Chapter 10 If I Die Young, I Wanna Cry Tonight
The night is getting deeper.
The night wind whizzed, and although it was a summer night, it was a little cold.
Jin Jingcheng, who had just sent away Jessica and Krystal, fell back into loneliness alone.
After looking at the surrounding environment, Jin Jingcheng realized that the place he is now is very close to Wall Street, which means that Stern Business School is not far ahead.
When it comes to Wall Street, the first thing that comes to mind is undoubtedly the world's top financial center. In fact, Wall Street is just the name of a large street in the southern part of Manhattan, New York City, extending from Broadway to the East River.
New York University's Stern Business School is adjacent to Wall Street and is only one step away from Wall Street. This is also an important reason why many students choose Stern Business School. Its excellent geographical location makes Stern Business School ranked among the top business schools with the highest employment rate in the world and one of the business schools with the largest number of business names.
In fact, New York University does not have a wall-like campus. Its campus is integrated with the entire New York City, and the city is integrated into the first of all universities. It can be said that New York University regards the entire New York as its campus, and 18 colleges are distributed in New York City. This unique campus, coupled with its location in the forefront of the world, New York University will make countless students yearn for it.
The slightly special one is probably Dishi Art Academy. Because it is an art category, students need a certain quiet environment, so the campus environment of Dishi Art Academy is relatively holistic compared to other colleges under New York University.
Stern Business School is the most "dispersed" college on the surface, and the one that looks the least likes the college.
The Stern Business School is based on two buildings, namely the Henry Kaufman Management Center and the Tisch Hall. The Tisch Hall is located in Washington Square. Although the surface is relatively "scattered", the Stern Business School has modern facilities and is well designed. Not only does it have housing dedicated to graduate students, it also has many apartment buildings for students to rent in the surrounding area.
Originally, Stern Business School allocated a single apartment to "That Jin Jingcheng" in graduate housing, but he refused. In order to save money, the school reduced his expenses in other aspects, and to have more time to spend with Jose and Tony.
"That Jin Jingcheng" is visionary. He is a bit introverted and is willing to spend time with Jose and Tony. In addition to the fact that they do have good friendships, it is also because he saw in advance that people like Jose and Tony, who are as talented as Jose and Tony may be helpful to his career in the future.
The facts now prove this, but this friendly investment was used by Jin Jingcheng and used on Facebook.
There is a distance between Dishi Academy of Arts and Stern Business School. On weekdays, "That Jin Jingcheng" has to run for the former's doctorate and the latter's master's degree.
Because it was summer vacation recently, and Kim Jingsung was busy with Facebook, he had never come to Stern Business School these days since he was reborn. Tonight, he felt lonely and bored, and took advantage of the time that he was very close to Stern Business School and wanted to go for a walk.
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Jin Jingcheng first went to the Henry Kaufman Management Center, and then walked to the Tisch Hall in Washington Square.
This is the first time Kim Jingcheng has come to Stern Business School now, but he is not unfamiliar with it at all, not only because "that Kim Jingcheng" has been studying here for several years, but also for another reason.
Because there is another person who has an important influence in Jin Jingcheng's memory, and this memory was also passed down by "that Jin Jingcheng".
This person is none other than "Kim Jingcheng", which is the mother of Kim Jingcheng, who is now Kim Jingcheng in this life. Her name is Kim Hyo-hee.
Tonight, Kim Jong-sung, who was wandering alone in Stern Business School, kept seeing memories of Kim Hyo-hee in his mind, two of which made him most unforgettable.
One thing is that Kim Hyo-hee once studied for graduate school at Stern Business School. It was during this period that she accidentally met Kim Jong-sung's father in this life. The two quickly fell in love, which led to the birth of "that Kim Jong-sung".
This is one of the important reasons why "That Jin Jingcheng" chose New York University and chose to have a master's degree from Seustern Business School.
Another thing is Kim Hyo-hee's death!
Yes, Kim Hyo-hee, the mother of Kim Jong-sung in this life, is no longer alive.
