I have been busy with my grandma's funeral in recent days.

At the same time, I have thought a lot in recent days and found that I am an ugly person.

When my grandmother was alive, I always thought that I would work hard and make money, because only in this way would I not be afraid to buy things because of price issues.

When she visited her in the old house on August 15th, she was already lying on the bed and couldn't get up because she fell one night when she got up.

At that time, I bought a lot of delicious food for her. When I was feeding her food, I was still thinking that grandma could eat so much and she would definitely get better soon.

She also said a lot to me, and it seemed that she would get better soon.

I thought so at that time.

Then, she told me to go see her every two or three days. I didn't care too much because I thought she would get better soon.

I was still thinking at the time that I would make more money. Winter is coming soon. Then I can buy her two more sets of thicker clothes and buy her some pork for her to make bacon.

She has always liked the silver bracelets I bought for her. I think I can buy her a silver necklace or something so that she can have the capital to show off in front of others.

Anyway, my mind was full of money, but I didn't take her words to heart.

After that, I gave my dad a few dozen dollars every two days and asked him to buy meat to deliver to grandma, but I didn't go.

The reason I found for myself was that it was too far to walk to the old house, so it would be easier for my dad to ride a motorcycle.

Moreover, my aunt will definitely take good care of her. I think.

So, I did my own thing with peace of mind until my dad suddenly told me a few days ago that your grandma is gone.

I was stunned. I suddenly realized that from now on, there will be no grandma.

Even if I have money, she can't enjoy it.

As a strong woman, my mother has been incompatible with my grandma since she married my father.

My grandmother is stronger than my mother, so she has never been optimistic about my mother since she beat my mother to marry my father.

Therefore, since I was a child, I felt that I was not as loving as my grandmother.

I always feel that she loves my aunt's son and daughter more.

Everyone said this, and I felt it from the bottom of my heart. Even my cousin who had lived with my grandma for several years had never come back after leaving my grandma's house for this reason.

He said that those years felt like we were living under someone else's roof. We did all the dirty and tiring work, and our aunt's cousin didn't have to do anything. As for us, we would be scolded if we couldn't do it well.

I told him the news of my grandmother's death a few days ago. His words still couldn't let go of the past. He didn't say that he was back or not, nor did he say anything else.

He just said, little cousin, I haven't seen her for fifteen years.

I said that from now on, in this world, we will have less than one person who truly cares about us.

He said, don't be too sad.

I said, how could it not be sad? From now on, there will be one less person who is related to us.

He still didn't say anything.

I felt a little discouraged. I remembered that when my grandfather passed away, my attitude was so lukewarm.

At that time, I was only in my teenage years old and didn’t feel sad or sad. I just felt that it was nothing to die if I grow old, but it was just a common thing in the world.

It was not until later when I grew up and when my grandfather appeared in my dreams again and again that I clearly realized that I had no grandfather anymore.

I have no grandpa anymore. I often wake up from my dreams crying.

Maybe it was because I was not sad when my grandfather passed away, so I kept living in self-blame. I dreamed again and again that my grandfather, who had passed away for many years, came back to life again.

I cooked and called him to go home for dinner.

Time and time again, again and again, his voice, appearance and smile were clearly presented in his dream, as real as it was true.

Such dreams have never stopped for years.

I blame myself and guilt, just like a shadow, always follow me.

So, there is always a grandfather who is missed in my book.

Grandpa and grandma in the forest of Golden Mountain. I have a lonely elderly man in the forest, and my dad has grandma and grandma in the plant system. Until now, my grandpa is missed the most by Liu Qingshan.

They are all just my grandfather.

Now that my grandmother has passed away, I have learned to be sad. I know that from now on, I will not have grandmother anymore, and I also know that I will cry secretly.

However, I did not learn as soon as possible that I should love a person while he was alive, rather than waiting for him to die and be sad before he left the world.

By then, no matter how many tears shed, it will be in vain.

Money can never be made, but people will not wait for you forever.

So, love should be as early as possible and don’t be free.

Now, I may have learned it.
Chapter completed!