Xia Yan also approached and looked at it, "Is this a piano score?" Although he couldn't tell the details, he still recognized the clues when seeing the finger-sequence and string numbers supplemented by symbols, "Is it your mother left?"

"I don't know..." Chen Fengming's tone was still restrained, "Why... she... wanted to keep this..."

"It was already dark when Chegu read this letter. Perhaps the original handwriting was gone. He didn't see the words of rejection, but instead read this paragraph?" Xia Yan paused, "What does this song mean?"

"It doesn't matter what kind of song it is..." Chen Fengming just said to himself, "Anyway, I don't know it..."

"How do you know he doesn't know? Maybe he can understand it, but you don't know it." Xia Yan said, turning his gaze to Okra. Okra and his eyes were slightly matched, then turned away and explained: "This is Lingyin's song. Even if Chegu knows the piano score, he can't know what the song is called, and he doesn't know what the corresponding words."

Xia Yan said lightly, and asked again, "But what exactly does this song mean?"

"It is a short song composed by Ling Yin according to Bai Letian's quatrain "Mujiang Yin". There is only half of it. The last two lines corresponding to the quatrain are... It's nothing special, it's just admiring the scenery of the rising moon by the river."

"Is it the 'Mujiang Yin' that 'dew looks like a true pearl moon like a bow'?" Xia Yan suddenly realized, "It seems that she is the pair of pearl earrings that echo this?" His tone was a little uncertain.

Okra's expression was also a little uncertain. If this sentence alone seemed to be insufficient to indicate that she had a deep affection for her, but since she had tried her best to stay, there were always some reasons.

"What's the point..." Chen Fengming seemed to have not heard of the two of them, and he was stunned, "If he can't see it, what's the point? If he can't see it but can't recognize it, what's the point? Even if he can't even recognize it, what's the point? Even if he can't recognize it, he has stopped leaving. What's the point? Why do you still do this even though you know it is meaningless?"

"Feng Ming?" Xia Yan asked a little inquiry. He knew that it was useless to make arbitrary decisions with Okra. If these two lines of poetry really had any inside information, he could only ask Chen Feng Ming.

"I'm sorry, the night of the third day of the ninth month, the dew is like a real pearl moon like a bow..." Chen Fengming murmured, "I don't know, but the third day of the ninth month... is the day when we... meet the bone-bone for the first time."

He did not look up, "That night was engraved with the man's tablet. He engraved the words "Nine Day 3, September 2018" on the back. Every time I wipe it, I will touch it, so I remember this day very clearly. It turned out... she kept remembering that night. She also felt... it was a night worth remembering. But why didn't you say it? If you really have feelings, why do you still write those words of rejection?"

"Listen to me." Okra held his slightly trembling right hand, "I understand your mother's thoughts."

Chen Fengming raised his face to look at her.

Okra bit her lip. "When she wrote these, I thought it was not for Che Gu but for herself. She didn't ask if Che Gu could see it, whether he could understand it, or whether he would see it in the future. Those are the will of God, but her own thoughts must have a place to entrust and say goodbye. I know, you said that she is not a secular person, and should not care about worldly vision, and should do it from the heart. But maybe she couldn't get around it. Maybe she hated herself for not being able to completely forgive the black bamboo that killed your father, and maybe there were too many reasons that we didn't know, which made her unable to agree to Che Gu and could only refuse. But she used the "illusion book", and she was determined to be looking forward to it. One day when Che Gu remembered her in the future, she would not see those cold words; what accompanied him over time was this piece of music that expressed her feelings."

Chen Fengming's eyes were just sad, "If we never meet again from now on, will he miss you or not in the future? What will he do with him if he is with him?"

"It would be great if all sentient beings in the world can be satisfied. But sometimes even if there are sentient beings, they have to separate them." Okra said. "Even if there is no connection in the future, at that moment, I will still want to tell others in such a way."

Chen Fengming looked at her and then looked at Xia Yan, "Do you think so too? If it were you, would you do this too? At least I won't."

"I don't know..." Xia Yan said, "In a certain situation, making a certain decision may not... be able to follow the common sense."

Chen Fengming suddenly thought of something. "...Is it like the broken branch of okra left for you? I don't ask if you can collect it, don't ask if you can understand it, don't ask if you will take it to heart, don't ask if you can see you again in the future..." He said and smiled bitterly, "No wonder you understand no wonder you all understand. In the past, I always wondered why you were so squeamish about a person's love, but it turned out that this is how people in the world are, only me... only I don't understand."

He suddenly stood up, turned around and headed into the room.

This old story was suddenly mentioned, and Xia Qiu and the other two didn't know how to respond. "Chen Fengming," Okra only subconsciously called him, "What are you doing?"

