Chapter 40

"Miyagaki has a premeditated plan... If he wants to destroy me, he has to make you fall in love with him... He wants to destroy my beliefs and kill the meaning of my existence... Have you forgotten that he pretended to be me and was ill-behaved to you... He doesn't love you, you are just a tool she used..."

"No...not that!"

"Yaya, be awake, don't be deceived by him..."

"Qingyin, was it you who cut your wrists against Miyagi..."

"Yes! He insults you and violates you, I won't let him go like that! Yaya, I will definitely take over Miyagi's body, I will always be by your side..."

"Don't do this... Qingyin..."

In the darkness, the figure of the man approached her, his eyes full of hope and desire.

He knelt in front of her and grabbed his hand, "Yaya, I miss you very much... Only you can let me come out! Yaya, call me with your heart! I really miss you so much... You locked me up for too long... Can you let me come out... Yaya, I beg you..."

He held her and begged her.

Shu Yanan was in a state of chaos and said at a loss: "You are out, what should Gongyuan do...what should he do..."

A cold hatred flashed in the man's eyes, but he looked at her eyes, full of painful begging, "I just want to come out to see you... let me see you... Don't lock me up like this anymore..."

"Yaya, if you don't let me come out, I will go crazy... I will kill Miyagi... This time it's a wrist cut, and next time, I will insert the knife into his heart..."

Shu Yanan's heart was shaking, "No!"

"Let me come out... Yaya... As long as I come out... I won't occupy Miyagi's body for too long... Let me come out and look at you..."

Shu Yanan was completely disorganized.

"Call me with your heart... Yaya, call me with your heart..."

Shu Yanan suddenly flicked and sat up, sweating on his forehead.

It was the second half of the night that a faint orange wall light was lit in the special care room, and the quiet moonlight was thrown into the window.

Shu Yanan turned his head and saw Gongyuan open his eyes.

"What's wrong?"

Gong Yuan asked, and he had to get up as soon as he acted.

Shu Yanan hurriedly stabilized him and lay down again, "It's nothing, I just had a nightmare."

Miyagi stretched out his hand, walked around her shoulder, hugged her in his arms, patted her back gently, and said softly, "Don't be afraid."

In the quiet night, his voice was softer than ever before.

Shu Yanan looked up at him and saw his eyes as bright as stars, shining with clear light.

She thought of the person she saw in the surveillance video. Her distorted face was hysterical and mad, sometimes she was sinister and cruel, sometimes she was completely disappointed, sometimes she was sad and desperate... Her heart was mixed, and she couldn't help but feel hot.

It turns out that Miyagi can also have such pure and watery eyes, and these eyes are so beautiful.

She buried her arms in the palace and couldn't help but burst into tears.

The salty and cold liquid flowed on her skin. Miyagi raised Shu Yanan's face, wiped her rolling tears, and asked in a low voice, "Why are you crying?"

"I just dreamed of Qingyin..." Shu Yanan choked and said, "He said he wanted to come out..."

Miyagi's face changed.

"Do you miss him very much?"

Miyagi turned over and leaned over Shu Yanan with a tense expression. He looked into her eyes and said, "Do you want to call him out?"

"I..." Shu Yanan was very entangled, tears flashing in her eyes, "I have always felt guilty in my heart when I forced him away last time..."

Miyagi looked at her tears, his expression changed several times.

Under the quiet moonlight, her simple face was filled with helplessness and melancholy. He could see clearly and felt an unknown feeling in his heart.

It seemed that her pain could touch his nerves and make him even more painful.

Finally, his fingers rubbed her face, wiped her tears, and said softly, "If you want to see Qingyin, just call him out..."

"You...why..." Shu Yanan couldn't believe that Miyagi would say such things.

Didn’t he hate those personalities the most?

Isn't it irreconcilable with them?

