I failed. I failed completely. I lost Qinqin. I know that Qinqin hated me to death, not because of the moment I kissed Li Qianru, but because of my silence. Sometimes not speaking means more than what I express by speaking.

I also need to understand that my momentary hesitation allowed Qinqin to see my heart. Maybe I didn’t love her that much at all, maybe I did love her very much. I don’t know. I was like an idiot, wanting everything.

But I don’t know what I want!

Forget it! Maybe I should give Qinqin some time, and I should also give myself some time. If we are destined to be together, then I will not lose her. If she is destined not to belong to me, then it is useless for me to force it. Sometimes

You have to be open-minded, life must go on and life must go on.

What bothers me now is not Qinqin, but Li Qianru. Li Qianru acted so calmly that I couldn’t figure it out. She must have seen what I did to Qinqin, but why didn’t she react at all? Could it be that she didn’t react at all?

Don't care?

I took three days off. In fact, I no longer had the same enthusiasm in medical school as I did at the beginning. This training class did not have what I wanted at all. I have already begun to want to go back to school. If it were not for Qinqin, I would probably have done it earlier.

I'm back. Now that the Qinqin incident has occurred, I want to slow down and give everyone some time to digest.

I started to lose interest in medical school. I needed warmth now, and I would go wherever there was warmth. So I looked for Brother Heizi, the boss, the second, and the fourth. Every day I called them out to accompany me, and we drank together.

During the spanking, we talked about everything except women.

I thought about the time when the eldest, second and fourth brother and I went to ambush the thin dog. At that time, it was for the sake of the fourth child’s woman. The fourth child lost his woman, so we went to ambush the thin dog. Now it’s my turn, and I also

I have lost my woman, but who can I ambush? I can ambush myself...

We were so drunk that we walked crookedly on the street. We stood in a row, each holding a tree, competing to see who could vomit more. We were looked down upon by others, but we laughed and were so happy. Such days

Suddenly I fell in love. I didn't think about anything, no worries, no sex, just brothers.

But dreams always wake up one day. On the third day, when we were drinking and had not finished drinking, Zhang Min came with Cuicui, and then Brother Heizi and Laosi were held by the ears of two women in a very unloyal manner.

Taken away.

When Zhang Min left, he looked down upon me and said, "If you don't get Qinqin back to me, you'll be nothing."

I smiled and said: "I am not a thing in the first place. I am tangerine peel, which is a kind of tree bark. It has a smell."

Cuicui said to me very distressedly: "Third brother, it's not that I don't want the fourth child to accompany you. The fourth child has a bad stomach and can't drink too much. How about I drink with you."

I only said one thing: "Disappear quickly and take your toys with you." When I said this, I pointed at the fourth child.

Then the fourth child followed: "Cui Cui, let's go. He has no toys to play with. I'm afraid he will steal mine."

After they left, the eldest and second eldest brother said kindly: "We don't have any toys, let's play together."

At this time, outside the room where we were drinking, a voice suddenly cursed: "Who is it? How can you throw soap around? If you step on it, it will be serious!"

"Let's break up." I laughed.

"San'er, can you do it?" the boss said, supporting me as I was shaking.

"Okay, I'm fine." I waved my hand.

At this time, my cell phone suddenly rang.

I took out my cell phone to answer the call, and there was a crying voice on the phone: "Brother, grandpa is gone, where are you?"

I was so frightened that most of my wine woke up, and I heard the sound of leaves.

"Ye Zi, where are you?" I asked hurriedly.

"In the hospital." Ye Zi cried.

"I'll be there right away!" I shouted, and then hurriedly ran outside.

"San'er!" The eldest and second eldest brother called me from behind.

"I have to leave first!" I didn't look back.

I rushed outside and saw a taxi parked on the side of the road. A man was opening the door. I ran over quickly.

"Brother, I'm in a hurry!" I wanted to grab the taxi, so I got into the car.

"Hey, what's wrong with you?" The man was obviously unwilling.

"Brother, I'm rushing to the hospital!" I explained.

"I don't care where you go!" The man ignored what I was saying and pushed me as he spoke.

I punched the man in the face directly. The man staggered, and I took the opportunity to get into the car: "Master, cancer hospital!"

The taxi flew away in a cloud of dust. I turned around and saw the man I had punched. He was covering his face and pointing at the butt of the car while jumping around and cursing. I didn’t feel guilty at all. Such a person should be beaten. I raised my hand.

He looked at his hand, then with a sudden force, he clenched his fist tightly.

I rushed to the cancer hospital and ran directly towards Grandpa Yezi's ward. When I rushed into the ward, I saw Grandpa Yezi lying on the bed, and Ye Zi stood aside sobbing and wiping tears.

Grandpa Ye's face looked very bad, and he had a tube inserted into his nose. I could tell at a glance that the old man's condition was getting worse. When I came here last time, he had not been intubated.

"Ye Zi." I shouted softly.

"Brother!" Ye Zi saw it was me and immediately threw herself into my arms.

"It's okay, Ye Zi, what's wrong with grandpa?" I asked.

