The time I proposed to you was the most nervous time... it was even more nervous than the first time I went to the operating table. I don’t know why, but I always feel that if you reject it, I will be embarrassed.

So, you didn't give you a chance to refuse.

Now that I think about it, I still feel very grateful for your promise to be with me.

My grandfather has loved me since he was a child, but he asked me to marry you is the thing I thank the most for him.

The world is so big, I am really lucky to meet you.

But if something happened to me unfortunately... I hope you can live a good life. Maybe in the past twenty years, this world has not been very friendly to you.

However, fate will not always shroud your life in haze. Even if I am not by your side, you must be well.

I don’t know why, but just thinking that there will be someone better around you than me to accompany you, I will be so jealous that I will go crazy.

I just want to be by your side now and hold you in my arms...

...

Although Jiang Chi always jokes with her, he rarely calls her wife.

Looking at the letter, Gu Xiang burst into tears for no reason.

He said it was a letter, but he was writing a suicide note at that time.

Gu Xiang had already returned to the bedroom. She sat on the bed and took apart Jiang Chi's suicide notes one by one.

He was in Shencheng for two and a half months and wrote sixty-eight letters.

I have never seen him talk so much, and he said almost everything.

Sometimes I didn’t remember what I remembered the day before, but then wrote it in again.

I forgot some of what I said before and said it again.

When Gu Xiang finished reading these suicide notes, she found that it was dawn and she didn't sleep all night.

Because his memories were too specific, those things also appeared in her mind.

She remembered that he had appeared in front of her for the first time in Shencheng and Meng Yuanzhou.

"Sir, are you in trouble?"

"My wife is lost, I'll find her."

...

She didn't know anything before, and didn't think there was anything.

Looking back now, he went from Jiangzhou to Shencheng and went to find her...

How did he come after she lost contact?

She remembered the place she saw him, and he looked particularly haggard and had not had a good sleep for several days.

How come you look like now, every day is full of energy?

Gu Xiang sat on the bed and felt like she had cried all night, and her tears were dry.

It rained for a few days, but today there was a long-lost sunshine.

I wonder how it is going on in Pengcheng?

She picked up her cell phone and wanted to call Jiang Chi. After looking at the time, she found it was a bit early, so she held it back.

After a while, Jiang Chi called on the phone.

Through the phone, Gu Xiang's voice was a little hoarse, "Hey."

Because of his suicide notes, she remembered her past memories.

What happened in the past month was like a dream.

Jiang Chi said: "I'll be back today and may be here tonight. Wait for me at home. OK?"

When he was calling, Jiang Chi's hands were shaking a little. He didn't know what he was afraid of, because he was afraid that he would come back too late and she would disappear.

I was afraid that she would not remember her good things, but Jing remembered their bad things and would abandon him...

There are obviously billions of people in this world, but just thinking about losing one of hers, he feels that his life seems to lose meaning.

Gu Xiang said: "Okay."

She listened to his voice and tears flowed down her face, unable to say anything on the phone.
Chapter completed!