"For the next week or two, I stayed at home and didn't go out. I pretended to be unwell and locked myself in the room and did nothing, just thinking...I wanted to figure out what was going on."

"But not long after, I was sure that this was impossible. Because all reasonable logic could not be explained. But if there was no logic, there were too many possibilities for doubt. The only thing that could be confirmed was that something as ridiculous as the movie "Charlotte's Troubles" happened to me."

"Of course, my main direction of doubt must be you. Are you a devil, a wizard, or an alien? Have you imposed magic on me, used witchcraft, or used me for special experiments? What purpose do you have? I don't know anything about it, and I have been thinking about countless possibilities, but the more I think about it, the more I become more afraid."

"Fortunately, the days passed day by day and nothing changed. It was exactly the same as the past I remembered. So I began to calm down and really think about what to do in the future. Everything I thought about was about how I should go back, or how I could find you, get the truth, and end this abnormality."

"I have to say that at this time I was very depressed, and my emotions turned completely into anger. Because as you said to me, the feeling of rebirth turned everything I had in vain. My past has no meaning and seems to be in vain. I may not care about other things, but my child, how can I..."

"And to be honest, I can't do anything. Not only because I don't know you at all, but I know almost nothing about your personal situation. It's also because I'm too young and haven't grown up yet, I have to listen to my parents. But my middle school years were the period when they were the strictest restrictions on me. So, I was completely trapped."

At this point, Beilu couldn't help but sigh.

Zhuo Qun immediately shook his head in agreement to express his great sympathy.

"I can understand that your situation is simply terrible. It's hard to endure such days."

Yes, he is the one who understands Beilu the best.

Because he returned to 1996 for the first time, he woke up in the 402 dormitory and was frightened by the strange situation.

For him, even if there is no suspicious object, it took him several days to accept reality.

It is conceivable how great the fear Beilu felt under the shadow he brought.

The difficulties in life are of course the same.

To be honest, every time he goes back to the past, what he is most unacceptable is the economic dilemma.

For him, having no money in his pocket is the greatest lack of freedom.

He has no choice but to do whatever he wants.

But Beilu was even worse than him.

Because in addition, Beilu actually has to be cared for by her guardian, and she has no personal freedom at all.

For a soul who is used to being independent, and has achieved success and fame, and has enjoyed countless glory and prosperity in the world.

What does this kind of bondage feel like?

But that's not the most troublesome thing.

In order not to make people around her suspicious, Beilu has to play a role that is suitable for this age, and I am afraid she has to stay until she goes to college.

That would be even more uncomfortable, and it would be a desolate thing in the darkness!

Sure enough, Beilu's subsequent complaints immediately proved this.

"That's not. The situation I faced was simply bad. Because I had no choice but to reassure my parents. I had to restrain my longing for my children and try not to show any abnormalities."

"This is especially true when I go to the hospital for a follow-up visit. I have to be careful, otherwise the hospital will only think that I have mental problems and lock me up."

"Fortunately, I made a living by acting. I was putting myself into the past and trying to play a good girl with good character and academic performance. It was not too difficult for me. I made up an excuse for peeking and horror to cover up the abnormality I had during the first period."

"However, after the winter vacation and I returned to school, the more difficult life began again. Because from then on, not only did I have to become a shy and introverted girl like I used to be. I also had to start studying high school courses again."

"You should know how painful it is to re-learning the knowledge that is destined to be forgotten, and to re-climb the boring exams, and those algebraic formulas that are so great that I despise it all the time, especially hard to control the urge to skip classes."

"In addition, it is difficult for me to get along well with my classmates and teachers in the past to get along well. Because they cannot communicate with me on an equal basis, they always awaken my impressions and memories of them in the future. This makes me unable to stand it. I really want to delete all the related memories and pretend that I don't know these things."

"So my high school was a nightmare. Because of wasting time and emotional depression, my temper became very weird and began to appear rebellious."

"Once I couldn't stand it anymore. I stole some money from my parents and tried to run away from home. But I went home that night and quietly put the money back in the distance. Because a girl of my age could not do anything on her own. From a legal point of view, I have no rights. Even if I stay in a hotel, I need a guardian."

