Qi Ranran: "No matter how eloquent you are, you can't change your dehumanizing behavior! Since you mentioned fairness, let me ask you, you have unscrupulously harmed the lives of so many people, and they have no grievances or grudges against you.

, is your approach fair to them? The so-called fairness in your mouth is just for self-interest. If it is beneficial to you, you will slowly pursue it. If it is not beneficial to you, you will abandon it like worn out shoes. Si Baiyu, you are selfish in your bones.

Thin."

Si Baiyu looked at her with a lifeless face. After a long time, he opened his lips and asked, "You look at me like this?"

The window is open, and the moist wind from the sea blows. It is silent and the wind passes without a trace.

Si Baiyu poured himself a glass of wine. He held the glass and said leisurely: "Didn't you ever ask about my family?"

Qi Ranran was newly alert and wondered why he would mention this.

In the past, it was impossible for him to tell her when she asked, but now he took the initiative to bring it up.

The night was as cold as water, but what was even colder was his voice.

She heard him say: "I don't know who my biological father is. I only have some impressions of my mother. What impressed me most was the back figure she left me. That happened a long, long time ago. That year

, she put me at the entrance of the orphanage, and then left."

"I remember, it was winter, it was snowing in the sky, and there were snowmen piled on the roadside. She put a candy in my hand, and she said, don't leave me, she will be back soon. So, I waited

Waiting, waiting, waiting, until it got dark, she still didn't come. Later, I was taken in by an orphanage, but she never showed up."

"So, when I was five years old, I understood one thing. Adults always teach children to be honest and not to lie, but in fact, adults are the ones who lie best."

He paused slightly, and then said in confusion, "For a long time after that, I was confused, why didn't she want me? Why didn't she even tell the truth when she left? For a long time in the orphanage,

, I always think of that day, and I can’t help but wonder, adults, are they all like this? Are they all lies? Later, I met my adoptive parents."

Mentioning his adoptive parents, a strange smile appeared on his face. He laughed softly and said: "They are very accomplished people. At first, they were very good to me, until I saw their

child……"

His voice was slightly astringent, and it seemed that no matter how long it took him to mention that past, it was the most obscure pain hidden in his body.

"It turns out that when they adopted me, they just wanted to save their child. Do you know the desperate feeling of lying on the operating table? Even though you are under anesthesia, you still can't ignore the coldness of the scalpel. The top of your head is burning white.

The lamp, the cold operating bed under me, I lay there unable to resist, I could only let others slaughter me. That feeling, when I close my eyes, it is all darkness, I will never forget it. Not just once... but many, many times...

…”

"They will always look like elites in the eyes of outsiders. They speak elegantly, behave dignifiedly, and always stand in a place where they are admired. They themselves are moral and beautiful, and no one will believe that they have an indifferent side."

"I once thought about whether being obedient could bring about their kindness to me for a moment. I tried to convince myself to accept and understand, but I changed... But their child did not survive in the end, and... I thought

He was kicked out of that home for stealing."

It's like treating a piece of useless garbage without any hesitation.

Si Baiyu raised his head and drank the wine in one gulp, then filled himself another glass of wine. Staring at the water in the glass, he spoke again: "Ranran, do you think this is all my fault? Should I bear all this?"

I still don’t understand all this. It’s me who is obviously hurt, it’s me who is deceived, why do I have to be thrown away like garbage in the end, why? Ranran, tell me, why? What did I do wrong?

Why do I have to be abandoned over and over again, why? Why do I have to bear such a life?"

"Being a human being should be honest, kind, moral, and virtuous. They clearly teach you this, but why can't they do it?"

Si Baiyu smiled hoarsely and exhaled softly. He caressed his face and said faintly, "Later, I understood that kindness needs to be taught, but evil can have no reason."

"It's been so long that I had forgotten about it, but my fate was too ridiculous. My so-called adoptive father and I met again in the ward. At that time, my adoptive mother thanked me together with him. Yes, you didn't listen.

Yes, he thanked me because I was about to save his life. But it was also very ironic, right? He couldn't recognize me, and he didn't feel any guilt about it."

"When I opened his chest with a scalpel, I saw his beating heart. It turned out that his heart was red. But...a person who wantonly hurts other people, a person who has no guilt at all, a

What qualifications does a hypocritical and selfish person have to pray for a peaceful and peaceful life?"

After that, that person's life will always stay on the operating table.

Qi Ranran's vision became complicated, "You..."

From her eyes, Si Baiyu understood her thoughts and did not deny it.

Si Baiyu tugged at the corners of his lips and said: "I have understood a truth since then. Goodness can only be torn down and trampled on, but evil can run freely. Fate has always been unfair. Only the strong can define everything.

If goodness cannot make the world purely beautiful, then I don’t mind interpreting it in another way.”

If he achieves value because he is needed, then he will never be inferior to others.

His life no longer needs to be controlled by others.

"Even the late Imperial Master is..."

Qi Ranran: "..."

