I have been in the rental house in recent days and have not gone out. I went to the farthest place, which is the takeaway storage place downstairs. No, I was wrong, it was a garbage dump two hundred meters away from the takeaway storage place.

To be honest, I enjoy this kind of life. It is much more comfortable than staying at home before. It is not that I don’t like staying at home, but I just don’t like staying at home.

Take three meals a day for example. When I am outside the country, I can sleep until I wake up naturally and order a takeaway. It’s not possible at home. I have to get up in the morning every day and eat three meals on time every day! When you fall asleep, you have to shout you up and finish eating before going to bed!

It’s not that that is bad, that kind of regular life happens to be something I have to learn. But I personally think that it’s the most important thing to live happily in life. What if my health is good? If I’m not happy, it’s unhappy.

Maybe I don’t like being regulated, I’m too unfree. But that’s all for my own good, so I endured it.

In fact, when I was at home, I discovered a problem with myself.

I don’t know if anyone is like me, who comes to my family with relatives and friends of the opposite sex at home and sits together for dinner or chatting. They will become nervous, uncomfortable, and even have the feeling of a rapid heartbeat and want to escape quickly.

What is certain is that I will never be nervous because I like or eat other people's faces. Just simply having the opposite sex next to me will react like that.

I checked it online, but I vaguely remember it was a phobia.

Then why did I talk about this topic today? It is because I walked out of the community today. Why did I walk out of the community? It is because of Kaven.

I can't write anymore because I can't calm down. So I plan to look at the outside world and breathe in fresh air.

When I went out, I knew that my problem had happened again.

I am very afraid of others looking at me and I am also afraid of watching others. Even when I walk, my feet are shaking and I can't control them.

No one wants to be like this, but I just become like this without knowing it.

Just... it's very annoying.

Another topic is more about the topic. This month, I plan to completely complete the current novelty article because the new novelty article is about to be released.

I was also crazy by the new Xiaobaiwen because I am a newbie. Then I tried to try a new type for death, which was very...

How to say, the second book should be slightly stronger than the first one. Although it is a type I am not good at (I don’t have a type I am good at, / face covering / embarrassing /), I will do my best to finish it.

Well, I want to write two books together after finishing my current novels. I have thought about the title, characters, and events, but I still have to think about the outline. (I can't write one well, so I want to write two books? I'm afraid it's not a problem with my brain!)

To put it weakly, I want to become a professional. Nowadays, I just want to practice. Anyway, I can make a little progress every day.

I liked a passage recently, and I saw it on a certain voice: "When the cold winter leaves, the snow melts and grass is green, I believe that a new meeting will continue the warmth."

How to say it, if I could write this way, I would have succeeded at least half of it.

The cold winter leaves, the snow melts the grass. Tsk, the charm of words is nothing more than this.

I'm going to get back to the topic, the reason why I want to become a profession... First, I really like it; second, it's great if I don't have to go out to deal with people.

Suddenly, the words are exhausted, so be good night and dream!

2020.06.13. Qing (I’m so hot that I’m so hot) I’m listening to "The Song of Beauty", "Hundred Birds Paying to the Phoenix", or "Two Springs Reflecting the Moon".

My sister said that the songs I listened to were very old / covered my face /

(When I get old, when I look at these words, I will definitely want to find a gap to get into it. Just like I read the novel chapters I wrote before, I can't believe that I will write such words, it's very / embarrassing /)

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Also, the reason why I am not in the smaller theater in Suiji is that I want all my brains to have a beginning and an end. In other words, I don’t want to write about this theater that has a beginning and a end, a end and no end anymore.
Chapter completed!