"That's it, in order to keep myself sober and not be driven crazy, I knew I had to find something meaningful and liked to do. So I asked my parents to learn music. I started to learn piano and guitar in my spare time."

"To be honest, music can make people feel peaceful and happy. I am really devoted to it and enjoy it. In addition, the other happiness in my life is to secretly drink beer at home while my parents are away."

"So the understanding and perseverance of adults, coupled with the memory and reaction of teenagers, made me progress in music learning quickly and amazing. My parents are proud of me. They and the teachers who taught me really believe that I am talented in music and are very surprised at my efforts."

"Anyway, although it was difficult to deal with, I finally got through three years of high school and even got admitted to the music school. The days later became much better. As soon as I went to college, I had a lot of freedom. Just like the plot of the movie "Charlotte's Troubles", I achieved amazing achievements in music creation."

"At that time, it was an era when songs could become popular by using flash animations as carriers to upload the Internet. "It's a pity that it's not you", "Flying Far" and "Little Apple" were not what should have appeared in this era, and all became my works. So I became famous and made my first pot of gold with these songs."

"Of course, my father was still unhappy that I entered the entertainment industry. His wish was that I would become a pianist. But that was impossible. It was difficult to achieve extraordinary achievements in the pure arts field, nor could it provide me with enough financial support."

"Fortunately, there is still a difference in music, which is also a manifestation of personal wisdom and talent. In the end, I convinced my father and promised him that I would use my knowledge to achieve success instead of beauty. And I want to be my own boss and I will never be at the mercy of others."

"Later, I used the money I earned to enter the capital market and made some investments. I didn't know much about finance, but I knew the opportunities for Bitcoin and the big bull market in 2009 that way. In this way, the money was easily obtained."

"You know everything. I bought the copyright of the film and television of "Three-Body Problem" and invested in the film. This is not only for making money, but also for expanding the social effect, to see if it can lead you out. The result is indeed as I wish."

"As for those film and television companies that cooperated with almost all of them joined in the later stage to share profits. For the sake of distribution, I had to allow them to take advantage of me."

"Another worth mentioning, I'm afraid there are two men who have been involved with me. I don't know if they are indeed destined to be together. I still met them one after another in this life."

"Sha Haoyang was an interview with an internet celebrity at that time. I accidentally discovered that he was my photographer. I was surprised, but I really couldn't stand it, so I not only expressed my dissatisfaction and dislike of his photos, but also asked someone to teach him a lesson."

"To be honest, I don't know if I'm too much. I actually don't want to see this person who has almost ruined my life. But I never thought of taking revenge on him deliberately. As long as he doesn't come to provoke me, it should be said that it's God's will, and he's unlucky."

"And my husband, although I know his company and the specific whereabouts, I never thought of looking for him deliberately. Because our marriage actually made me a little depressed. In this life, since I don't have to fulfill my responsibilities as a marriage, I don't want to get involved with him. To be honest, I don't want to marry anyone, I just want to be alone."

"But unexpectedly, just when I was attending the opening ceremony of the movie "Three-Body Problem", I accidentally met my husband. Only then did I realize that he had a good relationship with the boss of China Film Group because he happened to be in the capital and was invited to come."

"Of course, at this time, he was just a stranger to me. So I felt very strange when I got along with him. Looking at a person I used to be very close and had been together for a long time, and he had no idea about everything..."

At this time, Zhuo Qun nodded in agreement.

"I understand, if you want to make a metaphor, it feels like the movie "Butterfly Effect", and different choices have different results. You will question whether your choices were correct, and you can't control your imagination, and whether there are better choices. I have read a Hindu philosophy book called "Bhagavad Gita" which says, "You and me, Ajuna..."

Unexpectedly, Beilu took the conversation at this time, and she could recite it with him without any difficulty.

"We have lived for many lifetimes, and I remember everything you have forgotten."

Beilu's eyes began to shine with a passionate light.

"What this describes is an experience that only we can deeply understand. I now truly understand why you became a passerby who just skimmed the water and only loved to wander around the world. Why did you only accept interesting but not too close friendships later..."

There is no need to say more at this time, Zhuo Qun also felt a rare feeling of closeness, and it can even be said to be a feeling of being in harmony.
Chapter completed!