"Grandpa, grandpa, I was scared to death just now. I thought...Brother! I'm so scared." Ye Zi hugged me, his body was shaking all the time, looking very pitiful.

"Yi Zi, grandpa is fine, don't worry too much." I sighed secretly.

"The doctor said, the doctor said..." Ye Zi raised her head and glanced at her grandfather, and then started crying again: "Brother! Will grandpa die? I won't let grandpa die..." Ye Zi squatted down and grabbed her grandfather's withered hand.

: "Grandpa, I want to stay with you all the time. You said you wanted to go to Beijing to **, but I haven't gone with you yet."

My eyes were moist. Ye Zi's grandfather was still in a coma. The old man's dry, dark and thin face looked very peaceful. Ye Zi held his grandfather's hand and kept talking.

In the face of life and death, everything seems insignificant! My emotional changes originally seemed very sad to me, and I was very sad! But now I don't feel this way.

Sometimes people need to compare. Although I don't want to compare with Zi Zi, the fact is here. I should feel happy. Compared with Zi Zi, maybe my life is the day she dreams of. She doesn't want her grandfather to die, because she is here

There is only grandpa in this world. As long as grandpa is still alive, even if he is lying in bed, it is still a family. If grandpa dies, then the family is gone!

Poor Ye Zi still doesn't know that she doesn't have much time. Thinking of this makes my heart feel like needles pricking me. Why does God torture people so much sometimes without giving even a glimmer of hope?

Looking at Ye Zi's crying back, I felt really uncomfortable. I walked outside the ward and leaned against the wall weakly. What could I do?

I found Grandpa Yezi’s attending doctor, and he told me that Grandpa Yezi’s cancer cells had spread very much, and his coma was getting longer and longer. He estimated that it would only last two days.

I told Sister Zhao about Grandpa Ye Zi’s condition, and I decided to accompany Ye Zi in the hospital to stay with her grandfather. Sister Zhao gave me a sum of money, and I moved Grandpa Ye Zi to a single ward. The conditions of the ward were very good.

Furniture and appliances are all available. Although it is simple, it feels like a home. Conveniently, there is a simple kitchen in the ward where you can cook.

Zi Zi went to a nearby market to buy small fish and shrimps, and then got busy in the kitchen. Zi Zi cooked a pot of porridge, and carefully packed the small fish and shrimps he bought. The fish and shrimps were really small, and Ye Zi was one by one

Pick them up one by one, clean them carefully, and take the trouble.

Ye Zi told me that when she was sick when she was a child, her grandfather would buy some small fish and shrimps to cook her porridge. Every time she drank the fish and shrimp porridge cooked by her grandfather, her illness would be cured.

Zi Zi cried while cooking porridge. Zi Zi shed tears silently, and a few tears dripped into the pot. Zi Zi must have known that her grandfather was dying. She just didn’t want to believe it. She did what she thought she should do mechanically.

This scene makes me feel very uncomfortable, but I don’t know how to persuade Ye Zi. The relationship between Ye Zi and grandpa is not something that an outsider like me can imagine.

When grandpa woke up, Ye Zi supported him and fed him porridge in small bites. Ye Zi would test the temperature of the porridge with each mouthful. There was always a smile on Ye Zi's face, and he whispered something while feeding grandpa the porridge.

, I didn’t go over, I hid in the kitchen, I felt that this last warm time belonged to Ye Zi and her grandfather.

Two days later, Ye Zi's grandfather fell into coma again. I held Ye Zi and stood in front of the window outside the ward, watching the doctors and nurses busy. This time Ye Zi did not cry, but just pressed his face against the glass of the window and looked inside quietly.

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"Brother, do you know? Grandpa still has a wish, and I want to help him fulfill it." Ye Zi said softly.

Ye Zi's grandfather was rescued again.

I finally agreed to Ye Zi and helped her fulfill grandpa's wish.

I found a wheelchair and pushed Grandpa toward the hill behind the hospital in the dusk with Ye Zi.

Grandpa was covered with a blanket and felt much better. He was able to joke with Ye Zi. I knew this was a return to the past.

The hill behind the hospital is not high, but the road up there is very average and uneven in some places, making it difficult for wheelchairs to walk. Ye Zi and I tried our best and were exhausted and sweating profusely. Finally, when it was dark,

, pushed grandpa up the mountain.

On the mountain, we can overlook the river from a distance. The vegetation on the mountain is very lush, and we can smell the grass in our noses. The grass where the wheelchair is parked is covered with little flowers. Grandpa Ye Zi took a deep breath,

He smiled and said: "I have been collecting medicine all my life. The most comfortable thing is to have the stars on your head and the soil on your feet."

Grandpa Ye Zi’s wish is to see the stars again. Ye Zi said that their home is in the mountains, and they can see the sky full of stars every night. They hang on the roof, as if they can be picked with just one hand. Grandpa likes to watch them while smoking his cigarette pipe.

Stars, when Ye Zi was a child, she would nestle in her grandfather's arms, and her grandfather would point to the stars in the sky and tell her the story of the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl, as well as the story of the Seven Fairies.
Chapter completed!