"I feel unhappy." Chen Fengming was very depressed. "Go back to the house and think about it."

Okra gritted his teeth and caught up with two steps, "...what else do you want?" She held his wrist and raised his hand holding the "illusion book" into the air, "You said you don't understand, but didn't you just give me the wooden hairpin the same day, you said nothing, and explained nothing. You didn't tell me that you were going to plot against Cheng Fangyu, you didn't tell me what the meaning of this hairpin, this paper scroll, and this earrings have? Isn't this dodging? But... I can understand you now I understand that you were not sure in your heart and dare not think deeply about whether you would be able to come back to meet me that day. You really want to say those things, but you can't say them. You can only hand over these things that are the most important to you to my hands, as if you have an explanation for your mother back then? If I don't believe it, you can't understand why your mother did that back then, and why she has many words but can't express her mood!"

Chen Fengming's eyes returned to her face little by little. Her face was filled with a few slight tingling of excitement.

"Okra..." He didn't know how to answer. How could he really not understand. He just couldn't accept such a fact that he regretted even more. If the two had no affection, it would be fine; but if he had known that they had, he should have won them away together one day, half a day, even half an hour earlier, they would not have died, and everything he had today would have been completely different.

However, if you regret it or not, the past is gone and you will never be able to pursue it.

He took his wrist out of her hand. Okra watched him walk back to the well and picked up a wine glass. He poured wine in and got up.

She thought he was going to drink the wine, but he slowly tilted the wine glass and sprinkled the clear but fiery rich and mellow little into the soil, as if it had been sprinkled into a long time.

"I know." He looked at the traces of the wine flowing. "You didn't say anything, but you were still looking forward to someone who could understand it. Your rejection of his words only existed for a short time; but you kept reading his songs. Eighteen years, eighteen years, or even longer. You hope that as long as the songs are still there, one day, someone in this world will find it and understand you, and then your affection for him that has never been said will not be lost."

Xia Yan and Okra looked at each other. At this time, there was no need to say anything, they knew that the other party must have thought of each other's masters, two people who were unable to be together for various reasons. Fortunately, Chen Fengming's mother and Che Gu died were so close that they could not be together after leaving this world. So they could go together without any scruples or obstacles.

Okra had a bitter nose for a moment, and leaned over to pick up the cup, poured the wine, got up and cleared his throat and said, "Although I don't know your mother, I am the descendant of the Magic Voice, so I should toast her." As he said that, he spilled the wine.

"Although I don't know the bones, I am a man from the Black Bamboo, so I should respect him." Xia Yan did the same. Finally, he picked up the porcelain bottle and filled the three-person wine glasses one by one.

Chen Fengming looked at the two of them, and his stiff back finally relaxed. He slowly sat back on the edge of the well and placed the wine glass beside him. After a long time, he turned his eyes to Xia Yan, his voice was hoarse: "What else do you want to ask me?"

Xia Yan hesitated, "I'm not asking you, I just want to hear you tell me why you threw in Heizhu after that? Is it for the sake of the bones?"

"I have been letting go of this after a few years and practicing hard. I have gone to Heizhu. Why am I helpless and really don't know where to go? I know very little about this world. I have tried to join some families, but I have never been long. I have been wandering like this for almost two years and was desperate. When I was thinking about going back to the Shen family, I went north. But when I was really close to Luoyang, I knew that I didn't want to go back at all, so I stopped in Chenzhou and accidentally heard that the Black Bamboo Steering was nearby. The word "Black Bamboo" is always a little different to me. I suddenly wanted to know what kind of life Chigu lived in the past what Black Bamboo was like, so I left him that... "

"What's the case?"

"I unconsciously held the bag from him when I ran away. Later, I found that besides the wooden hairpin and paper roll, the earrings were all in it, and there was a letter and a ring. The letter was for Yu Rui. I was short of my literacy and my bones were sloppy, so I couldn't see it. I could only understand the last sentence of the letter. He said, 'I hope that the black bamboo in the future can return to the clean black bamboo that was used to be."

"He really wants to go with you..." Okra felt sorry for hearing this, "so Liu Xin said goodbye to Yu Rui, but unfortunately he didn't even have time to put him in Yu Rui's house..."

"Think about it now, that's the case." Chen Fengming lowered his head, "He didn't put night clothes in his bag. The few pieces he brought were all old gray cloth clothes. I should have thought that it was impossible to go out for a task. The wooden hairpin was still there, and I kept the clothes for many years and wore them for many years, but the letter and ring were lost. Otherwise, I would have understood the words above and what he meant back then."

Xia Yan suddenly thought flashed, "Is this the finger you mentioned?"
Chapter completed!