"Do you know what hatred is? Hatred is the kind that can burn you, storm your mind, and confuse your reason. It often makes you impulsively do whatever it takes. And I am fighting this feeling every day."

"It's been four years, under this almost crazy self-suppression, even the Fire Man has become an Ice Man!" Xiu Yi murmured.

Lilith looked at Xiuyi in front of her in shock, listening to him telling everything she had endured on Purgatory Island for four years. It was not until that moment that she finally understood what kind of psychological struggle Xiyi had experienced.

She finally believed that it was definitely a very difficult process.

Just like every time she thinks of Kevin Beals, she grits her teeth with hatred. At that time, Shuyi was like Lilith facing a group of Kevin Beals every day, and then she had to flatter her smile and work hard.

She asked herself that if it were herself, she would never be able to be so tolerant.

Maybe she had already stood up and had a life and death with the enemy.

Of course, the person who fails must be himself.

Looking at Lilith who was awakened, Xiu Yi suddenly smiled, his voice full of sadness:

"Yes, I used to want to shout at the sun every day, and tell me that I want to live a good life. But God didn't give me this opportunity!"

Although Xiu Yi's voice was very light, the power filled with the words violently hit Lilith.

"So I changed myself, forced my character to change, and make myself deeper, more rational, and more efficient in doing things."

"I must learn to analyze people. From the moment I meet the other person, I analyze the other person's personality traits, whether there is a value that can be used by me, make plans for the future from the beginning, and ensure that the plan cannot be made any mistakes."

"When I was on Purgatory Island, I made hundreds of plans, each of which had to be carefully considered and repeatedly verified, so as to ensure that no mistakes could be made. Even so, I had to prepare various backup plans to respond."

"Four years, Lilith, I've become accustomed to this kind of life. I found that I finally didn't have to force myself to twist myself anymore. Because I reshaped myself. Reshaped according to the principle that survival needs to be improved."

“That’s why I survived.”

Speaking of this, Xiu Yi chuckled softly.

"Don't you want to know why I insisted on fighting the Lance Empire to the end? That's why. I hate them far more than you imagined. They made me lose my best time, let me live in a painful hell, and even forced me to twist and change my personality. I am like a beast, everything I have is only considered from the perspective of survival, I have made myself a upgradeable combat machine. People like me, if there is no battle, cannot reflect my value. So who can I fight with?"

"Only the Lance Empire." Xiuyi said firmly.

"You don't have to do this, you have many ways to prove yourself."

"Yes, but not better than now. Do you know? There is something in the world called volcanoes. During the years of time, they spend most of their time sleeping. But when they wake up one day, they will produce the power to destroy the world. It is even more terrifying and powerful than the forbidden spell magic in this world."

"Lilith, I am that volcano. My hatred has accumulated into a sea of ​​fire, burning wildly. I need to give them a space to release, and only in this way can they not rush out at once, destroy everything, and destroy myself."

"Oh, my god." Lilith exclaimed softly.

In order to survive, Xiuyi covered his exterior with a thick layer of ice shell.

But this does not change the fact that he was once a passionate boy.

As he walked toward that moment, the volcanic ice shell began to melt and the flames in his heart burned in full bloom.

At that time, Xiu Yi knew that the hatred in his heart could only be washed away with a huge amount of blood.

He doesn't want his twisted soul to control himself.

But this is not easy.

He needs to walk in this world to feel the warmth of this world, let more sunshine shine on himself, and warm his cold heart again.

But in this process, he also needs a channel to vent his anger and hatred.

Choosing to confront the empire and pointing the target of revenge is a dangerous and clever way.

The danger is that during this confrontation, he may fail and die at any time.

The cleverness is that this method is indeed very effective.

Killing enemies with designated targets through passive defensive counterattacks can not only vent anger and hatred, relieve stress, but also prevent yourself from being lost in killing.

Looking for the sunshine in the blood of revenge and walking out of tomorrow is undoubtedly the best solution.

"Yes, do you understand? I'm not the Shuiglair you know. There is no Shuiglair like that in this world, because it's just an illusion. He is neither deep nor wise. On the contrary, this is a pervert who has caused distortion in his heart during his four-year prison life. The only thing that is thankful is that this pervert still has a ray of sunshine and remaining rationality in his heart. So he quickly found a way out."

"So I give up peace. Because I need a channel to vent. I don't want to be the volcano that accumulates strength and erupts in the last moment, burning everything. If you want to know my true purpose, then this is the real thing. Walking in the world allows me to feel the sunshine of life, believe in the beauty of life, and maintain a person's conscience and morality; killing those who pursue me can bring me the pleasure of satisfaction, give me the pleasure of revenge, and vent my anger; a powerful opponent, the crisis of survival, allows me to always be sober and rational, so that I will not fall into madness and chaos."

"The last reason... is to make me stronger quickly."

Xiu Yi murmured, pouring out all the hardships and tortures in his heart. Over the years, he had never told anyone what he thought. In everyone's eyes, this young man is mysterious, powerful, and even terrifying.

Until this moment, he finally let Lilith see something fragile on the deep and calm side, but he demonstrated it tightly and was not discovered by anyone.

Lilith felt something, she hugged Xiuyi and pressed her plump chest: "The method you chose is too lonely. Now, I will share this pressure with you."

"Thank you, that's exactly what I need." Xiu Yi whispered.

On the banks of the river, two people snuggled together, no longer like a sibling, but like a lover.
Chapter completed!