He spent 500 yuan to buy a decent suit, put it on, and stood there stiffly, feeling much more confident.【26nbsp;】

After a long separation, both parties felt a little strange, so they both looked at each other in surprise. Li Jinxuan exclaimed first: "Wow, I really can't recognize you."

Song Yunxia also said with emotion: "Time is not forgiving."

Li Jinxuan took her into a nearby restaurant. After sitting down, they both looked at each other strangely without speaking. Their eyes involuntarily collided with each other, and they communicated deeply before smiling meaningfully and stepping aside.

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This short look at each other seemed to have suddenly connected the feelings they had had for seven or eight years. Li Jinxuan felt a long-lost warmth, and that kind of sad love, reviving and brewing in his heart.

It can be seen that Song Yunxia also specially dressed up tonight. Her bangs were permed as high as before, her eyebrows were lightly painted, and she put on lipstick. She was wearing a simple and elegant beige Jinxuan shirt, and her temperament was still as noble and elegant.

The face is also dignified and beautiful.

She is just a little more mature than before, with faint bags under her eyes and a slightly sagging skin. But overall, she is still so mature and beautiful, and her charm is still there.

Li Jinxuan asked her to order food and wine. After the process was completed, Song Yunxia asked: "How have you been over the years?"

Li Jinxuan did not rush to answer. He raised his glass and stood up. He said passionately: "The fact that we can meet again in the vast sea of ​​​​people on Shanghai Beach shows that we are really destined. Come, let's drink to our destiny."

Song Yunxia also stood up, clinked glasses with him excitedly, and took a sip: "Thank you, she seemed a little embarrassed. I didn't expect to see you again. I really didn't expect it."

After sitting down, Li Jinxuan ate a chopstick and then confided to her: "In recent years, I have not been doing well on the beach in Shanghai, so I have never been married. Until recently, I was engaged in home decoration in Fengxian.

I have made a name for myself. The situation is about to get better, so I thought about looking for a dating agency. Unexpectedly, I met you when I looked for you. Alas, a person's life is given by his parents, but his destiny is determined by the environment.

Really, sometimes, you just can’t control it yourself.”

Song Yunxia listened quietly.

Facing the lover he once loved so deeply, Li Jinxuan's self-feeling was different, and his words became more profound: "After I broke up with you, I didn't look for a job anymore. Instead, I went to sea and went out on my own to make a living. Unexpectedly, I suffered a lot."

, I almost drowned in the sea water.”

"Really?" Song Yunxia said softly, "It's really not easy for you."

"Why? Is it my low ability? Or my poor level?" Li Jinxuan said frankly, "I don't even admit it to myself, but the truth is so cruel."

So, like telling a story, he told her his experiences over the years endlessly.

Song Yunxia forgot to eat her food after hearing this, and her face kept changing with what he said. After listening, she sighed deeply: "Oh my god, are these all true?"

Li Jinxuan said: "Of course it's all true."

Song Yunxia shook her head and tutted, "If you hadn't said it yourself, I wouldn't have believed some of the content."

As he spoke, he gently picked up a piece of food for him and said, "Compared to you, my situation is much better. Really, I later met a college student who worked in a bank through someone else's introduction. He was from Wujiang and graduated from Jiaotong University.

He lives in Shanghai and is two years older than me. His family is not well off.

Wrong, his parents helped him buy a house in Shanghai. We got married during the Spring Festival of the next year. After the marriage, we gave birth to a son. It should be said that the small family life is still happy. After I gave birth to the child, I

Change career and be transferred to work in the human resources department of a district."

"Have you changed your career?" Li Jinxuan felt that she was a little cautious in her words and deeds, so he looked at her again and gave her a chopstick.

Over the years, he has always been secretly paying attention to their newspapers. Whenever he had a chance to see it, he would look for her name. At first, he kept finding her name in the economic section, but then he couldn't find her name anymore.

It turned out that she had changed her career.

"It has been changed for several years." Song Yunxia said.

Li Jinxuan asked again: "Then why are you divorced too?"

Song Yunxia poked the bowl with her chopsticks and said: "At first, we had no conflicts, but later on, I gradually found that he was satisfied with the status quo and did not want to make progress. He was just a clerk all the time, and he was very happy. Later.

, he went to get credit, but he became less and less like

Talking about it. He wanders around all day long, sometimes even during working hours, playing cards and gambling with others outside, and sometimes hiding at home to sleep. Can you tell a grown man that he is so corrupt and doesn't make people angry? Tell him,

He spoke harshly and said that the money he got was not less than mine."

Li Jinxuan listened very attentively: "Actually, this makes me even more uneasy. If he makes loans for others and is greedy, he can indeed make money, but this is against the law.

