He Chen was unable to find Lin Bin at the construction site, but only met Lin Bin's eldest and second uncles. According to their stories, after Lin Bin was fired, he was not allowed to live on the construction site. It is conceivable that when he said this, the expressions of the two undoubtedly had an unspeakable heartache. According to the address given by the two, He Chen walked into a hotel near the construction site. A hotel that costs 20 yuan a day is definitely the cheapest hotel on this land, and the facts prove this. This hotel is really pitiful, with a total area of ​​less than 80 square meters, but it is divided into seven rooms. The hotel is located in a row of dilapidated

In the bungalow, in such a city, in such a geographical location, this row of bungalows is nothing more than a wounded earthworm, covered with dirty soil. Looking at the bungalow in front of you, and then looking at the construction site not far away, He Chen seemed to suddenly flashing a picture that made him uncomfortable. In the picture, a tall and magnificent office building rose up, and urban men and women dressed in bright clothes and looked hurried, constantly entering and leaving the office building. Next to the office building, a row of short and simple bungalows were fading, and a group of low and indifference migrant workers were crowded in it.

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When He Chen walked into the hotel, he met a woman mopping the floor with a mop. She looked about twenty-six or seven years old, wearing a thick pajamas. Although her face looked sleepy, she could not hide her innate beauty. In such a hotel, when he first saw such a good-looking woman, He Chen couldn't help but be surprised. The woman's expression was filled with an inexplicable coldness, which made He Chen feel that facing this woman is like facing another even colder

In He Chen's opinion, this woman's life must be unsatisfactory, otherwise she would not show such a trembling appearance in her daily living state. Habitual observation has made He Chen realize that this woman must have stories worth exploring. If it were normal, He Chen would probably have a strong interest in this woman. To be precise, he was interested in the story behind this woman. However, today, He Chen's focus was all on Lin Bin.

"Hello, do you know which room Lin Bin lives in?" He Chen asked the woman subconsciously. Based on the woman's state of sweeping the floor just now, He Chen could have confirmed that the woman must have a great relationship with this hotel. In fact, the woman is the owner of this hotel.

"Lin Bin? Is that person who is sloppy and nervous all day long?" The female boss said in a bad tone.

He Chen couldn't help but feel embarrassed when he heard this, thinking to himself that Lin Bin left this female boss's impression. After shook his mind, He Chen nodded and said, "It should be him."

The female boss turned his head disdainfully, and He Chen found the room where Lin Bin was based on his gaze's guidance.

As I imagined, this is a small and pitiful room. He Chen felt that living in such a room, even if the strong-minded person would not be able to help but feel a kind of depression. This is a kind of depression from the heart, but it originated from the external space. However, when He Chen saw Lin Bin's state, he immediately dispelled the idea that had just emerged. In He Chen's view, Lin Bin's current state was not at all depressed, but instead made people feel that he seemed intoxicated. Lin Bin was tilting on a narrow bed, staring at the small TV screen tightly, and a TV series staring Han Jiaren was being screened on the screen. He Chen took a closer look and was surprised to find that there was a dilapidated DVD projector on the small TV. Obviously, the TV series was released through this projector.

When Lin Bin heard the sound of the door opening, he didn't care. He thought that as usual, the female boss must have come in to express his dissatisfaction. However, the next moment of silence made Lin Bin turn his mind. It was not until he saw that the person coming was He Chen that he showed a surprised expression.

"Why are you here? How did you find this place? Did my eldest and second uncles tell you?" Lin Bin subconsciously exhaled a series of doubts.

He Chen did not answer Lin Bin's question directly, but instead asked: "Did you buy your DVD projector yourself?"

Lin Bin nodded and said, "Half is the money I saved, and the other half is given to me by my uncle. They originally planned to let me use this money to go around this city, but I don't have the heart to wander around."

He Chen looked at the small room again and found that apart from a bed and a cabinet for TVs, he could not even find a chair. He Chen sighed secretly, sat on the edge of the bed, and continued to ask: "When I came in just now, I saw the female boss here. It seems that you have a bad impression of her in her mind."

"You have discovered this?" Lin Bin said a little embarrassedly, "Who knows what happened to that woman? It was very wrong to see me at first sight. She always had a stern face, as if she owed her how much money she was, but she looked a little pretty."

"The environment here is very difficult." He Chen said with a change of topic.

