[31] Never want to lose to fate
I was sitting on the bar counter of Cinderella Bar, next to it was the singer Xiaoying, a senior sister Siyi's friend.
"Sister Xiaoying, can you tell me some things about Siyijie?"
I held the lemon coke brought by the bartender, took a sip, and asked Xiaoying, the singer beside me with her head tilted.
"oh....."
She was a little surprised to hear that I started with Siyijie when I talked to her.
"Little brother, how much do you know about Xiaosi? Because some things may not be done well will be privacy for her..."
Xiaoying also took a glass of wine, tilted her head to me, and asked in a charming voice.
oh.....
Looking at the light in her eyes, I probably knew something about Siyijie, but since she said that, I wanted to confirm whether I had the qualifications to know Siyijie's information.
"I know all the things between Siyijie and her father when she was twelve years old... I mainly want to know what Siyijie has been doing afterwards and what happened... I don't know what can help her."
I lowered my head and said with a gloomy look on my face.
"well....."
Xiaoying couldn't help but sigh when she heard me say this.
"Since you know Siyijie's greatest privacy, you are also someone worthy of her trust. I'm willing to tell you more."
Xiaoying smiled bitterly and said to me.
"Um......"
I nodded.
"Siyijie, I do regard her as my sister because she has so many things that are different from us and worthy of our admiration."
Xiaoying shook the wine glass with one hand and held her cheek with the other, looking forward, and said.
"She told me some things about her. Since her father betrayed her and asked her to do it with the disgusting old man once, she did not treat him as a father at all. After that, the old man often came to the door and brought other bad people to do excessive things to her... Xiao Si could no longer bear it. She tried to call the police, but the police did not accept her case. She wanted to find other relatives to help her. No one was willing to help her. Even if she went to the orphanage, the orphanage did not admit that she was an orphan, nor did she want to adopt her."
Xiaoying said to me so lightly, but I couldn't help but clenched my fists.
I can't feel the feeling of being isolated and helpless.
Although I am different from ordinary children from rich families, the tutoring is very strange. When my parents raise us until we are six or seven years old, Ling will give her some money. For me, the future heir of the Chamber of Commerce, I can raise you poorly, and only provide me with food and accommodation at home and pay the school fees. As for other money, I need to get it by completing the tasks that fight for life in the Chamber of Commerce.
And Siyijie, no one will provide her with anything.
No, let alone the material things she provides, she can't even get love.
Everyone regarded her as an abandoned and ruined toy, and she was a twelve-year-old girl who wanted to ask for help in the world but got nothing.
"In the last period of elementary school life, she almost always skipped classes, and somehow her affairs spread in school. When she went back once or twice, she suffered humiliation and ridicule... After graduation, I didn't know what Xiaosi did. In short, she just worked part-time and half-study, trying to stabilize her studies, living in a working shop or sleeping in an alley near the alley on the street of Laoshi..."
Xiaoying said this to me, and gradually, tears appeared in her pupils.
"We admire Xiao Si's performance as well... She has countless suitors, and almost everyone in the Old City Street knows her name. On this street, there are many rich people who are interested in girls who want to support her... but she doesn't accept anyone."
Xiaoying continued, drinking a sip of wine.
Didn't accept one person?
Hey... She invited me to keep her at the bar door, but that was really a joke...
However, seeing that Si Yijie has many boyfriends, and many have developed a deep relationship with her, so why not accept those rich people...
"Why?"
I couldn't help asking.
"Um....."
Xiaoying stared into my eyes and took a sip of wine.
"Because she has no sense of security, because she never wants to lose to fate again."
Xiaoying breathed a little, opened her red lips and said slowly.
"Xiao Si.... She always wants to dominate her life by herself. If she always relies on a man, she will not feel safe, so it is better for her to choose people she is interested in to date, cheat some money and status from them, and gradually convert other people's things into her own strength. She doesn't want to be a prey for men, she wants to turn a man into her prey... and then rely on her own strength to dominate her destiny, and never want to lose to destiny again."
Xiaoying said to me slowly, and after that, she raised her head and took a sip of wine.
“……”
I was a little stunned.
Never want to lose to fate again?
I can't say whether what Siyijie is doing is right or wrong, but when I think of the reason for her doing this, I feel that I can't hate her. Instead, I feel a sense of sympathy and admiration.
but......
"Do you think I should help her materially?"
I calmed down, held the cup of lemon Coke, and said to Xiaoying.
Yes... Although I don't have much money here, I still have 20,000 or 30,000 left to do the task. Siyijie finally finished junior high school under such conditions and relied on the number one school in the province, which was the number one school in the province. However, if she kept focusing on cheating money from other men or singing and working, she would not be able to concentrate on a good university.
And if she told Ling about this, Ling would definitely be willing to help her. Ling is not like me. She can spend the money of Dark Moon at will. Even if it is easy to let Si Yijing live a comfortable and prosperous life.
"don't want."
And just when I asked Xiaoying this question, Xiaoying quickly told me her opinion.
"Why?"
I was stunned.
"Little brother... I said that Xiao Si has been working hard until now because she doesn't want her destiny to be controlled by others. If you go directly to help her, she may not accept it, nor will she be grateful to you... because she cannot let you help her unconditionally. She is not the kind of person who will accept charity and relief..."
Xiaoying said this to me slowly, and I lowered my head.
"Well... I understand, I'm overthinking."
A smile of relief appeared on the corner of my mouth. It was the life of Senior Sister Siyijie. She has lived to this day, and the belief in fighting fate is supporting her. When I give her charity, I undoubtedly eliminated her belief. What is the difference between it and those unscrupulous wealthy businessmen?
——"If you really want to help her, just understand her more. If one day you like her, don't care about her past and marry her home."
At the end, Xiaoying said this to me.
Then, she seemed to be about to go on stage to sing, and she left shortly after saying this to me.
I sat alone in front of the horizontal bar at the bar, drinking lemon coke, thinking about Xiaoying's last words.
One day...
If one day I really fall in love with Siyijie and this girl who has never wanted to lose to fate.
Will I accept Siyijie's past and be with her?
Answer.....
I don't know now.
I am a person who cannot be sure of my heart...
Chapter completed!