An Gui looked at An Zhilu froze, looking a little worried, and couldn't help asking, "Brother Zhilu, what's wrong?"

An Zhilu slowly put down the chopsticks in her hand.

He was a little dazed for a moment, but soon came to his senses.

He looked at An Gui, laughed, and said, "I think of what happened when we were young."

An Gui smiled and said, "At that time, I never thought we could meet in Chang'an."

"At that time, no one knew how long he could live. He was so hungry in the middle of the night that he chewed a handful of hay, but he didn't dare to swallow it. He was afraid that like Du Lao San, he would not be able to pull out his shit and swell himself to death." An Zhilu looked at An Gui and asked, "Do you still remember Du Lao San?"

An Gui nodded, "I remember, I just can't remember my appearance very clearly."

An Zhilu said, "Then do you remember the incident when you went to steal bean cakes and were caught and hung up and beaten?"

An Gui's eyes suddenly had tears again. He choked up and couldn't speak, just nodded.

An Zhilu said slowly, "That is a cake made of bean dregs left over from the oil, used to feed livestock, but the bean cake that is half a palm-sized, roasted on fire, fragrant, crispy, and full. When we ate it, we thought it was the best thing in the world. We were afraid that we would be discovered if we were to steal too much, and we couldn't stand it. So we thought of stealing a few pieces. There were evil dogs in the yard of that rich family. I was afraid that you would be bitten, so I went to lead the evil dog away by myself, but I didn't expect that you would be caught after you went in, and then you were stunned and beaten to death."

An Gui looked at An Zhilu and said, "Fortunately, Brother Zhilu stole some medicine, otherwise I would not be able to survive that winter."

An Zhilu laughed.

His smile seemed a little dismal.

"That medicine was not stolen."

"Do you still remember a girl who sells fish? The one who sells fish is almost 300 pounds."

"That girl's man is useless, or maybe any man is likely to be useless after seeing her. I was not so fat at that time and looked pretty good. I went to sleep with her for two nights before I got the money to buy medicine."

"Who could have thought that others would say what happened to women for the first time, but my first time was when I was sleeping with a woman."

...

"Brother Zhilu..." An Gui looked at An Zhilu in disbelief, and he was trembling, "I..."

"Don't you, mine." An Zhilu looked at An Gui and smiled, saying, "I told you this because I know that if we lose each other, you will do it for me even if it is more unbearable."

An Gui was a little speechless, just nodded.

An Zhilu looked at the meal on the table and said calmly, "I just thought later that for those wealthy families, they are just things to feed animals. Those things would rather feed animals than to those who are about to starve to death. That's fine, but those who are about to starve to death do not take too many people. They just secretly take a few pieces to fill their stomachs. Why do they have to hang up and beat people? And knowing that they are so bad that we don't have money to buy medicine at all, so we will definitely kill people. Why do we still have to beat them so hard?"

An Gui couldn't answer the words.

He doesn't know what to say.

An Zhilu smiled self-deprecatingly and said, "Actually, this problem is not difficult at all, because in the eyes of others, we are not even as good as animals."

An Gui didn't know why An Zhilu said this, but he felt very sad. He knew that Miss Pei Er was not such a person, but he knew very well that most powerful people would not be like Miss Pei Er.

"So, no matter how capable I have, even if there is something that others can use, An Gui, you say that the rich people who are arrogant and even hang you up and beat you when I was a child can see them as poor as animals. Will they think we can be on an equal footing with them?" An Zhilu glanced at An Gui, suddenly smiled, and said, "They promised me that small things may be done, but not to mention dividing the world, even if it is given one person or ten thousand people, is it possible?"

An Gui looked at An Zhilu in shock and said, "Brother Zhilu, why do you say this?"

An Zhilu looked at An Gui and smiled, saying, "An Gui, you just asked me if you have something you particularly want. What do you think of in that moment?"

An Gui shook his head.

An Zhilu said, "What I thought of is to kill you."

Looking at An Gui's dazed but not afraid face, An Zhilu continued, "A noble man who helped me up and told me that killing you can get great luck, but there is only one An Gui in the world, you only have one life, and I only have one brother like you."

An Zhilu looked at An Gui and said seriously, "An Gui, let me tell you the truth. I have considered this issue seriously. I even thought about it simply. I thought, if there was a dragon throne in front of me and as long as I killed you, I would really be able to sit on that dragon throne. I asked in my heart how I would choose."

An Gui looked at An Zhilu blankly.

An Zhilu smiled and said, "I have thought about it for a long time, but I will give up that dragon throne."

"Brother Zhilu..." Another tears flowed down An Gui's eyes.

