Andrew and Renly. In a sense, they are like the same person inside and outside the mirror.

Andrew was a 19-year-old boy who entered the Juilliard School in Shelver's real world; then gained Fletcher's favor, entered the college's top jazz band, and became the youngest musician in the band of all time.

On the one hand, he was inferior, from his father's ridicule and disdain, and from his confusion and difficulties, and he was always unsure whether he could truly achieve his goal; on the other hand, he firmly believed that his dream was to become another Charlie Parker or Buddy Ricky, and he refused to give up and compromise, and continued to move forward regardless of the situation like a bull.

The first rehearsal of the jazz band was contradictory to Andrew.

He was nervous, worried that his performance might not keep up with the rhythm of the band and made embarrassment in front of all the top musicians; but he was proud, fantasizing that his performance could come out of nowhere, and his skills were amazing. He climbed to the top of the pyramid overnight, enjoying all the applause and lights.

It was in this kind of excitement, anxiety, expectation and anxiety that Andrew joined the band's rehearsal for the first time. But everything fell apart in the face of Fletcher's storm. Before he could touch the peak, he had already fallen into the bottomless abyss.

The same goes for Renley.

He seemed confident on the outside, but he was not confident deep down, and even inferior. He always had a hint of doubt and hesitation about himself. However, he did not give up easily, but ran towards his dreams, devoted himself to his whole heart, praised him again and again, success again and again, and recognized him step by step to climb to the top.

Inevitably, he still got lost and began to be at a loss.

He needs to find his original intention, he needs to be a wake-up call, and he needs motivation to move forward.

So he voluntarily became Andrew, breaking the boundary between illusion and reality. Even after the filming, he refused to completely get rid of the performance state and always immersed in Andrew's world.

Those pride, confidence, expectations, and dreams were all broken and broken in Fletcher's thunder, fleeing around like a dog with a family, muddy and embarrassed, but they could not find a place to live. They could only tremble in the cold and shame and wander for a long time.

He carefully hid himself in the darkness and licked his wounds alone.

He wasn't sure if this was the right method, and whether he could find the right outlet, and whether he chose a way that was too stupid and too clumsy, but... no one could have the answer, right?

Because he was the first actor in history to create such a record. There were no ancients, no visitors, no reference objects, and no consulting models. He could only grop in the darkness, like a blind man, and constantly hitting the south wall, even if he hit the south wall, he would not look back, but stupidly expecting that he could break through the south wall.

This is the only way he knows.

He needs to firmly remember that sense of shame, and then firmly remember that humility and dedication, and further firmly remember the original intention of the dream.

Awards are very important, awards are very important, no one can deny this, and it can even be said to be the key criterion for measuring history to measure the weight of life in the industry, not just the film industry, literature, painting, science and technology, education, brokerage, politics/politics, etc., all aspects of life are no exception, and Renli naturally also includes it.

But awards can lie.

It is not the meaning of "lie", but the illusion of the times. Because the awarding of each award has important significance at various levels such as the times, history, and society.

In 1989, the movie "Driving for Miss Daisy" focused on the phenomenon of whites and blacks in the southern United States was an epoch-making work that year. Although the apartheid system had been abolished for many years, the deep-rooted discrimination still revealed a strong impact in all aspects. In the end, the film became the first work in history to win the best film without nomination for the Best Director at the following year.

Back then, this was a big and small unpopular one. Twenty-four years later, "Escape from Tehran" became the second work in history to create such a success.

After time passes, from an artistic perspective, the "Paradise Cinema" or "Good Guy" in the same year are better and more classic choices, and the "Born on July 4" who won the Best Director Award in the same year is also a work worthy of recognition.

This is not to say that "driving for Miss Daisy" is not outstanding enough. In fact, the top of this work has truly changed social phenomena and has an important role in promoting the elimination of racial estrangements. This is a work of historical significance, and Oscars have also taken a crucial step.

