Eight hundred and twentieth eighth chapter: your inner demon is just around the corner(1/2)
"Puchi..."
Zou Zexu's eyes widened, his breathing became rapid, and he looked at the unbearable scenes in the entertainment room, and the chaotic scenes of the men and women inside.
Even when she saw Huang Shanshan, she was also involved.
Zou Zexin clenched his teeth, his fists tightly clamped together, trembling slightly, his knuckles turned white, and the masseter muscles on both sides of his cheeks were obvious.
His eyes fell on the table in the middle, looking at the instruments, syringes and other items on it, as if he understood what was coming.
It takes nearly ten seconds.
Zou Zexun let go of his fist and his arm, which was about to push the door and put it in, took back his arms. He looked cold and returned to the room with expressionless expression, lit a cigarette with his fingers trembling.
Until this time.
He realized that the so-called Brother Li was just a scum, and Huang Shanshan was undoubtedly his temporary goal. Perhaps from the beginning of meeting Huang Shanshan at the dinner, Huang Shanshan was already in his operational tent.
And myself.
Just a stupid idiot.
"Si..."
Zou Zexu's fingers trembled, and he wrapped a cigarette in big mouthfuls. He sucked a cigarette in a few sips. He then added another one and continued to smoke.
The smoke enveloped him inside.
The river channel of the window reflected the street lights, and the lights shook with the ripples. He stared at the ripples on the river surface in a daze, his eyes flashing.
"Bang!"
Zou Zexin used his index finger to extinguish the hot cigarette butts. The remaining half of the cigarette was crushed by his fingers, and the tobacco fell all over the floor.
He took out his phone, opened the dialing interface, entered 110, and after connecting, he gritted his teeth and said, "It's 110, I want to report someone to gather to attract *groups*..."
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"call.."
Zou Zexun took a deep breath and escaped from his memories. He leaned against the back of the seat, his head tilted back, and looked up at the ceiling.
Zhong Tianzheng and Xiang looked at each other, and both of them frowned to varying degrees. It turned out that this is how Huang Shanshan’s history of drug rehabilitation came from.
"That night, I called and reported them personally? Not long after? The police who received the report arrived here? They arrested them all in the current situation? Until the police arrived? They were not over yet, and were addicted to the endless madness? They were caught in the current situation? None of the people involved ran away."
Zou Zexun sighed: "That was the case when Huang Shanshan was forcibly injected by Li Changyuan and then was arrested? He was detained for a while, and then after he was released, he was arrested and forced to quit the abstinence."
"That's what happened? So Huang Shanshan resented you? It was because of this incident that led to your final breakup?"
Zhong Tianzheng carefully sorted out Zou Zexun's description, and finally sorted out his guess and expressed his guess: "At this time? You will break up."
This paragraph described by Zou Zexu.
Zhong Tianzheng did not use the grandmaster-level space conception to restore himself.
"Haha, haha..."
Zou Zexu raised his head and looked at Zhong Tianzheng and laughed. He didn't know what he was laughing at. His laughter was full of self-deprecating. He sighed, "If so? That would be fine."
Ah Xiang subconsciously replied: "What is that? What else is there?"
"yes!"
Zou Zexun grinned and said with white lips: "That time, after witnessing this incident, I actually wanted to rush in directly, but I didn't."
"I suddenly thought, if I rushed in, then I was undoubtedly telling them that I knew about this, and what attitude would Shanshan face me in the future?"
Zou Zexu's expression was a little entangled, his head was slightly lowered, and he wrapped a cigarette heavily like he was prolonging his life: "So, the only way I could think of at that time was to make Li Changyuan, a dog, not to let Shanshan be too embarrassed, so I could only let the police come forward and arrest them, and I could not know anything myself, so that Shanshan would not have to be too embarrassed when facing me in the future."
"understand!"
Zhong Tianzheng nodded and knew what was the reason for him doing this.
really.
In that case, calling the police is indeed the best way to deal with it, and his choice is not wrong.
"I originally thought that I was very considerate in thinking this way, but I greatly overestimated my own psychological endurance!"
Zou Zexun breathed heavily again and gritted his teeth hard: "I called the police and arrested them all in. The purpose was to achieve it, but the barrier in my heart could not pass it like this."
"I shouldn't have witnessed this process that day. The scene that happened that night greatly impacted my entire perception, the chaotic scene, the chaos of the men and women there..."
"I really can't accept it. I can't accept Shanshan being beaten by those dogs..."
The more Zou Zexun said, the more excited she became: "Later, after she came out, she was sent to the compulsory abstinence*. During this process, I have been with her and I will visit her almost every once in a while."
