"When I really knew the fact that I was pregnant, it was almost five months old. At this time, the children had a heartbeat. There were great risks in having an abortion, and I couldn't bear to kill my child like this. In this way, I made another decision to be a single mother."

"But I think about raising children too easily. Not only breastfeeding, feeding water, and urinating, is enough. Moreover, my child does not have a household registration. He has to ask for people to get vaccinated. In addition, he has to work, so I have to earn money to support both of us."

"So I can only hire others to take care of her. Even if I am in the capital, I can only see my daughter at night when I go home every day. If I go on a business trip, it is difficult to meet one month. But in just a few months, I found that it was not a problem. So due to the difficulties of reality, I had no choice but to confess everything to my parents and beg them to take in my poor daughter."

"Of course, my father scolded me in anger and claimed that he would cut off his relationship with me. He was very angry and asked me to bear the consequences myself. Fortunately, blood ties are nothing else after all, and they broke the bones and tendons. Later, with my mother's advice, my father felt embarrassed, but out of pity for the child, he agreed to send the child back to his hometown. At this time, my daughter could not see any problems. Maybe she didn't have this disease at first."

"As for me, I was already quite famous at that time, and I began to believe that I was very talented. God knows how many people praised me for being beautiful. What I thought was to be successful and fame. When I earned enough money, I quit the entertainment industry and live a good life with my daughter. So from this time, as my career quickly broke through, I saw my children less and less. I might be able to go back to my hometown once a month. Later, I was found to be entangled and extorted by Sha Haoyang, so I didn't dare to go back, for fear that he would know about the children. I was even quite glad that it would be safer to send the children to their parents."

"Later, it turned out that I made a big mistake. The child was three years old and could go to kindergarten. But the kindergarten entrance test found that she had major obstacles in interpersonal communication. Because except for my parents, she did not respond to anyone, just like living in another world. It was useless for me to rush over. I found that she was just a blank piece of paper, expressionless, and even I couldn't get close to her."

"I was so anxious that I thought she had an intelligence problem. So I started to take her to see a doctor. Within a few months, I did various examinations on her and took her to the expert clinic. Then, I couldn't remember whether it was a Children's Hospital in Beijing or a Children's Hospital in Shanghai. A psychiatric expert told me that my child was diagnosed with autism in children."

"I didn't even know that there was this disease. At first I only understood it as slow thinking and slow intellectual development. But the expert told me that children with this disease have high talent in some aspects, which is almost equivalent to genius. For example, my children have obvious interest in drawings, and their talent in this area is far beyond ordinary people."

"The doctor also said that it is difficult to determine the cause of this disease. But if my child is trained strictly, he can learn something she likes, and then fall in love with some people, and has few opportunities to live a normal life. The golden period for children with autism is from 2 to 6 years old. During this period, he will be able to train more to allow children to have more contact with their peers and society, so that their illness will not become worse."

"So I was facing very contradictory problems at that time, and I couldn't give up on work and children. The doctor suggested that I spend more than 12 hours with my child every day. But I only had to earn enough money to be able to cure her. In this way, I bought a RV and took my child with me every day. As long as I was filming and resting, I would fulfill my mother's obligations as soon as I had time."

"Through this method, I made some progress in my child. A year later, she began to get familiar with me and could tolerate me touching her. But people who don't know the truth thought I was a big shot when they saw this scene. And through several irresponsible reports from reporters, Sha Haoyang mistakenly thought that I had a good income and increased the exploitation of me. But this is nothing, and it's even worse. It's my father's car accident and almost became a vegetable."

"That period was the hardest thing for me. When things happened suddenly, I was once in a state of failure. Of course, I would delay a lot of work for this. But in this way, my troubles became even greater. Because my savings were not only spent on huge medical expenses, but also had to compensate for some of the liquidated damages on the contract. Even Sha Haoyang did not spare me because of this, and he could not lose a penalty of the money he wanted, otherwise my reputation would be ruined."

"It was at this time that I met my future husband. He is from Singapore, very rich, and his wealth may rank third in Southeast Asia. Although he is a disabled person with a lower body, he has to rely on a wheelchair to travel, and he is a teenager older than me. But he is very kind."

"He is the only one among the investors I undertake all the advertisements who did not ask me for compensation for breach of contract. Even after learning about my difficulties, he did not even recover the advance payment, and even sent me another sum of money to help me get through the difficulties."

"Later, he even helped my father and children contact the best hospitals and rehabilitation centers in Singapore. He also completely helped me end Sha Haoyang's entanglement at the cost of not knowing the specific numbers."

"I cannot accept such kindness calmly. I have to give back. So even though we have no love, in 2017, I accepted his proposal and married him."

"Of course, I'm not for the money. Our wedding was simple, almost isolated from news. And I took the initiative to sign a property notarization agreement. This made him and his family feel relieved."

"So after marriage, I felt the pressure from his family was not too great. I was also allowed to not live in Singapore, but to stay in a special school in Switzerland, and concentrate on accompanying my daughter for continued treatment. Just go back to accompany him for a while."

"To be honest, it was completely accidental for me to get the Cannes Best Actress, which has become the last movie I made. No matter what others say, it has nothing to do with me, and I have never taken it to my heart. When I met you, billions of wealth and reputation were no longer important to me. My wish is to accompany my daughter and take good care of my parents who have entered the old age. Repay those who have been kind to me."

"Do you understand now? The reason why I want to go back is not for anything else. I have relatives waiting for me and waiting for me to fulfill my responsibilities. Apart from myself, I am also a daughter, a mother, and a wife. My parents, children, husbands, and everyone is waiting for me, and I cannot let them down. This is the whole purpose of my life. It is meaningless except that."
Chapter completed!