"That Kim Jong-sung" When he was eight years old, one night, he came back from outside to tutoring classes. As soon as he walked to his house, he suddenly heard a roaring explosion. A blazing fire accompanied by thick black smoke gushed out of his home... South Korean police defined this incident as a gas tank explosion, and Kim Hyo-hee died young in this explosion.
Kim Hyo-hee gave birth to "that Kim Jong-sung" at the age of 28, and she was only 36 years old when she died.
"That Jin Jingcheng" witnessed the explosion with his own eyes and also witnessed his mother's body. He was carried out from the burned house by firefighters and police. He witnessed his mother's tragic death and the silence when she was covered with white bed sheets...
All these painful memories were picked up by Jin Jingcheng now.
Although Jin Jingcheng has not personally felt the care of this mother in this life, and all the memories about her were passed down by "That Jin Jingcheng", since he was reborn in "That Jin Jingcheng", the mother of "That Jin Jingcheng" has become his mother, a deep family affection in the dark, as if it could flow in his blood independently.
Thinking of his premature death at the age of 32 in his previous life, Jin Jingcheng felt a deep sense of pain and confusion.
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At this time, Jin Jingcheng was sitting in a staircase classroom in the Tixi Hall.
It was already late at night, and the staircase classroom was very empty, with only some lazy light in the corner, wandering around the huge classroom space, creating a dark atmosphere, coupled with Jin Jingcheng's current mood, which seemed a little depressed.
It was in such an atmosphere that Jin Jingcheng deeply missed the dead mother in this life.
At the same time, he was deeply feeling the death of his previous life, which was a feeling of being late.
Before he knew it, Jin Jingcheng felt like he wanted to cry.
Before he knew it, two familiar melodies suddenly echoed in his mind.
These are two songs, two songs he liked very much in his previous life.
Perhaps Kim Jong-sung wrote two songs for Kim Jong-kook all at once, which inspired this part of the pain and impulse, and the pain, confusion, depression, feelings and other state of mind that he was trapped in the moment made him unable to help but want to vent in the form of singing.
So, Jin Jingcheng took out his mobile phone and turned on the recording function.
Looking at the phone, Jin Jingcheng sang two songs in his mind one after another.
"If I die young, let me bury me in silk, let me lie on a bed covered with roses, sink me into the river at dawn, and send me off with the words and phrases of love songs, OhOh, OhOh."
"Lord, let me turn into a rainbow. I want to shine on my mother. When she stands under my colorfulness, she will know that I am so peaceful with you. Life is not always as dark as you expected. Even though she buried her children, the sharp blade of life in a moment, I have lived enough time."
"If I die young, please bury me in silk, let me lie on a bed covered with roses, sink me into the river at dawn, and send me off with the words and phrases of love songs. In a moment, the sharp blade of life, I have lived enough time."
"I will walk into your kingdom in gorgeous clothes, as green as the rings on my cold fingers. I have never felt the tenderness of a woman, but when she holds my hand, it should be so beautiful. There is a woman in this town who said she will love me forever, but who knew that she would always be so apart from heaven and man. I have lived enough time."
"So please put on your crown, and I will wear the best clothes, I finally accomplished what I have never done before, I want to buy my thoughts for a cent, oh no, my bid is one dollar, and when I become the dead, they will be more valuable, maybe until then you will truly understand the songs I sing, and people will start listening after you die, how ridiculous it is!"
"If I die young, let me bury me in silk, let me lie on a bed covered with roses, sink me into the river at dawn, and send me off with the words and phrases of love songs, OhOh, OhOh."
"The songs of the doves always bring peace of love to hold your tears, put them in your pockets, and keep them well until you really need them, and I have lived enough time for a moment."
"So please wear your crown, I will wear the best clothes as well..."
This is an English song, which Kim Jingcheng sang softly in English, and the song is called "If I Die Young" and the English song is called "If-I-die-young".
This is an extremely lyrical and moving song, like a gorgeous and sad prose poem, full of continuous poetic and picturesque.
Jin Jingcheng made some modifications to the song based on his memories of his previous life.