"It is in this process, while I was alone, I found that my thoughts gradually changed. I found that I couldn't let go of this. Do you know that feeling? You witnessed the scene, and the person you love the most was in front of you without any scruples..."
Zou Zexun's tone was sometimes rapid and sometimes calm, and his whole body was in a state of uncertainty. He looked very crazy: "I tried to pretend not to know. After coming out of the Ring Center, I tried to accept her. Shanshan knew what happened, so she would also test me and secretly mention the things that day to me."
"Although I pretended well, although I could convince myself to pretend not to know, although...forget it, not even though. I convinced myself on the surface, but I couldn't convince myself in my heart, and I never touched her again since then."
Zou Zexu gritted his teeth, looked up at Zhong Tianzheng, and made a gesture of holding a cigarette. The cigarette has never stopped since he spoke. Zhong Tianzheng did not refuse him, and allowed him to continue to recharge the cigarette.
"I really can't do everything as if it hadn't happened. Every time I get home from get off work at night, when we're alone, every time we're intimate, I can't let go of it. Looking at her in my arms, the scene of that night came unconsciously in my mind."
Zhong Tianzheng and Xiang were silent when they heard this.
The situation Zou Zexun mentioned is likely to show that his experience during that period caused a certain degree of distortion in his psychology.
His inner demon is about to move.
In his heart, there has been a certain degree of psychological disorder, which comes from Li Changyuan and Huang Shanshan. Strictly speaking, his psychological disorder comes from himself and his own guilt towards the Huang Shanshan incident.
That's why he became like this.
"so what?"
"What happened later?"
Zhong Tianzheng and Xiang almost spoke in unison.
perhaps.
Huang Shanshan and Zou Zexun broke up because of him, Zou Zexun.
As they guessed.
Zou Zexu was stunned for a while before continuing: "That's it. Slowly, our relationship changed. I found that I was too concerned about that matter, although that incident was caused by me, if it was not for me, if I had not taken her that night, if I was not so stupid and innocent that night, if I had been optimistic about her that night, maybe nothing had happened."
He paused, smiled with some self-deprecating smile, and shook his head: "But, how can there be so many ifs in the world? It happens."
"Although the mistake of this matter was with me, I found that I was so resentful. I seemed to have a psychological cleanliness. I couldn't explain what happened to Shanshan. I felt that she was not clean anymore and I had no desire."
"We didn't know when it started, and we gradually felt so close. Later, we never had any intimate contact. At first, Huang Shanshan didn't know, but later as I changed, she slowly realized it."
"It was during this process that the smiles between us gradually became less and more quarrels began to increase. Sometimes they were really the kind that would quarrel for no reason. Later, as there were more quarrels, she became more and more disappointed."
Zou Zexun took a sip of the cigarette and enveloped himself in the smoke.
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In a rental house.
Zou Zexun did not rent a better and bigger room for himself as he imagined, and they still lived in that small apartment.
"Bah, Zou Zexin, you are just a scumbag, trash!"
Huang Shanshan angrily pushed Zou Zexu down on the small sofa in the apartment and almost roared: "Why! Why do you look like this? Do you think I'm dirty, right?"
"Shan Shan!"
Zou Zexin stumbled and wanted to say anything, but couldn't say anything.
"Forget it, forget it, if you don't love it, you won't love it anymore! Let's break up, then let's do it like this, let's break up like this."
Huang Shanshan shook her head in a panic, as if she was a little unwilling to accept it: "The reason why I have fallen to this level today is all thanks to you! I love you so much, but this kind of thing is not something I can control! The reason why I was like that day was not because of you!"
"It's all because of you! If you could see the better that day, you would stop. If you were not greedy and did not think about continuing to expand your so-called social circle, would I have fallen to this level! I said that I was going home that day!"
Huang Shanshan said as she spoke, her eyes became foggy as she spoke. She sat on the chair, sobbing in a low voice, wiping her tears.
Zou Zexu sat on the sofa in a daze, looking at her without saying anything, and he didn't know what to say.
Because what Huang Shanshan said is indeed correct.
He disliked her.
He disliked her for being dirty.
a long time.
"Break up!"
Huang Shanshan wiped her tears and stood up expressionlessly: "Let's do it, we won't have to contact you anymore in the future."
"No, I don't want it!"
Zou Zexu looked at Huang Shanshan who was packing up his own things and jumped up from the sofa, ran over and hugged Huang Shanshan from behind, and hugged her tightly: "No, let's not break up, I love you, Shanshan, don't leave me."
“Um…”
Huang Shanshan's hand, which was packing things, stopped, her body began to tremble, and tears could not be stopped again.
To be continued...