Alas, the most unbearable thing is that since June last year, he has often come back very late at night, always saying that it is his customers who invite him to dinner. How can there be so many customers inviting him to dinner? I feel that he must be having fun outside. He

He also hid his income secretly. When I found out, I had a quarrel with him. The quarrel was so severe that I filed for divorce, but to my surprise, he readily agreed."

"Is he someone outside?" Li Jinxuan stared at her and asked.

Song Yunxia said: "We divorced by agreement at the end of last year. A three-year-old child belonged to me, and he contributed money. I used the money I received as a down payment, and got a mortgage loan to buy a condominium.

I have to pay 2,000 yuan a month and have a child, so the pressure is not light.

So in the first half of this year, with the encouragement of several sisters, I registered at a dating agency and met some people. There was a small section chief from the tax department who was okay, and we have met several times."

Li Jinxuan's heart sank: "No wonder you don't want to look at people anymore."

Song Yunxia said: "Dating agencies are too annoying, some are too bad, and it's just a waste of time, so I really don't want to meet them."

Li Jinxuan lowered his head and thought for a while, then looked up at her and said, "I don't seem to be so lucky.

Song Yunxia looked at him with bright eyes: "What should I say?"

Li Jinxuan said: "You are so good, and you already have someone you like."

Song Yunxia said: "The final decision has not been made yet. We have all been here before. We met today and we are connected again, right? As for that matter, let's think about it."

"I'm not worthy of you." Li Jinxuan avoided her eyes and said, "Really, I lied to you before?"

"You lied to me?" Song Yunxia was a little confused.

"Let me be honest with you." Li Jinxuan said with some embarrassment, "At that time, I was too naive. After I fell in love with you, I wanted to lie to you. In fact, at that time, I had not officially divorced.

My age is also said to be seven years younger."

"Ah?" Song Yunxia was stunned, "You, how could you do this? Fortunately, I didn't fall for you." Her face darkened, she closed her eyelids, feeling a little angry.

Li Jinxuan said nervously: "But I, it's really because..."

"You are so bad." She suddenly raised her eyelids and gave him a charming look, "At that time, I was also fascinated by you as a bad guy. For a while, I found that you were so timid that you didn't even use your hands.

Are you willing to touch me? Do you think you are not interested in me? Later, I asked a good colleague of mine. When she heard this, she scolded me to death and said, are you out of your mind? You are talking to a foreigner who comes to study.

Will there be any results from talking about it? I was hesitant. She kept it secret from me and called my home. When my parents heard about it, they were so angry that they couldn’t eat and they called me in turn. After a week, I

My mother, who is a doctor, even chased me from Changsha to Shanghai and did my ideological work diligently, as if I had committed some crime."

"So that's it?" Li Jinxuan was also surprised, "Do you know how painful it was for me at that time? I couldn't describe the feeling, it seemed like a dying feeling. Alas, marriage is really not just a matter of two people.

It's a matter between two families. So it seems unlikely between us."

"However, it's different now." Song Yunxia moved her gaze to his face again, "We are all people who have been married before and belong to the same kind of people. As for age, it doesn't matter anymore. To be honest, I

Now I want to find someone with some strength, but my financial pressure is too great."

"Alas." Li Jinxuan sighed and said, "But I have just started."

Song Yunxia asked as if she suddenly remembered: "Hey, are you still writing?"

Li Jinxuan said: "How can I still think about writing? I failed miserably and was in a difficult situation. I was always in a bad mood and a little impetuous. I couldn't write at all. But these years, whenever I have time, I read books and think about problems.

I have never forgotten it. As long as the situation improves, I believe I will pick up writing again. Writing now is definitely better than before, at least the accumulation of life is much richer."

Song Yunxia said: "Don't your experience and identity have any effect on your going to sea?"

Li Jinxuan said: "Not only is it useless, it is also harmful."

Song Yunxia asked in confusion: "Why?"

Li Jinxuan said: "This kind of consciousness and identity is like a piece of clothing. On the shore, it is beautiful and useful, but once it reaches the sea, it gets wet, sticks tightly to the body, and becomes a shackle. Although I usually

If you never say this identity, you will be drowned by the sea water, and I won’t say it either, but you still can’t get rid of its invisible influence. It makes you always incompatible with the sea water, and you can’t fight the sea water, so you almost drowned by the sea water...”

They kept talking about the arrival of the hotel waiter, then exchanged business cards and reluctantly parted ways.

After the two met again, the unforgettable love for her that was buried in Li Jinxuan's heart quietly returned. But he felt that he was far away from her and was not worthy of her, so he tried his best to restrain himself with reason to avoid falling into the abyss of pain again.

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Chapter completed!