After listening to Jiu'er's words, Cheng Mingxuan stopped talking.

What else could he say? An eighteen or nineteen-year-old girl used her most tragic life experience to tell him about the desolation and deterioration of the world they lived in!

He didn't understand why everyone was living so hard without any hope or hope!

But because of this night of conversation, Cheng Mingxuan did not go to Jiu'er's bed in the days before he settled down with her. Although he could feel that Jiu'er was a little interested in him and had given him all kinds of love more than once.

a hint.

But he always felt that there was a gap between them, whether it was the concept of family status, the concept of ethics, or something else, he couldn't tell! Or, he really missed his wife Yu Lanzhi from his hometown in Fuxin, and insisted on

Because of his loyalty to her, or maybe he just wants to respect himself by respecting Jiu'er, he doesn't want to become a shameless prostitute!

Due to the civil war, smoke and blood were raging everywhere on the land of China.

Cheng Mingxuan had no choice but to stay with Mei Baojiu, a famous prostitute in Qinhuai, for more than half a year. During this period, he almost wanted to go south, but Mei Baojiu pushed and blocked him.

Cheng Mingxuan is not stupid. He can see Jiu'er's thoughts so well. It's so rare for a woman to risk her own face in order to pursue a man! When he thought like this, he no longer thought about it.

Think Jiu'er is a prostitute!

In fact, she shouldn't be a prostitute.

She is the most dignified woman he has ever seen. She is a young girl like a flower. She is also a beauty in troubled times with a beautiful face and a kind and pure heart. And he himself is just like the girl in the play.

The young master in trouble is about to start a thrilling, warm and romantic legendary story with him, or is about to start it!

This kind of boundless imagination is not dirty at all. He has never thought of taking possession of her body. He just knows and trusts each other when she needs it and when he can't go home for the time being.

He never stopped thinking about going home!

But he couldn't deceive himself. Over the past year or so, his feelings for Jiu'er had become increasingly impure.

Many nights, Cheng Mingxuan heard the sounds of Jiu'er having sex with those men in the wing next to the wall, and had the desire to break in and kill those bad men, or he always imagined that he was the one who was having sex with Jiu'er on the bed.

The man she was having sex with, smelling her body fragrance and soothing her body, made him feel uncomfortable in his heart.

When he even heard Jiu'er crying under the man, he thought that if it were really him, he would never treat such a beautiful woman as rudely as they did!

Based on Cheng Mingxuan's love and education experience at the time, it was difficult for him to explain scientifically like contemporary young people that his random thoughts and physical arousals were all due to a male's instinctive physiological reaction, and he frequently felt strange and dirty about himself.

thoughts of disdain and fear.

But Jiu'er, who is only in his early twenties, has experienced so many joys and sorrows in the romantic field, and is always good at capturing the ever-changing love affairs of men and women. Because of the chaotic past, the fate of wandering, and because of the past.

After all the glitz, she longed for serious love and a normal life more than any other woman.

And the man in front of her, a man who could unshakably stick to his beliefs and ideas, had a warm and kind smile that she had firmly remembered in her heart since she was twelve or thirteen years old, and had a calm and sincere heart as good as gold. She knew clearly.
Chapter completed!