Art creation is not only for cultivating sentiment, but also for promoting society. Just as the Korean movie "melting pot" directly promoted the "melting pot" Act, the so-called politics/political/correctness is originally correct, because this is an important part of the driving force for social progress. If the so-called "correctness" is lacking, after art and society are disconnected from it, their own spirit and meaning will disappear.

The reason why I give examples is to emphasize that every award is timely. Only by combining the original background and social phenomena can we understand the status and role of awards in the long river of history. Therefore, awards will "lie"; but the work itself will not.

Or rather, art will not lie.

Alfred Hitchcock's "Butterfly Dream", "Back Window", "Psycho", and other works will not be outdated even after sixty or seventy years; Stanley Kubrick's "2001 Space Odyssey", "Clockwork Orange", "Shirting", "All Metal Case", and other works can still influence generations of artistic creators.

These works have passed by awards for various reasons, but time has still proved their greatness and has been renewed forever.

After egot, Lan Li always said this. In the face of congratulations from colleagues, blessings from friends, and interviews from reporters, Lan Li said this. However, no matter how he speaks, his mentality and actions cannot be changed at will. He needs to truly take action.

He could not be sure whether the movie "Breaking Drummer" and the character Andrew will be famous in history, but that's not the point. The point should be that he will focus wholeheartedly on the role and performance, just as Andrew will focus wholeheartedly on drumming skills.

Let go of the historical records for the time being, put aside the attention of the crowd, and let go of the past and past, and truly return to the most basic and primitive place with a down-to-earth attitude, and start from scratch again. From this perspective, the relationship between Renly and Andrew is becoming more and more similar and overlapping.

He needs a breakthrough.

But, how should he break through? How can he break through? Can he complete the breakthrough?

"Have you rushed or dragged it?"

"Jesus-Heroes-Christ! When did Sherver start to recruit mentally retarded?"

"You can't even read the music score, right?"

"You are just a dog/shit/mother/cannon with no prospects, no value or friends."

"You must be very uncomfortable. Are you feeling very uncomfortable now?"

...

"You don't have talent."

"Look, those are geniuses. True geniuses are not only talented and abilities, but also the ability to appreciate and recognize. They know what they are good at and what they are not good at. They know how to stop losses and give up in time. Only in this way can they reach the peak. You? You are not. You are just a mediocre person who works tirelessly. Do you know who else is like this? Plowing ox."

"This is the stupidest and boring show I've ever seen."

"Dream? God, are you sure you are a Hall?"

"Shut up. Shut up! Shut up! You don't understand whether you have talent. Don't you even know when you should shut up?"

"Phillip, Philip, take him away. I'm having a big headache now and I can't handle these boring things."

"Everyone thinks they are special, everyone thinks they are genius, everyone thinks they are unique, but I tell you, no. They are not, and neither are you."

"You are not stupid, you should at least know how to give up."

"You're just another fool."

"You should stop."

...

"That's impossible, you know."

"A good dream, I've been lying on the hospital bed for the rest of my life. Since I'm dreaming, why not make it bigger? Right?"

"Actor? Haha, you're a humorous guy."

"You mean, are you an actor in your head?"

"Dreams are everyone's freedom. I just want to be an astronaut. It's a dream that can never be seen, right?"

"Anyway, daydreaming is the only thought. Don't laugh at him."

...

"Now start practicing hard, Neiman."

What should he do? What should he do now?

He is not a waste, he is not a fool, he is not a daydream, he can, he firmly believes that he can realize his dream, and no difficulties can defeat him:

He will stand up, he will fight back, he will regain the initiative, he will prove himself, he will make all those contemptuous eyes lower their heads and admit their mistakes, he will stand under the spotlight, he will have his own stage and time, and he will be famous in history.

But, what should he do? The disturbing thoughts were trapped in his mind, as if imprisoned in a cage, which was slowly shrinking. The panic and depression, the affliction and fear were making him lose his composure, and his whole body began to tremble.

He will suffocate.
Chapter completed!