"Do you think he is really a good person?" Si Baiyu had a smile on his face, but only indifference remained in his heart, "After arriving in Beiyu unexpectedly, he was the first person to discover my identity. He was wary and curious about me.

, but he was full of curiosity about the future and wanted to go to the past, so he claimed to accept me as his disciple, his personal disciple, but in fact it was just to imprison me and to find a way to get to our world.

"

"At first, I let him try. I thought that if he could really find a way to go back to the past, I could leave here. However, he was very useless, and he died because of it in the end..."

After an unknown amount of time, Qi Ranran finally looked at him head-on: "So? Why are you saying this?"

She asked: "You tell me your experience... do you want me to sympathize with you?"

"No," he met her gaze and smiled, "I want you to come to my world."

Qi Ranran smiled suddenly, and then her smile grew more and more.

There was a rare confusion in Si Baiyu's eyes, and he didn't understand her smile.

Qi Ranran laughed so hard that tears flashed out. She didn't know whether she was feeling happy or sad at this moment. When she raised her hand to wipe the corners of her eyes, her eyes were black and white: "I admit that the darkness you have experienced is indeed an injustice of fate. They treated you harshly.

It's their fault, but what about you? Just because what you encountered is darkness, you want to darken everyone's world? Are the people who were hurt by you, unwilling to accept it, and whose lives you wantonly took away, they will

Not innocent?"

Si Baiyu's eyebrows moved and he asked: "You are very kind to other people. Even Yu Wenjing, you are willing to forgive and considerate. You are even willing to raise their children, why do you treat me harshly? Can you forgive others?

Can’t you understand me?”

"What do you want me to understand about you?" Qi Ranran looked directly at him as if he had heard something ridiculous and asked again and again, "What do you want me to understand? Understand your numbness? Understand your cold-bloodedness? Or do you regard human life as such?

Damn it? Have you ever thought about how many people have lost their lives because of you? Do they have no family? Are they all bad people? All do evil? You want me to understand you? What do you want me to understand you? Do you understand?

In your past, do you understand that you can destructively retaliate against everyone because of the hurt you have suffered? And then you become as numb and sneering as you?"

Si Baiyu: "People will always die. Looking at the long history, which dynasties and generations have not experienced wars? Every war has shed blood for thousands of miles. In the years of chaos, people changed their sons and ate their food. Human ethics and morality are just rules that can be overstepped.

The bottom line of temptation. Compared with this, what does what I have done count?”

Qi Ranran shouted: "It's nonsense! Everything you said is nonsense!"

Si Baiyu looked at her sharpness, and slowly touched the corners of her lips. His hand fell on his forehead, and his smile dropped. He sighed: "As expected..."

Sure enough, it still can't be understood.

He looked at her steadily and said persistently: "Ranran, I have never hurt you."

Qi Ranran said decisively: "You just didn't hurt me."

He is constantly hurting the people around me.

"..."

"It was you who incited Yu Wenjing to rebel! Obviously they lived a good life and they all had children, but it was because of you! It was because of you! Yu Wenjing died, Yingxiu died too! They all died! Only Jiarou is left

... She lost her parents when she was so young!"

"You used Feng Qianshang! You used Jiang Li to drive a wedge between me and Yuwenchen! Even Yanyan got into trouble because of you! In order to frame Yuwenchen, how many innocent lives did you hurt? The people of Beiyu... they

What did you do wrong? They have always admired you and feared you. But you let them all die..."

Si Baiyu obviously disagreed with her words: "I didn't kill Yu Wenjing."

Qi Ranran: "..."

Si Baiyu: "I just told him what he should have known. He was a pawn to be used. I didn't kill Su Yingxiu. I have no interest in taking her life.

She is too weak. Should she blame me for her willingness to die for Yu Wenjing? As for the so-called people of Beiyu, I don't know them and never care about them. Whether they admire or hate me, they have never had anything to do with me.

Any relationship."

Qi Ranran was stunned for a while after listening to his words, and then sneered in her heart: "After all, this is you!"

Si Baiyu frowned at the tone of her voice, looked at her, and said persistently: "They are not important."

He stood up, persistent and indifferent: "What does their life and death have to do with me? Just like my life and death has nothing to do with them. Their so-called respect is just selfishness. They try to gain peace of mind through faith, but in fact, they live in

There is no difference between ants in this world, and even less difference from grasshoppers. Only the strong live in this world. Survival of the fittest, is this a principle that both you and I are familiar with?"

He took another step closer: "I know that you are full of hostility towards me now, and I also know that you have always had a place for Yu Wenchen in your heart, but so what?"

"The most important bond between people is memory, and all of this no longer exists. So what if you miss him again now? He doesn't remember you, and not even every bit of you.

Remember, to him, you are just a stranger who has become a wife. He is only good to you out of the responsibility of being a husband. How much real affection does he have for you now? If so, he will not

Hesitate when faced with a choice. If it were me, there would be no need to hesitate. I would only choose you first."

What does the life and death of others have to do with him!
To be continued...