Chapter 163 I’m not escaping, I just want to be myself

Author: Mercury Ring

Chapter 163 I’m not escaping, I just want to be myself

For Theresia, this was the first time the two of them hugged each other and were so intimate.

They hugged each other in the same bed, close to each other.

It was as if some warm water had enveloped her body, warming her heart that was trembling slightly in the cold wind.

"Xia Ming, you...why..."

Her voice became a little hoarse.

Xia Ming smiled slightly and scratched her nose.

"So Theresia, you are sometimes panicked and careless? Since you have the ability to sense good intentions and malice, you should know that I cannot be cruel to you no matter what."

"Seeing your appearance just now, do you think I would really leave you alone with such indifference?"

Xia Ming raised the corners of his mouth slightly and proudly announced his victory.

"This time, you lose, Theresia."

It was me... who lost...

Theresia buried her head in his arms, listening to the hot and powerful heartbeat in his chest, her cheeks quickly turned crimson.

"I...I didn't lose. How do you know I wasn't pretending to be like that on purpose? It was obviously you who fell into my trap in the end."

She grasped the soft flesh of Xia Ming's body tightly with her fingers and spoke forcefully.

"Hiss! It hurts, it hurts! Okay, you still win this time, you win the head office."

Xia Ming pretended to be in pain and looked at the girl's shy eyes. The girl blushed and buried her head lower.

An ambiguous atmosphere hangs in the air.

Neither of them spoke, but they felt that the temperature in the quilt was getting higher and higher, and even their breathing seemed to be filled with steam containing affection.

a long time.

Feeling that the atmosphere was almost over, the girl asked shyly in his arms:

"Then... can you help me with what I just said, Xia Ming?"

"No." Xia Ming still refused.

"Why doesn't it still work?"

The girl raised her lovely face from his arms and stretched out her pink fist to lightly hit his chest.

Unexpectedly, Xia Ming changed the topic and said: "Actually... it's not impossible for you to have me help you."

His fingers touched her softness, bringing the girl the pleasure she had always wanted but never got. However, it only lasted a few seconds before his hand ruthlessly pulled away.

How anxious and painful it must be to desire something so much before you get it, and then lose it immediately once you get it.

"Tell me, Theresia, your past, your past, your true psychology."

Xia Ming regarded the so-called help as a reward to seduce the girl.

"What are you running away from, what are you afraid of, what are you thinking about? Tell me and I will give you the happiest reward. How about that?"

Xia Ming's fingers gently teased the girl's earlobe, telling her endless affection.

Do you want to tell Xia Ming your selfish and ugly self completely and show him?

If it had been before, Theresia would have been filled with hesitation.

However, at this moment, Xia Ming's embrace made her greedy and attached to her, his affection was so touching, and the reward he mentioned made her reluctant to let it go, and she couldn't bear to lose it like this.

"……good."

The girl's voice trembled. After Xia Ming repeatedly fiddled with her, she finally couldn't bear the temptation and chose to confess her true self to him.

She talked about her past, the carefree life she had when she was a child, and the beginning of everything when a strange fog struck when she was six years old, and her whole family died, leaving only herself and her brother who were saved by the fire patrols of the Ember Fire Organization.

Those rigorous education and training received in the Yuhuo organization.

In fact, my uncle Gottfried had roughly told Xia Ming all this.

However, telling the same experience from someone else's mouth is completely different from choosing to tell someone personally.

From Theresia's words, Xia Ming understood more clearly how much expectations the Yuhuo Organization had placed on her.

The education and training that were too cruel and harsh for a child caused the originally carefree girl to completely suppress her personality and gave her a rebellious and evasive mentality.

ten years.

For a whole ten years, I moved myself closer to another person every day and every night. There was no rest time and no space for myself. Even in my sleep, I had to watch the video of Lady Valkyrie and insert myself into it.

Become her replacement completely.

Especially after Trid failed to draw the sword, Theresia became the last hope of the whole village, and those fervent expectations became even more intense, as if they had turned into arrows piercing Theresia's heart.

She must pull out the red flame sword, and she must become a new generation of Valkyrie.

She is destined to inherit her name and power, uphold her will to defeat the evil dragon and the Ice King, and bring hope to the people of the North.

But...has anyone ever thought that she actually doesn't want to shoulder such a mission, that she doesn't want to become a Valkyrie?

She is Theresia, not someone else, not a substitute for the Valkyrie.

She...occasionally wants to be her true self.

But the kindness of the Yuhuo Organization is weighing on her head, the hatred of her parents who were killed by the mist is weighing on her head, the expectations of countless pairs of eyes are weighing on her head, and the pressure of morality...

It seemed that she was destined to lose herself from the day she was rescued by the Yuhuo Organization, and was destined to face such a fate.

So when she went on a mission for the first time, came to this small town, and rescued Xia Ming, the first person she saved in her life, she acted so lively and happy.

Mist is a curse, an escape, a prison.

However, the reality outside is an even bigger prison.

Only in such an unsupervised place can she occasionally be her former self.

Not the successor of Valkyrie, not someone else's replacement, but her, Theresia, herself.

So, when you find you can't get out.

Amidst the panic and fear, a hint of joy that she had not expected arose in her heart.

When it was determined that the root cause of her inability to escape came from her inner escape.

She said that she should face herself, face reality, and accept her fate.

But……

Why...why is being oneself an escape, why is facing one's fate destined to tragedy a matter of facing oneself?

She doesn't understand, and she doesn't want to understand.

In the next few days after being rejected by Xia Ming for the first time, she seemed to be returning to her past life track, playing the role of the Valkyrie, trying to make herself accept that fate, but in fact, she felt more and more happy and depressed, and became more and more depressed.

Becoming more and more filled with escape.

She... doesn't want to go out.

By doing this, you can help yourself, you no longer need to be under pressure, and you can have your loved ones and loved ones around you. What a wonderful life it is to live like this.

Is it also a mistake and an escape to want to be yourself?

However, for her, this is a mistake and an escape.

Otherwise, everyone would not be trapped here anymore.

Otherwise, she would not be so eager to seek Xia Ming's comfort.

"Xia Ming, I'm sorry for being so selfish and willful. I obviously said I wanted to work hard to get out, but I kept deceiving you..."

The girl leaned guiltily on Xia Ming's arms.

"Can I... still get your reward?"

"sure."

Xia Ming smiled and stroked the top of her head.

"And I want to tell you, Theresia, being yourself is not an escape. You did nothing wrong."
Chapter completed!