An Zhilu smiled and said, "An Gui, I can't say that the whole world is not as important as your position in my mind, but people like us should know in their hearts that if we cannot take our destiny into our own hands, but accept the arrangements of others and sell our own things to exchange for benefits, they will always be someone else's dog. We hunt a sheep, and it will be too much for people to throw a pair of internal organs to us. Could it be that we will give us all mutton and sheep skin and eat a pair of internal organs?"

"If we always follow other people's arrangements, even if they can really give shocking benefits, no matter what kind of skin a person like us wears, they will still be someone else's dog."

An Zhilu narrowed her eyes slightly and said, "If I really want my only brother's life for the sake of benefit, then I can betray anything and I will never be able to seize my own destiny. An Gui, remember, you are my brother, so I will tell you everything in my heart. You must understand that I don't want your life to give me."

"besides."

After a pause, An Zhilu looked at An Gui's eyes and said, "No matter how high I climb, if there is no one around me who can tell the truth and show off, then what else does Chang'an and the world mean?"

"One day, if I could stand at the highest point of Chang'an and see the scenery of Chang'an, An Gui, we were drinking a pot of wine and eating a bowl of meat together. How happy it would be if we were young? "

"Brother Zhilu."

An Gui burst into tears, "I have no ambitions, and I don't want to have any prospects. I just want you to live a good life and not have anything to do."

An Zhilu laughed again and said, "I will be worth it in my life if I can reach this point, be able to truly see Chang'an, and even the prince personally recruits me. No matter what step I go, every step will be profitable. If I die one day, my name should also appear in the history books. An Gui, you are my brother and sister, and you should also appear in the history books."

An Gui burst into tears and laughed, "Can I still appear in history books? That's really amazing."

An Zhilu smiled and became serious, saying, "If you ask me what I want, what I really want is to take my destiny into my own hands. During these days, I came to Chang'an with the bumps of the carriage. During the bumps, I often had nightmares and trapped in the endless sea and could not escape. Between dreams and awakening, I figured out a truth. The reason why these big men dared to use me is not afraid of my ambitions. After I became older, they would definitely have the means to control me. In the future, those who gave me military power and military troops would not give me food or grass, or they would not give me legitimate reasons, destroy me with stigma, and make the world attack me. And those who gave me cultivation would know my loopholes and use methods to control me."

Speaking of this, An Zhilu's eyes narrowed into a slit. He sneered and said, "I will find a way to eat, money, and stigma, but as a practitioner, my whole cultivation is not controlled by others. An Gui, I have to ask you for this matter. When you wrote to me before, you specifically mentioned that Gu Daoshou gave the Four Seasons of the Left-Daoist monks to those side and left-minded monks. You also mentioned that Miss Pei Er wanted to guide you to practice and could give you many powerful methods to practice. When you mentioned these to me, what you thought about was to help me in this regard."

An Gui was immediately happy and said, "Brother Zhilu, you really understand me. You always asked me to help you find some records of practice methods. I know you lack these the most. This time I came to meet you, and it was mainly to ask you which method you want. Miss Pei Er and Gu Daoshou have many powerful methods. If you don't have any advice, I have already recited a few of them. But those were shown to me by Miss Pei Er and asked me to choose. Brother Zhilu, you can only practice by yourself and must not be spread to others, otherwise I would be sorry to Miss Pei Er."

"You'll be worthy of her?" An Zhilu knocked on his forehead and said, "Don't do such things in the future. If I practice the pieces you memorized, one day if I use them or are discovered to practice these methods, even if Miss Pei Er thinks it's nothing, you may not be reliable in the eyes of others."

An Gui was immediately embarrassed, "Then this?"

An Zhilu said, "You just tell her openly, saying that you want to ask for a method for me. If she is willing to give it, you should thank her well for me. I will remember her kindness. If she is unwilling to give it, don't make any decisions on her. We will have a long life to come. With the care of her and Gu Daoshou, we have some places to find the method we want."

An Gui smiled embarrassedly and said, "Okay, I will do what Brother Zhilu said."

An Zhilu pondered for a moment and said, "I have not laid the foundation for my practice. I know that there was a Sui Palace in the Sui Dynasty that could help me. If Miss Pei Er was willing to help me, please ask if there was any such book."

An Gui said: "Okay, I remember."

An Zhilu said again, "You should have a good relationship with He Haixin?"

An Gui smiled and said, "Yes, we are all together in food and accommodation."

An Zhilu said, "You can find a way to ask them to check what methods did the Yang family of the Great Sui Dynasty practice at that time? What methods did they use to control the imperial guards and generals? It is best not to let them know that I asked you to investigate."
Chapter completed!