The original song has a deeper connotation, expressing its views on life and life, and lamenting the shortness of life.
The singer who performed was originally a woman. She described in the song that if she died, she would miss her mother and want her to know that she was good and didn't have to worry about herself. Secondly, she mentioned a man, who said she would love her forever, but who would have thought that she would die at such a young age?
The song's object is "you", but in fact she is talking to herself. What she said is: "If I die, then I want to be buried in silk, lie on the bed of roses, sink to the bottom of the lake at dusk, and send me away with a song of love." It's like a last word of fantasy.
Now, the singer has become Jin Jingcheng, not only inheriting the profound connotation of the original song, but only turning a woman's lyricism into a man's lyricism, but also sublimating emotions, deeply commemorating the death of his mother in this life, and at the same time, in an obscure way, deeply commemorating his own death in his previous life.
"I am the only one left in the room tonight. I let the TV turn on like this, turn the volume down, take a bottle of wine, and look at the walls around me with photos of you and me. The past thoughts that bothered me, I still can't adapt to your departure."
"I have never let my emotions flow without scruples like this, because I always thought that a strong person would never lose control of his emotions, but I have drunk a lot of wine to try to get rid of pain and care about self-esteem. Just let tears come out of my eyes like rain. I just want to cry tonight."
"Will it be better to play a sad song? A song "Lonely Man" breaks my heart even more because you have left me. Maybe you open those yellowed love letters again. They should have been better but hurt more. The concealment will never let me go."
"I have never let my emotions flow without scruples like this, because I have always believed that a strong person will never lose control of his emotions, but I have drunk a lot of wine to try to get rid of pain and care about self-esteem. Just let tears come out of my eyes like rain. Tonight I just want to cry..."
This is also an English song. Kim Jong-sung sang it softly in English. The song is called "I Want to Cry Tonight" and the English song is called "Tonight-I-wanna-cry"
Like "If-I-die-young", this is also an extremely lyrical and moving song. If the former is like a gorgeous and sad prose poem, this song is like a diary that sooths and sad.
Jin Jingcheng directly followed the memory of the previous life, and did not modify it, but his connotation was greatly sublimated.
In his previous life, this song simply expressed the sad man's feelings for the woman who left him, and expressed the loneliness of a man when he was alone in the room. However, in Jin Jingcheng's view, this loneliness is only a kind of little lonely person.
When Jin Jingcheng sang, he used a hidden artistic conception to sublimate this small loneliness into a big loneliness.
Jin Jingcheng expressed his loneliness in this life, a child without a mother, and at the same time, he expressed his vast loneliness in a reborn person, from the macro dimension of his previous life to this life in a hidden way.
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If I die young, I want to cry tonight!
This is the mood of Jin Jingcheng tonight.
It is also two songs he created temporarily.
He is a bit macho and hates men crying easily. However, he is like this. When he finished singing these two English songs, his eyes couldn't help but quietly become wet in a vast mood that poured out.
In this late-night staircase classroom, in this empty space where he was alone, under the illumination of some lazy and dark light, a layer of crystal tears quietly appeared on the corners of his eyes.
Yes, the man couldn't cry, but there was another sentence, but he was not sad!
Unfortunately, there is no young and beautiful woman here. If there is, if she sees him like this, even if she is usually a stalwart person, she will inevitably be moved by Jin Jingcheng's appearance.
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The next morning, Jin Jingcheng walked into the office of a music professor named Wilson.
Wilson is a music professor at the Dishi Academy of Arts and a top music producer in the American music scene.
He had a passion for music and developed into a specialty, "The King Jingcheng", while studying film at the Dishi Academy of Arts, he looked for opportunities to listen to Professor Wilson's music lectures many times. Over time, and his famous academic achievements throughout New York University attracted the attention and appreciation of Professor Wilson.
Kim Jingcheng came to see Professor Wilson for nothing else, but for the two English songs he wrote last night.
These two English songs were originally created by Jin Jing to express his feelings and vent his feelings last night.
Chapter completed!