Chapter 233 I'm Not Worth It(1/2)
"I'm Busy" is already the eighth album released by Jay Chou. Since his official debut in 2000, he has maintained the frequency of creation of one work a year;
The close cooperation with the famous Taiwanese lyricist Fang Wenshan has made this once unimaginable musical genius become a king-level figure in the Chinese music scene.
Long Tian still remembers that when he first heard this slightly vague sound in early 2001, whether it was the hazy, expectant and joyful "Star Qing" that describes the first love, or the "*** Castle" that incorporates the Western style;
Or maybe the "Cute Woman" that doesn't understand but feels sweet, or the "Bullfighting" that has a very cool chorus, he has completely fallen into Jay's unique music world.
Looking back on the days I have passed over the years, Long Tian has also become a loyal fan. He will listen to every album very seriously and learn to sing;
When I was a student, I didn’t have enough funds and I would buy pirated tapes. I still studied the shoddy lyrics with careful words;
Now that living conditions have improved, the listening tools have long been replaced with more professional players such as mp3, mp4, cd, md, etc., or they can be played directly on the computer.
Strangely, listening to music is not as happy as before. It seems that it takes longer to learn a song than before.
Correspondingly, the news about obtaining new songs seems to be less well-versed than before.
In the past, whenever there were new songs, they would be played with tweeters all over the streets. When I returned home, I could easily know the hottest songs of all kinds of music programs on weekly and monthly charts;
Nowadays, we rarely watch TV. The source of information is mainly based on the Internet. If you turn on a computer for a few days, you will be able to get a distance from the outside world.
Click the play button to start the entire album playing, and Jay's familiar voice came again;
Long Tian listened very seriously, and it was still the familiar smell, as if he brought him back to that ignorant student era;
There was a familiar figure not far away, waving to him, smiling like a flower, and the scenes of the past rose in my mind again.
When the 7th song was played, it was his favorite style of slow-shaking and sad love songs. The melody was very soothing and it felt a bit resonant when it was heard;
He took a look at it specifically and knew that the song was called "I Don't Deserve", and then opened the lyrics page;
Looking at the lyrics displayed on those sentences, it feels like they were written for themselves;
The excited Long Tian felt empathy, and the two lines of tears could not stop, and they burst out from his eyes:
The street is too crowded, too many people have secrets
There was fog on the glass, and the back was shining into the past
The emotions on your face are missing the rain
This little trick is too crooked and can't go back to the story
This day is no longer green, and it has been a few more mottled sentences
I am in the big house with the rest of my memories
The tables and chairs in the cinema are far away
There is no rivalry in the relationship, you play chess with yourself
It's too late to write down your about
Describe how I love you, but you left me with a smile
This feels wrong, I'm trying to save it back
Some thoughtful feelings I didn't give
You pout, your wish is humble, you are compromising
Ignore you, you just want someone to accompany you
This feels wrong, I finally understand
You are so tired of reading the plot page by page
You have shed tears for me several times.
And I'm heartbroken and you suffer, I don't deserve your beauty
When Long Tian opens MV, he looks at the story scene with clear plot and clear development clues, accompanied by this appropriate musical melody;
Long Tian's goosebumps all over his body stood up. For the first time in his 20 years of birth, he had such a strong sense of shock.
The plot is not complicated. It tells the story of a male star falling in love with an ordinary girl, but eventually her relationship is shattered due to various taboos.
Jay Chou personally took charge of the male lead. He played the role of the true character and interpreted his personal experiences and feelings to the fullest, which also added a lot of color to this MV.
The beginning of mv is a girl calling the male protagonist, but the male protagonist who is busy with work never pays attention to her;
Looking at her lonely appearance, she could understand that this was a flashback method, and she learned that she, who was neglected, decided to break up with the male lead;
But even in such a field, the male protagonist still couldn't respond immediately;
This is a support for the heroine's idea of separation and a mockery of her past unrealistic thoughts.
Just the opening scene firmly grasped Long Tian’s heart. Isn’t this telling the story between him and Shuangyu?
He once hated Shuangyu very much, resented her for being so ruthless, and her disagreement really made him feel very painful.
Seeing this scene at this moment, he fell into deep thought and reflected on himself deeply.
The college entrance examination is the most important moment for a student. He thinks he loves her, but he is invisible at this time. Where is he when she needs someone to accompany her the most?
