Chapter 174 I won't bear her anymore
This medicine is risky, and if the dosage is not appropriate, it may really die.
Rong Ruiji ate without hesitation. She said that in her eyes, this is nothing compared to freedom.
So Rong Ruiji forced herself to vomit blood that night after worshiping Tiandi, and she failed to let the prince of Yunfan touch her body for more than a month.
This is the price of her freedom.
Yes, the princess escaped is not a fairy tale.
What lay in the tomb was a secretly changed dress and the tombs, they deceived the world. The princess had to bear guilt all her life, and she also had to fall into the troubles of food, rice, oil and salt.
However, Gu Wanqing decided to do the last thing for her.
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On the tenth day after the princess was buried, it finally stopped snowing.
Gu Wanqing changed into a men's clothing in black, put on two beards, and rode a horse to Wuyou Temple alone.
"I want to see Abbot Xuan Si."
She stood in front of an incense burner and said.
The little monk who greeted him shook his head, "The abbot has been sick these days and has not seen anyone. Please come back."
Gu Wanqing took out an envelope and smiled and said, "I am a doctor and I have brought my secret recipe from my ancestors. I want to cure the abbot's illness."
The little monk shook his head again, "This donor, the abbot, said, I will not see anyone."
"Then, tell him that I am his old friend's friend, and if there are very important things to pass on to."
The little monk agreed.
After a while, Gu Wanqing was invited by the little monk to Wuyou Temple.
Xuan Si was sitting by the window in the room. His face looked very ugly, and he seemed to be seriously ill. His lips were white and his eyes were black, without the handsome appearance of Gu Wanqing last time he saw him.
The first time she saw Monk Xuan Si, a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, "The abbot is a lovesickness."
After closing the door, Xuan Si looked at her carefully and confirmed that she didn't know her.
"Who are you?"
"The eldest princess' friend."
Xuan Si's eyes were very complicated for a moment, and Gu Wanqing could probably read out what he wanted to ask.
Regarding how Rong Ruiji died of illness, or did she leave any last words before her death.
Gu Wanqing sat down very consciously, poured the hot tea, and tasted it, which was ridiculously bitter.
"On the day the eldest princess was buried, all the people in Yan'an City went, but the person she wanted to see the most did not go. Abbot, would you please, will the princess be disappointed?" Gu Wanqing asked.
He was like a skinny old man, slowly sitting down on the desk, answering questions that were irrelevant, "Is it painful for her to leave?"
Gu Wanqing replied lightly: "Is this very important? When she comes back to see you, have you seen her in pain? Didn't you see her in pain when you abandon her and become a monk? No matter how painful it is, it is not like this."
Her words did not have any emotional ups and downs, but every word was heartbreaking, which made Xuan Si frown deeply.
Xuan Si looked up at her, her eyes turned red, "What do you want to say to me today... Is there anything she wants to say to me before leaving?"
Gu Wanqing raised her eyebrows and smiled: "There are indeed some things, but I will choose not to tell you."
"How can you tell me?"
"Actually, you know that with her personality, you have married to such a faraway place and are far away from your relatives, especially if you can't meet again in your life. Her death is actually inevitable. Since you know it is inevitable, why didn't you keep her at the beginning?"
Xuan Si looked painful, "There is no way to stay, I just hope she lives well..."
Gu Wanqing expressed her understanding and asked again, "Do you regret it?"
Xuan Si is silent.
Gu Wanqing stared at his stubborn silence.
Finally, Xuan Si nodded.
Gu Wanqing chuckled, "Actually, you have regretted it since before, right? But you didn't even notice it. You were sad at that time, and wanted to escape life, so you left your promise with the princess. But the princess did not give up. She wanted to be with you all the time, and she kept working hard for it. The queen passed away many years ago, which made her even more determined. But you never knew her."
Xuan Si's Adam's apple rolls, and his mentality is facing collapse.
He stood up, grabbed the windowsill with both hands, and sang: "Yes! That's right! I have always loved her, and my six senses have never stopped quiet. But I still yearn for a life without desires and no desires. I am in pain, and I don't want her to suffer too! Actually, I understand in my heart that I am just afraid to face it. Even if I have not become a monk, I don't have the courage to face the emperor's accusations. I am not sure that she can love me forever... I feel from the bottom of my heart that I am not worthy of the princess at all!..."
That's why he chose to escape, trying to escape for the rest of his life.
If it weren't for the death of the eldest princess, he would never have figured out that he was an unmovable rock in her heart.
"She is not dead." Gu Wanqing's voice was as light as the wind and dust, not very real.
Xuan Si stopped his breath and turned to look at her, "What did you say?"
"She ran away from marriage for you. You should know that she didn't like the imperial family, and she had no choice but to go to Yunfan Kingdom, so how could she stay peacefully."
She handed the handwritten letter from Rong Ruiji to Xuan Si, "She wrote it to you."
Gu Wanqing had never opened the letter and didn't know how the princess told him.
But the princess was probably ready to leave Xuan Si, otherwise Xuan Si would not be so sad.
I think that the not-so-thick letter has both hope and despair.
So Gu Wanqing thinks that giving Xuan Si this time is the right time.
After reading the entire contents of the letter, Xuan Si's fingertips were trembling, and his voice was hoarse, "Who is the one who entered the tomb?"
Gu Wanqing did not explain, "Just think it was her previous life. Rong Ruiji is no longer a princess. She lives in a small house west of the city and is a nameless girl. If you really have feelings for her, and think of her efforts for you, go find her and give her a name."
Xuan Si looked at the sky, and the tears in his eyes fell to his jaw.
He made the most difficult and most certain decision in his life.
"I... will definitely not let her down again!"
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Gu Wanqing touched her two beards and came out of Wuyou Temple, and saw Bai Jue standing next to her horse.
She trotted and met her, with a little surprise, "Didn't I say, I'll just come alone today?"
Bai Jue held her face, was amused by the outfit, and smiled and said, "I'm not at ease. Also, I want to see how General Wanqing, a gentle and gentle person, preached to a monk. In fact, you don't have to come and go. I'll go."
Chapter completed!