Chapter 286: Too much hate is love
After Chen Qingyi asked about my experience of getting along with An Qi, my thoughts floated back to the scene when I first met: that time she drove a red Porsche sports car, wore a fiery red scarf, and a red jacket, lost to others in a racing car, and arrogantly raised her middle finger of contempt. When I pestered her, she irritably called me a "silly"!
After a long time, we met in the mall in Yangzhou again. I pulled off her shopping bag and the sanitary napkin fell all over the floor, making her look ugly in front of everyone, and then pulled off her pearl bracelet... Later we fought, I took off her shoes, scratched her itch, and she bit me desperately.
Later, we still had to quarrel when we met, but we cared for each other. When she was in a stomachache, she squatted on the ground and shouted: "Yixi" made me feel heartbroken. When she was dysmenorrhea, I went to the farmhouse to dig ginger and make ginger soup for her. When I was confused, she would call me to drink happily on the phone... and our "Utopia under the candlelight..."
I just recalled the scenes and memories of Anqi and I experienced to Chen Qingyi... Before I finished speaking, Chen Qingyi's tears filled her eyes!!
"What's wrong with you?" I asked Chen Qingyi with concern.
Chen Qingyi quickly pulled out a tissue to wipe her tears. She smiled again and said, "I envy Mr. An, I envy your experiences together. If a man had such an angry, painful, heart-wrenching, happy, and romantic experience with me, I think I would make the same choice as Mr. An......"
"I don't understand. In my heart, Angel and I hate her most of the time. I hate her willfulness, and she hates my poor!" I said so.
Chen Qingyi shook her head and said, "Love is born from hatred, don't you understand?"
"I don't understand why it's ridiculous!"
Chen Qingyi looked at a fool and said to me: "Hate someone to a certain extent will become love. Because Mr. An hates you, she will think of you every day. After thinking about it for a long time, you will take root in her heart and finally you can't live without you... But how could a woman like Mr. An be so proud of her, how could she confess the most directly to you? So she keeps being willful to you, let you remember her, hate her, and fall in love with her in the end, so..."
Before Chen Qingyi finished speaking, I felt enlightened. She woke me up. Isn’t it the same with Mo Han? Because I hated her for farewell without saying goodbye and hated her for not caring, so I thought about her and missed her, and finally became a habit that I could never leave her again...
Love, love is so complex, but it is so simple!! It is simple as a humorous drama, but we who are in the drama are so ignorant.
"If you can find Mr. An now, then go find her. Maybe you will become a couple that everyone envies." Chen Qingyi said to me.
"But I...but I don't know how I feel about her!"
"Then think about it, if one day Mr. An wore a wedding dress and walked on the red carpet with another man, what would you feel? You must tell me your truest feeling!" Chen Qingyi said to me with an extremely serious expression.
I tried to simulate the scene described by Chen Qingyi, and immediately I felt a little heartbroken... I frowned and said to Chen Qingyi, "I felt a little sad."
Chen Qingyi nodded and said, "Actually, you have fallen in love with her without realizing it!"
After Chen Qingyi finished speaking, my expression was very messy and I couldn't understand myself anymore.
"Okay, whether you like it or not, I think you should go and see her at this time. I think she is not doing well now." Chen Qingyi sighed softly and said to me.
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After coming out of Chen Qingyi's house, I fell into a whirlpool of entanglement again. I didn't know whether to go to find An Qi. Even though Chen Qingyi made a thorough analysis for me, this is just an analysis. Only she knows whether An Qi likes me, and whether I like her or not, I don't know... Such a relationship that is not thorough in muddy water is so messy at this time, should I touch it?
After thinking for a long time, I decided to go to An Qi. No matter whether Chen Qingyi's analysis was correct or not, I, as one of her few friends, care about her life, was always unmatched.
I took a taxi to the house I shared with her before, and my intuition told me that she should live there at this time.
I soon arrived at my destination. My intuition was correct. Angel's Porsche was parked downstairs. I stood downstairs for a long time and finally walked upstairs. But I didn't know if such a late-night visit was presumptuous... I suddenly felt that my thoughts were strange. I was actually afraid of presumptuous when I got along with Angel!! This transformation was really subtle.
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I rang the doorbell several times in a row, but there was no answer inside. Then I remembered that I had the keys to this house. At that time, the landlord gave me three keys, I left two for Anqi, and took one away myself.
I took out the key from my bag, gently opened the door, and turned on the lights in the living room. The first thing that caught my eye was a box of instant noodles that had been soaked but had not eaten. This instant noodles seemed to be bought by me a long time ago.
She didn't even have dinner before she went to the rooftop to meet me, let alone date someone else. I kind of believe Chen Qingyi's words.
I came to the room where Anqi lived and gently turned open the door. There was only a desk lamp in the room. The laptop was already in a screensaver state. Anqi fell asleep in front of the computer... I looked at her sleeping face, very quiet, but with tears!! As Chen Qingyi analyzed, she is not doing well now. She is tired, physically and mentally tired. Otherwise, why would she sleep without even having time to eat? If a woman is really in love, would she be in this state? She is so stubborn and describes her life very well!
I felt a heartache. I stared at her for a long time and put a blanket on her and gently brought it to the door.
I returned to the living room, threw the soaked instant noodles into the trash can, and found some ingredients from the refrigerator, and I wanted to make her some late-night snacks.
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After working in the kitchen for half an hour, I finally prepared a simple midnight snack and placed the cooked midnight snack on the dining table. Then I walked into her room again.
At this time, Angel was still asleep, and I patted her gently: "Beauty, wake up..."
After calling out several times in a row, Anqi finally opened her sleepy eyes. She suddenly saw me, looked surprised, and then looked around before asking, "Why did you come in?"
"Did you forget that I rented this house? I have the key!" I replied.
Angel pressed her forehead with her hand, looked at me again, but she was silent!!
"I cooked you a midnight snack, go out to eat, it's very good~~!" I said with a smile.
Angel looked at me with complicated eyes, and I pulled her up from the chair and said, "I haven't eaten tonight, eat first..." After stopping, I said, "You are a talented person, I've finished soaking noodles, but I can't remember to eat them!"
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Chapter completed!