I always ignore her repeatedly on the grounds of competition. At that time, I would deceive myself and use "for the future" to perfunctory myself. Now I think about it, all these reasons are so pale.
She is not an extremely strong woman, and can face any storm;
To put it bluntly, she is just an ordinary little girl who will panic when encountering things and cry when she is sad;
When I was lonely, I wanted to have a broad shoulder to lean on myself. When I had difficulties, he immediately appeared and took good care of her.
After examining what I have done for her over the years?
What effect can those pitifully few times accompanying you?
The only normal thing is to send her living expenses on time every month, but how can these material support be compared with the meticulous and complex spiritual needs?
mv continues to show it down. The heroine, with the unique coquettishness of Taiwanese girls, fully demonstrates her charm and charm of acting cute to her boyfriend and seeking love;
However, due to various restrictions from celebrities, the male protagonist repeatedly pushed his girlfriend's tenderness away, which eventually led to the two of them getting farther and farther away to the end.
This serious mismatch between supply and demand also clearly reflects that the male and female protagonists are not people from the same world, and this is the real reason for the shattered relationship.
The biggest pain that has plagued me over the past few months has also found the reason here;
After watching this scene, Long Tian felt relieved and couldn't help but sigh deeply.
I am not the same as Shuangyu. Not only are my own career plans, but there are actually big gaps in my personal habits, preferences, and opinions on things;
Looking back on the more than two years together, the reason why the relationship between the two has been able to move forward is that he is blindly giving;
These efforts are not rewarded. In Long Tian’s opinion, this should be true for his girlfriend. As long as she is happy, nothing else matters.
However, he did not understand one thing: a correct way of getting along with each other should be in a state of basic balance, and both men and women were like they were at both ends of the balance;
Only when both sides work together can this relationship grow up healthily;
If one side does not give, or even gives too much, far exceeding the other side, then it will lose balance and eventually it will only lead to a shattered ending.
It was not until this moment that he truly understood this principle, although it was very late, at least he finally realized it;
It helps him let go of the resentment in his heart, grow up as soon as possible, sweep away the past and load new hopes.
After watching the entire MV and listening to the song, Long Tian became stunned again;
Just as he put down the big stone in his heart, he felt much more relaxed;
My mood became much lighter and a rare smile appeared on my face.
The smile no longer looks as bitter as before, but it feels like relief. The expression on the face has been stretched a lot, and the eyebrows are no longer tightened.
He thought about it for a long time, but finally decided to call Shuangyu.
Her phone call was asked for it very early through Luo Dong, who was also studying in Guilin, but she had never had the courage to call it;
At this moment, he felt relieved and seemed to have found a legitimate reason to convince himself to make the call on his own initiative.
It felt like he had been waiting for a long time, as if he had been centuries. He wanted to hang up for a while, but in the end he persuaded himself to persevere;
The phone was connected, and the familiar and unfamiliar voice came from the receiver of the phone: "Hey, hello, who?"
"Shuangyu." He didn't know what to say, and after simply responding to her name, he fell into a silence like death.
I was stunned for a while on the other end of the phone, and then I quickly reacted: "Oh, it's you, is there anything you need to ask me for? Yes, how could you have my number?"
Long Tian thought for a while and replied to the question that he had answered: "Shuangyu, thank you."
When she heard this inexplicable sentence, she was completely confused and asked suspiciously: "What do you thank me?"
"Thank you for being in my life." He answered affirmatively.
Hearing this tone, Shuangyu didn't seem to be making fun of her, she said lightly: "Don't say that either. I don't have such a great contribution, it's all fate."
Long Tian’s head was blank and he could no longer find any words. In fact, calling this phone today was just a compromise, succumbing to his true inner thoughts;
After finding the reason to not hate her, he wanted to hear her voice that had disappeared for a long time, and there was a lot of reluctance hidden deep in his heart;
The purpose was achieved at this moment, and he really didn't know how to maintain this abrupt call.
Finally, I spoke out on the other end of the phone: "Longtian, I am grateful for the call you called today. I know you hate me very much-"
As soon as he heard her say this, he immediately interrupted her excitedly: "No! Shuangyu, I no longer hate you. Really, otherwise I wouldn't have called this."
To be continued...