September 4th, sunny!

I had an operation today and another innocent life was lost in my hands.

I hate these women, but I have to bear the sins they have caused.

I hate my career!

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September 5th, cloudy!

I had three surgeries today and I'm so tired.

Recently, more and more people are undergoing abortion operations, and sometimes I feel sick.

Since you can't be responsible for the life in your belly, why do you mess around outside?

Also, don’t you all wear condoms?

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September 6th, rain!

I feel so tired and I had hallucinations today.

During the B-ultrasound, I actually saw a kid making faces at me.

He seemed to be saying, you killed so many children, and they asked me to come to you for revenge!

I think I am suffering from depression. I will go see Lao Zhang tomorrow. He is a psychiatrist and should be able to help me.

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September 7th, heavy rain!

Today I went to see Lao Zhang. He is an excellent psychiatrist and very handsome.

When you wear glasses, you can charm thousands of girls.

It's a pity that he got married early and cut off many of his fangirls.

What's even more regrettable is that his wife died of illness a year ago.

I have met his wife, she is very beautiful and has a sweet voice.

It can be seen that Lao Zhang loves his wife very much. During lunch, he actually made three servings.

It's been a year and he still misses it.

Sometimes, I wonder if he himself is suffering from depression, because he even dresses up the family dog ​​in colorful ways.

After dinner, Lao Zhang checked my mental condition.

Lao Zhang said that I had severe depression and suggested that I take some time off.

Sure enough, my guess was right, I had depression.

I declined Lao Zhang's dinner invitation, and he and his dog watched me leave.

The moment I turned around, I seemed to hear him talking to his wife.

His wife seemed to be saying: "Let's go back, I want to eat fish tonight."

It seems that Lao Zhang is right, I have severe depression.

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September 8th, thunderstorm!

Today I decided to ask for leave from the director.

The old director was very easy to talk to and agreed to my request for leave. I am very happy!

By the way, I had a dream last night. I dreamed that Lao Zhang’s wife came to life and had dinner with us.

But his wife's eating skills are really unflattering, she devoured her food like a hungry dog.

I decided to tell him the news, maybe it would be a comfort to him.

Of course, let’s not mention the hungry dogs.

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In the afternoon, the pregnant woman came again.

It's the mother of the kid who made a face during the B-ultrasound I mentioned.

To be honest, I'm very afraid of her coming.

To be precise, I was afraid of seeing that little devil making a face.

Maybe I'm overthinking it, but I feel like that kid is just looking for my life.

What surprised me was that the pregnant woman suddenly decided not to have the baby in her belly.

Oh my God, doesn't she know she's almost six months pregnant?

The kid in your belly is making faces!

I got angry and almost hit her.

She had no idea that the child in her belly was already a complete life.

She is murdering, murdering!

I ignored the unreasonable mad woman and left the hospital. I wanted the heavy rain to extinguish the anger in my heart.

I drove straight to the nightclub, I wanted to get drunk.

I can't drink enough and I got very drunk.

I don't know how I got back. When I left the bar, I felt like my feet were filled with lead.

It seemed that suddenly a person came out from behind me and helped me into his car.

It seemed like I was driving, and it seemed like he was driving.

Anyway, in the end, I went home.

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September 9th, thunderstorm!

I was so drunk last night that I don't remember what happened next.

After getting up, I made up for yesterday’s diary!

No matter what happens, a diary must be written.

When I woke up in the morning, the house was empty. It seemed that last night was indeed an illusion, and no one sent me home at all.

Open the refrigerator and take out the milk. Lao Zhang said drinking more milk will help you sleep.

But when I opened the lid, I found that the tin foil sealing inside the lid was actually open.

There was less than half of the milk inside.

This is the milk I just bought yesterday, I haven’t had time to drink it yet!

Maybe someone was playing a prank in the supermarket and secretly drank half of it after opening it. It's all because I didn't check it carefully when I bought it.

I threw the drunk milk into the trash can, then lay down on the sofa and prepared to watch TV.

Today is a day off. To be precise, I will have a month-long holiday after today.

I haven't watched TV for a long time. When I turned on the TV, the children's channel popped up.

I never watch children's TV, and there haven't been any children at home recently.

I suddenly felt something was wrong. Someone seemed to have been at home.

Is my depression getting worse?

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September 10th, heavy rain!

Today, I woke up from bed and found myself covered in blood!

God, I don't remember what happened.

I just remember that after I noticed something was wrong at home last night, I felt like I was thinking wildly again.

I had a depression attack, I left the house and went to the bar again!

Only alcohol can numb my nerves and stop me from thinking.

I was so drunk again at the bar that I had no idea how to get home.

How could I wake up from my bed covered in blood?

In the end what happened?

I came to the bathroom and found bloody fingerprints all over the wall.
To be continued...