Gongyuan lowered his head, buried it between her neck, and said hoarsely: "Yaya, I don't want to fight alone again... I don't have the strength... If your choice is not me, let it end..." He would rather never wake up in the dark.

Shu Yanan's heart trembled suddenly!

She seemed to see his despair in the video again... It was the desolate and powerlessness of being taken away from everything, and the abandonment of all despair compromise... She would rather see the strong and domineering palace than wither like a tigress... It seemed that a string that had been tense was suddenly torn off, losing all tension and vitality...

"Yaya, call him and let him come out..." Miyagi raised his head again and looked at Shu Yanan's eyes and said.

"No!"

Shu Yanan blurted out.

The sudden fear made her bone marrow cold all over her body. She hugged Miyagi into her arms with force, "...Don't do this!"

"I know you're working hard, you've been holding on for too long, but don't give up?

You are not working hard alone... I am here! I will never give up again, I will always be with you!"

She choked and said, "...Yanyuan, you are a unique existence, and no one can replace you."

"Yaya..." he whispered, "Yaya..." His hoarse voice seemed to be unable to make any other notes.

He snuggled in her arms like a baby... without strong arms, no hard shell, no cold arrogance... He peeled off his naked soul, pressed against her heart, and listened to her heartbeat.

He said nothing, but Shu Yanan felt so clearly his dependence and fragility.

She turned over, leaned on Miyagi, and kissed him hard.

After a deep and lingering kiss, she held his face and looked at him with tears in her eyes and said, "Yanyuan, no one can replace you... because they are all just a part of you... Let's work together to put together all the fragments that belong to you, okay?"

He looked at her quietly.

"Don't reject, don't resist... Yuanyuan, you are you, you will not disappear, you will not be replaced... Picking up those fragments will make you a better and more complete person."

"Will you love me then?"

He raised his hand, his fingertips soaked in her tears, and looked deep into her eyes, "It's no longer sympathy, it's love... As long as it can be exchanged for your love, I will do my best..."

"like."

Shu Yanan looked at him and looked at himself in his pupils, "I love you.

No matter whether you can spell those pieces or not, I love you.

Because I love you, I hope you can get out of the darkness, get rid of nightmares, and become a complete and happy person.”

Miyagi hugged Shu Yanan hard in his arms, preventing her from seeing her tears rolling suddenly.

She asked again: "Is it OK, Yuanyuan, accept them and turn them into a part of you."

He stroked her hair, twitched his dry throat, and choked, "As long as you love me... you will listen to you..."

Shu Yanan smiled with tears.

This man was so fragile that he had thick and hard thorns on his body.

But when he stabs others, the thorns that grow on his body also cause him to be bruised.

As long as he gives him very definite love and eliminates his inner insecurity, he will pull out all the thorns by himself.

He will become purer than anyone else and desire love more.

The next day, Shu Yanan accompanied Gongyuan all day.

The two of them no longer had any shadow of quarrels and cold wars, they were like the sweetest couple.

Eat, talk, kiss, and look at each other's satisfied smiles.

But some things have changed inadvertently.

For example, he knew how to see her face.

For example, he would listen to her...

That night, when Shu Yanan was about to leave, Gongyuan grabbed her and said, "Will you stay with me for another night?"

Seeing his pitiful look as if he was looking for caressing like a puppy, Shu Yanan stopped moving.

Late at night, the two kissed on the bed, and Shu Yanan was about to suffocate and fled from his mouth.

She gasped and joked: "Ming Dada has changed his temper and actually eats vegetarian food instead of meat."

Miyagi turned over, lay down aside, took a few deep breaths, and said in a hoarse voice: "I want...but you don't want...I can tolerate..."

After experiencing the torture of life worse than death, he dared not do whatever he wanted.

As long as she can be with her, I won’t force anything else.

Shu Yanan leaned on his chest and smiled softly.

Could it be that she was suppressed by his momentum before, that she actually enjoyed seeing Miyagi's compromise...
To be continued...