Lin Bin said uneasyly, "What's wrong with hardship? Looking at the great men in the world, it is estimated that 99% of the people have grown up from difficult environments. I haven't heard from Mencius that, 'If God is going to give a great responsibility to this person, he must first suffer his mind and mind, exhaust his muscles and bones, starve his body, and be empty in his body, and act inconveniently, so he can't help but be able to do what he can't. If he has not been tempered by this difficult environment, how can I write the best poems, prose and novels for Han Jiaren in the future? How can I write the best script for her?"

He Chen heard this and thought to himself that Lin Bin was still immersed in his personal fantasy. After thinking about this, He Chen did not hesitate anymore and asked Lin Bin: "Are you hungry? Let's go out to eat something together."

Lin Bin nodded shyly and then quickly got up from the bed. As Lin Bin got up, He Chen's eyes naturally turned to Lin Bin's bed and found that there were some books, magazines and magazines placed at the bed, most of which were related to poetry, including poetry collections he gave to Lin Bin, poetry magazines that Lin Bin bought himself, and an entertainment magazine.

He Chen was a little confused at first when he saw the entertainment magazine, but when he looked carefully at the cover of the magazine, everything suddenly came to an end. The cover character of this entertainment magazine was Han Jiaren, and this cover photo of Han Jiaren was particularly sexy and charming, which was a bit inconsistent with her image of being pure. He is worthy of being an actor, and He Chen thought to himself that changing his image should be the most easy thing for an actor. After thinking about it, He Chen couldn't help but have another doubt, what kind of woman is Han Jiaren in daily life? You know, even though everyone will always think of purity when talking about Han Jiaren.

Modifications such as holiness, but such Han Jiaren is just Han Jiaren shaped by various media. I guess only Han Jiaren is known in daily life. Perhaps only relatives and friends around Han Jiaren will know it. Perhaps they can’t really see through it. Thinking of this, when Lin Bin thought of him, he was depressed and forgot to eat and sleep, He Chen couldn’t help but sigh, and at the same time he strengthened his opinion, that is, for people like Lin Bin, Han Jiaren is like an unattainable and unattainable sun, while Lin Bin is chasing the sun’s iceberg. The iceberg wants to enter the world of the sun, which is mostly just nonsense and fantasy.

He Chen took Lin Bin to a nearby restaurant, ordered a beef hotpot and a few dishes of stir-frying dishes, and also asked the young waitress to bring a box of beer. Seeing that He Chen had asked for a box of beer at once, Lin Bin was surprised and couldn't help but ask, "What day is today? Could it be that you have published any masterpieces?"

He Chen shook his head and said, "No matter what day it is today, we are not drunk anyway. Yes, we are not drunk anyway. We have been with you for a while. I don't know how much you can drink. Let's have a good conversation today."

"Okay, I'll just keep drunk with you. Anyway, I'm worried now, so why not just drown my sorrows by drinking." Lin Bin said.

He Chen shook his head and said, "Don't forget, I'll be even more worried when I drink to drown my sorrow."

"That's even more worrying. Anyway, with our current living conditions, we have more worries and less sorrows, and it's different?" Lin Bin said with a smile, and grabbed a bottle of beer and drank the whole bottle of beer in a flash.

Seeing this, He Chen grabbed a bottle of beer. Although he was weak and had been seriously ill since he was a child, He Chen was still a little confident about his alcohol tolerance. He originally thought that it would be no difficulty to get Lin Bin drunk, but unfortunately the result was a bit beyond his expectations. When he finally got Lin Bin drunk, He Chen became dizzy. In desperation, He Chen had to rush into the toilet and rinse his face with cold water. After rinsing for three minutes, he took out a tissue from his body and wiped away the water marks on his face. This is also a habit that He Chen developed. Whenever he was about to get drunk and he could not really get drunk, He Chen would wash his face with cold water to suppress the alcohol in his body, thereby restoring a certain degree of soberness.

After coming out of the toilet, He Chen found that Lin Bin was still drinking beer in big gulp, but he was drinking alone. Seeing He Chen back, Lin Bin hurriedly pulled him back to the table and suddenly murmured: "I think what you said last time is right. Yes, I am an iceberg, Han Jiaren is the sun I pursue. On the turbulent sea, I chased her at all costs. It is likely that because of the light and heat of the sun, it will slowly break or even melt completely. But don't forget that there is another possibility, that is, one day, my iceberg will become a real mountain, a mountain that has never been seen before, and this mountain will soar into the sky until it reaches the sun. In addition, maybe one day, the sun will become dull, no longer the sun, but become a meteor, falling from the sky and falling on me."

