As the saying goes, the past is too painful to look back on. It has been three years since Ji Lan passed away, and I have been with him for four years. The things I just recalled were already eight years ago!

Eight years! I was only nineteen when I met him, and now I am twenty-seven.

If Ji Lan hadn't had an accident three years ago when she was still in her prime, and our wedding would have been held as scheduled, our children would have been able to call us mom and dad by now.

Thinking of this, my tears couldn't stop flowing down. Although I have been suppressing my missing him and accepting Sun Wen, my missing is like a flood that has opened in my mind.

It started to gallop and couldn't stop anymore.

Why do I think of him at this moment? Is it because of the two hazy calls I heard during the day?

I hate myself a little. When he passed away suddenly, I locked myself in the room for three days and three nights with my arms around the wedding dress he customized for me. I didn't eat or drink, didn't see anyone, and almost shed all my tears, even for him.

I didn't go to his funeral because I was afraid that I would lose control and reason when he was buried.

Finally, it was Sun Wenquan who opened my door. He told me that Ji Lan still had unfinished experiments, which were just a little bit away. As his fiancée and good brothers, we should work together to help sort out the information he left behind.

Fulfill his last wish.

This became the credo that kept me going for the next two years.

In those two years, I suffered from severe depression and auditory hallucinations. I could always hear Ji Lan talking to me in dark corners and calling my name. I knew I was sick, but I didn’t tell anyone.

I just quietly went to see a psychiatrist.

The doctor didn't say anything, he just told me, "take it easy." and gave me a medicine to calm my nerves and relieve my depression.

I didn't even take medicine, because I actually enjoyed this kind of conversation with Ji Lan, even if it was just imaginary.

I'm afraid that as soon as I cooperate with the treatment, Ji Lan will completely disappear from my life.

I don't want that!

Because I am a foreigner, after graduation and getting engaged, I lived with Ji Lan. Many of his things were in our new home. I couldn’t understand their information, so I often brought Sun Wen back and let him do it by himself.

tidy.

Over time, Sun Wen discovered my little secret.

Finally one time, when he discovered that I had thrown the full bottle of medicine that the psychiatrist had just prescribed for me into the trash can, he spoke to me seriously, "Liangpei, you are not doing this right."

I looked at his face, feeling a little dazed.

He walked up to me and hugged me tenderly, "Ji Lan has been away for two years. You should have your own life. You should not be so obsessed with the past and missing him. It will destroy you."

Own."

I lay on his chest and cried hard, "He has not left, he has never left, he exists in every space of my life, talks to me every day, cares about me, encourages me..."

"Wake up! How is it possible! He is dead! Dead! Do you understand? He is just a handful of ashes buried in the cemetery! He will never say another word to you!" Sun Wen shook my shoulders and said sternly

He said, "You have to take medicine! These medicines are to help you get out of the shadows and welcome a new life. If you obey, I will accompany you to come out, okay?"
Chapter completed!