qiao Daye's violation of her.

Qiao Ximo thought that Xu Ruoning did this on purpose. In order to prevent Chi Yeche from living in hatred, she was afraid that he would do something stupid to avenge her.

After reading Xu Ruoning's diary, Qiao Ximo had tears in her eyes.

Qiao Ximo can feel it from the lines of Xu Ruoning's words.

She is indeed a very good woman.

She really loves Chi Yeche very much.

After closing the diary, Qiao Ximo suddenly realized that it was getting late! She had even forgotten to open the eight-treasure porridge.

Thinking of this, Qiao Ximo quickly put Xu Ruoning's diary aside, took the chopsticks and moved the vent of the pressure cooker, and after the air was released, opened the pressure cooker and prepared to take out the eight-treasure porridge.

Qiao Ximo put on insulation gloves and took out the porridge. At this time, a strange sound suddenly came. He felt something rush past his feet, and a black figure suddenly disappeared.

Qiao Ximo knew it was a mouse and screamed in fright. She was holding the porridge unsteadily through her thick insulating gloves. With a shake like this, the rim of the bowl was released from her hand and she threw the whole bowl into it.

On Xu Ruoning's notebook.

The rice-treasure porridge slipped from the table and dripped on her feet. This was the rice-treasure porridge that had just been cooked and was taken out from the pressure cooker. It was very hot. Because there is heating at home, it is not too cold now, Qiao Ximo

She was not wearing socks at all. Her feet were burned, but she was in no mood to care.

Seeing this scene, Qiao Ximo quickly reached out and took out Xu Ruoning's notebook from the puddle of eight-treasure porridge.

But... it was too late, the inner papers of the notebook were almost soaked in eight-treasure porridge and stuck together.

Hearing Qiao Ximo's scream, even though it was just a faint sound, Chi Yeche was not sure if he heard it, but he rushed down from the study room immediately.

Spotting the eight-treasure porridge scattered on the table, Chi Yeche hurriedly walked over and noticed Qiao Ximo's tearful eyes. He frowned and asked with concern: "Did it get burned? Where did it get burned?"

Qiao Ximo raised his eyes and looked at Chi Yeche with tearful eyes.

"sorry……"

Chi Yeche couldn't help but frown more tightly and looked at Qiao Ximo in confusion.

"Why are you saying sorry to me?"

"I saw a mouse, and when I loosened my hand holding the bowl, the eight-treasure porridge ruined Ruoning's notes. I...I didn't mean to..." Qiao Ximo explained to Chi Yeche while crying.

After reading the contents of this diary, Qiao Ximo knew even more how important this diary was to Chi Yeche.

But……

Qiao Ximo was so scared, so afraid that Chi Yeche would think she did it on purpose.

I deliberately told him that I wanted to read Xu Ruoning's diary, and deliberately made the diary look like this...

She saw the diary in Qiao Ximo's hand that had been mushy with eight-treasure porridge, and saw Qiao Ximo's red eyes from crying.

Chi Yeche held Qiao Ximo in his arms.

"Stop crying, I don't blame you."

Although Chi Yeche said he was not to blame, Qiao Ximo still felt very sorry.

This is really important to Chi Yeche and a very good memory.

"I didn't mean it...I didn't expect it to end up like this..." Qiao Ximo shrugged her shoulders as she cried in Chi Yeche's arms.

Chi Yeche's hand gently patted Qiao Ximo's back: "I know you didn't do it on purpose." Of course he knew that Qiao Ximo wouldn't be the kind of person with ulterior motives.

She wanted to read Xu Ruoning's diary simply because she wanted to know who he was.

Gently letting go of Qiao Ximo's arms, Chi Yeche lowered his eyes and suddenly discovered that Qiao Ximo's feet were covered with eight-treasure porridge.

You don't need to think about it to know that the table must have been knocked over and slipped down and got on Qiao Ximo's feet.
Chapter completed!