The wind blew the curtains slightly.

Tianhai Jiuli is sitting on the hospital bed, silently looking out the window at the trams speeding past the city overpass in the distance.

Feel the slight vibrations of the tram as it rushes past. Memories of the past flash before your eyes like a revolving lantern.

[My own life?]

[Liu Li, tell me, what else do you have besides the piano? Do you rely on your disguised appearance to win the favor of the crowd? Or do you rely on your appearance to win the favor of those men?

[Besides the piano, tell me, what else does Liuliqian have?]

[Liu Li, don’t you understand what I mean? I’m telling you to quit the club and concentrate on the piano. Do you understand?]

Thinking of these, Tianhai Jiuliuli's hand on the bedside couldn't help but clenched. But soon, she withdrew her gaze and stared at the lily of the valley bracelet on her wrist.

[Liu Li, I will support you. Whatever you want to do, I will support you.]

Seeing this gift he gave to herself on her birthday, Tianhai Jiuliuli's mind could not help but recall the words he had said to herself in the past.

Dong dong dong.

The knock on the door interrupted Tianhai Jiuliuli's thoughts.

She regained consciousness, glanced past the green plants on the bedside table, and looked at the door of the ward, "Please come in."

Sakakibara pushed open the ward door with one hand.

"Liu Li."

After Tianhai Jiuliuli saw that it was him, she withdrew her face and gaze. Her sky-blue eyes only stared at the white hospital sheets on her body, "I told you not to call me by that name."

Sakakihara pulled up the stool, sat beside her bed, and looked at her fair and beautiful side face: "Kuruuri"

Tianhai Jiuliuli closed her eyes, and after taking a few breaths, she said: "What else do you want to come to me for? Isn't it good to stay with Qiyue?"

"I mainly want to stay and see you. We haven't spoken alone yet."

"Look at me? For you, it's actually not necessary."

"How could it be unnecessary?"

"What's the necessity? I already have Qi Qi with you, what else do you need from me?"

Sakakihara said softly: "For me, Ruri is still the person who was very good to me from the beginning."

"Then you decided to give up on me?"

"I didn't give up."

"You are just being polite on the surface. In fact, I am what you see now. What you like is just my gentle appearance before."

Sakakihara shook his head decisively: "This is not what you mean, Jiuriuri."

"It wasn't before, but it is now."

There was silence for a while.

Both of them seemed to be unable to find anything to talk about.

Tianhai Jiuliuli looked away from the window, "So, what do you want to do when you come to me?"

"I just want to come here to see your injuries. The injury on your stomach is okay, right?"

"If this knife almost made me infertile, would you be responsible?"

"."

The doctor did say that.

"Yes, I will be responsible whether you mention it or not."

"What if I had to make a choice between you and me and July in this situation?"

Sakakibara closed his eyes: "Ruri, this situation is the train problem, and there is no answer."

Amami Kuriuri didn't want to get too entangled in this matter, because she could see Sakakihara Raku's insistence on the July promise.

Brother, he really doesn’t want to go against what he said

Seeing Sakakibara Raku's face that was swollen and covered with gauze, Tianhai Jiuri looked into his eyes and asked:

"Brother, did you just want to ask me how I felt specifically?"

"Yes, Liuli, if you can tell me how you feel now, I will listen carefully."

"That's good."

Tianhai Jiuliuli agreed and thought about it for a while:

"Brother, I don't completely hate you. I hate myself even more. I hate the self that denies myself. I hate the self that compromises on everything but gets nothing. I hate the self that keeps giving to the other person but gets nothing.

The self that I can’t get. I hate my own character.”

Liuli, I hate myself.

Sakakihara told Ruri about her affair with Qiyue, which undoubtedly lowered her self-esteem.

Tianhai Jiuliuli, who had no confidence in herself, has now become a self-denial person.

Sakakihara Raku feels sorry for her and wants to give her 100% love and care.

But every time I see her face that is more and more similar to Qi Mingyue's before, I think of Qi Mingyue's lonely appearance again.

See July on Liuli’s face.

I saw Liuli on Qiyue’s face.

They are twins, and their faces are exactly the same, which makes Raku Sakakihara feel that he is in a dilemma in handling their relationship.

Sakakihara calmly raised his head and said to her:

"What does Jiuliuli want me to do most right now? I know what it is, but I want to hear your confirmation."

"Break up with July."

Sakakibara shook his head, "Kiuriuri, I owe a lot to Qiyue because of what happened when I was a child. She will still think about me even when I have forgotten all the things I had with her before. Starting from the earliest

, when she saw that I liked you, she also decided to bury what I said to her in her heart for the rest of her life, and wanted to silently bless us."

"What about me? Brother, what about the promise you made to me?"

"Jiuliuli, I will still fulfill what I said to you. I will support you and support you in anything you do."

"But I don't believe you anymore. Nor do I believe July."

Sakakihara Raku knows that he currently has the most fundamental conflict with Tianhai Jiureli.

If this conflict is not resolved, not only will she not believe in herself, but it will also be very difficult for her to have the same conversation as before.

Sakakihara took a deep breath again:

"Jiu Liuli, I still said that I will not give up. But as long as you figure it out and take the initiative to bring up your idea of ​​leaving me, I-"

"Wrong," Tianhai Jiuliuli interrupted him directly, her sky-blue eyes moved up and placed on his face, "I give up voluntarily, which means I admit defeat. Admit defeat? No, I don't want to hear it anymore.

That’s the word, and I don’t think it’s entirely your fault, brother. It’s obviously Qi Mingyue’s feelings that have bound you, brother.

"I've been thinking about why my brother is like this? Why would you say such things to me that are obviously not what you would say to me?

"But in the end, it can all be attributed to one reason - Qi Mingyue."

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Sakakibara Raku was noncommittal to Amami Kuruuri's words.

As for why Jiuliuli became more hostile to Qi Mingyue and had a cold attitude towards herself.

Maybe it's because the line in her heart hasn't been crossed yet. It's like two people who have just had an argument. They want to make up, but they feel embarrassed because of what they just said.

Sakakihara Raku finally understood after hearing this.

Liuli didn't hate herself, and while blaming herself for not living up to expectations, she raised her hostility towards Qi Mingyue again.

The two of them may really be incompatible now.

"Would you like some water? I see you haven't drank water for a long time. I'm going to get you some hot water."

Tianhai Jiuliuli did not respond or shake his head.

It’s the default.

No smile, no gentle smile.

Sure enough, even if she doesn't blame herself anymore, it will take some time before her relationship with her returns to the past, right?

*

Tired.

If you describe how you feel now.

Sakakihara Raku can only say one word - tired.

Not only did he have to take care of class affairs at school during the day, and continue to prepare materials to participate in the student union election, he also didn't stop in the afternoon. His uncle called him to his office and directly handed him a lot of information related to the Tianhai family's industry.
To be continued...