Chapter 061 What speed should I use to meet you again.
It was like passing through the wall that blocked the inner world, illuminating it with the light of dreams and beauty.
Living in this comfortable warmth, Taki felt that the world in his heart had become clear. He had been longing to find the darkness of the forward square, and was driven back to the previous moment.
At that moment, the stares from up and down the stage froze time, and the smile blooming in the rain of petals became the eternity he had longed for most.
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"
The alarm bell stirred up and shattered the dream. After waking up, I could still feel the heaviness on my face as my fingertips dug deep into my flesh. Then the moisture inside my pupils began to condense, and my words slowly fell from the corners of my eyes.
I kept moving forward, never thinking that one day it would suddenly stop, and I didn’t know what I was thinking about or what I wanted.
When I came back that day, the platform was empty, and the only passenger was Takiichi himself.
The country tram, wrapped in a layer of red and green, rolled into the platform under the warm spring sun.
After arriving at the platform, the automatic door quietly opened. When Taki stepped out of the car, he turned around subconsciously.
At that moment, I could still feel Sakura's breath on the other side.
Sakura, who was always wearing a white sailor uniform, waved at him and shouted goodbye.
Around that time, Takiichi realized that he and Sakura had always relied on each other, and on this day, they would completely separate, and they would walk in different directions.
Before the separation that time, he did not take out the letter he had written and hand it to Sakura. Later, the letter was lying in his pocket, with its surface becoming wrinkled.
I thought it was just a farewell as usual, and we would have the opportunity to meet again in the future.
And when he realized that the world had changed, Takichi also threw the letter into the trash can in front of the station.
For things that no longer need to exist, only there will be their final home.
Passing through the path that I usually walk, I went to the park where I used to play with Sakura when I was young.
The biting air at that time made the scarf wrapped around the neck useless.
Without the high-rise buildings, traffic lights and constant flow of vehicles, everything is like a modern society going backwards.
Just when I thought everything should stop here, a month later, Sakura's letter was sent home from Tokyo.
It's like a movie, full of gore and drama, but what makes people feel the most real is the sadness that sweeps over them at the moment of separation, and the confusion of losing faith.
And after that, we communicated through letters, with some caution, but we could never return to the politeness of the past.
"Nako, I...at what speed should I live and chase in order to meet her again?"
When I just ended my relationship with Sakura, it seemed like everything I did after that would remind me of that time. The more I thought about it, the more intense the convulsion in my heart became.
Because of this kind of spasm, whenever you are in quiet leisure time, you can feel bursts of pain overflowing from your body.
This kind of confusion is full of uneasiness, so that I can only re-read the letter sent by Sakura, but the feeling of peace of mind is as if I have taken too much medicine, and I am developing antibodies little by little.
Looking at each other with Nako, Takiichi's breathing began to become weak.
It was a sudden transition from excitement to gentleness.
He lowered his head. At this time, he knew that crying was the best way, and it did not mean that it was a sign of cowardice.
However, I thought I didn't know what to do at the moment, and I thought my tears would dry up, but the feeling of vomiting and the trembling of my arms continued from bottom to top.
"It's okay, Taki-san, none of this is your fault."
Both parties who are separated will always try to pass the responsibility to the other party. This is a sign of immaturity.
This kind of behavior has never appeared in Taki Yi.
But this kind of self-reflection always puts an inexplicable weight on him.
Nako wanted to get closer because he saw Takiichi building an invisible wall around him, just to try not to suffer interference from the outside world.
On the surface, Takichi spends his days quietly, still looking normal.
But this feeling of being too peaceful always seems like something is dancing in my heart.
It is like a light feather, stimulating your bones day and night.
The occasional attack made Nako heartbroken, but she also knew that Takiichi was even more "dead than alive" than she was.
"I'm always reluctant to face up to this obstacle between me and Sakura. If I could, I would have entered the entertainment industry a long time ago relying on my teacher's connections and training for me.
Having a common identity with her and standing upright on the stage might not be as painful as it is now.
But... I think that obstacle is a good cover because it exists, so that I can calmly follow her footsteps and travel all over the country. In the end..."
Standing under the cherry blossom tree, the cool wind blowing on Takiichi's skin, this sad atmosphere seemed to be felt by the heavens.
"Everything has two sides. I am like a contradictory body, expecting everything to be the best, to be perfect without any omissions, but the world has shown me, nako."
Under the night, Takiichi's frank but hazy eyes looked extremely dazzling.
It was so dazzling that it looked like a fire without temperature.
When his name was called in that hoarse voice, Nako just stared at him quietly, trying his best to hide the impulse of his heartbeat to accelerate.
"If you want to admit that none of this is my fault, you must first realize your own fault. If you want to admit that you are a stranger to her, you must first realize how different the paths are."
At first, no matter what Takiichi said, Nako just nodded gently and said nothing.
However....
"To solve this problem, I spent a few days walking to all the places Sakura wanted to go. I took photos, sketched, and recorded them in various forms."
When Taki first explained to Nako the moments he had experienced during this time, his speaking speed was very slow, sounding like a middle-aged man speaking. His voice was very small, always speaking slowly and softly, and full of magnetism.
At this age, when other boys talk, Nako always feels flustered and weak.
The only exception is Takiichi. In my memory, I have never seen Takiichi angry, nor have I ever heard him say bad words.
Therefore, Nako is willing to listen to him with peace of mind, and is naturally willing to open her heart to him.
"Probably in the past few days, I have gradually discovered that the inner world of Sakura and I may no longer be as pure as before, although in the past, I often thought that we had many similarities.
For example, we all like reading. To be precise, our love for reading goes beyond playing with friends of the same age and talking about boring topics while pretending to be interesting."
After careful calculation, there was an unseasonable heavy rain in Sanshanmu Village a few days ago, so the soil under our feet and the air still exuded a moist smell.
Chapter completed!