He Chen didn't know why Lin Bin suddenly had such an idea, but He Chen was not easy to deny this statement. Facts prove that there are indeed some people in life who originally lived at a very low level, but after their own efforts, their status became higher and higher. Some stars were indeed very dazzling at first, but later became more and more dim due to various reasons. But He Chen believed that such things would never happen between Lin Bin and Han Jiaren, because the probability was too slim, as if they were looking for a needle in a haystack, and even more difficult than looking for a needle in a haystack. He Chen always felt that those who had been in a poor life before and were dazzling later could always see any signs in the early stage, but in Lin Bin, He Chen could not see such signs at all. This was not He Chen underestimating Lin Bin, but the cruel real life had forced him to adapt to some cruel survival philosophy.

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Lin Bin was helped out of the restaurant by He Chen. When he walked out of the restaurant with a tilted back, Lin Bin was still muttering to himself, constantly talking about everything related to Han Jiaren. He Chen, who had recovered from Lin Bin's constant murmuring, found the name of another woman, Yan'er.

Wine may not necessarily drown sorrow, but it often makes people speak truth after drinking. In Hechen's opinion, Lin Bin's feeling for Yan'er after being drunk is completely trustworthy, which makes Hechen feel a sense of gratitude and also feels a little joy for Yan'er. According to Lin Bin's hesitation, Hechen found that not only Yan'er has silent concern for Lin Bin, but also hides the clear love of Lin Bin, but Lin Bin also has the same love for Yan'er, but this feeling is given by Lin Bin's obsession with Han Jiaren.

Just cover it up. He Chen further discovered that Lin Bin's admiration for Yan'er was even earlier than Yan'er's admiration for Lin Bin, and it could even be traced back to the early years when Lin Bin was working in the countryside. According to Lin Bin's statement after drinking, at that time, whenever he worked in the fields, he was so eager to see the beautiful and beautiful geese, and so eager to hear the clear and moving songs in Yan'er's mouth. Lin Bin also said that his favorite smell was the romantic fragrance of flower dew on Yan'er's body.

All the words Lin Bin said about Yan'er were heard by Yan'er because Yan'er was waiting for him outside the restaurant. He Chen was originally a little secretly proud of this, but Lin Bin just finished speaking Yan'er, and the topic turned to Han Jiaren.

Lin Bin told his admiration for Han Jiaren. As he was talking, under He Chen's guidance, Lin Bin raised his head and indeed saw the Han Jiaren in his mind, the Han Jiaren who looked at him and shook hands with him at the concert. He saw that he was wearing a pair of white jeans on the bottom and a white down jacket on the top and a milky white sweater on the bottom, which had a unique holy charm and full of ladylikeness. This dress was exactly the same as Han Jiaren's dress on the stage that day.

"Han Jiaren." Lin Bin shouted subconsciously in a daze, and at the same time, he walked forward involuntarily.

Seeing this, Yan'er hurriedly supported Lin Bin, and glanced at He Chen behind Lin Bin. At this moment, He Chen had an inexplicable smile on the corner of his mouth, and then he turned around and left silently.

Yan'er helped Lin Bin into a hotel that had been opened long ago. This was a single standard room. Everything in the room was simple but exquisite. Yan'er put Lin Bin down on the bed, and she squatted beside Lin Bin, with a pretty little face approaching Lin Bin's nostrils that were constantly increasing their breathing. Soon, Yan'er's lips were pressed against Lin Bin's lips.

With a light stick, Yan'er left and said, "Brother Bin, you are tired, will Yan'er help you with massage?"

"Yan'er, Yan'er, Han Jiaren, Han Jiaren..." Lin Bin muttered in a daze.

Seeing this, Yan'er smiled slightly, took off her shoes, climbed onto Lin Bin, stretched out a pair of clean little hands, and gently kneaded Lin Bin's back. It has to be said that Yan'er's massage looks very unfamiliar. As he said to He Chen before, he really is not very good at massage. Even so, Yan'er always had a beautiful smile on her cheeks, and the smile was full of concern and admiration. All this concern and admiration was undoubtedly for Lin Bin.

"Yan'er, Yan'er, Han Jiaren, Han Jiaren..." Lin Bin was still muttering in a daze, opening his eyes in a daze, looking at the woman on his body in a daze, Lin Bin finally couldn't help but hold it in his heart, and then he hugged it in his arms, then crushed it under his body, allowing the ocean of desire to swell freely, and let himself sink into the swamp of desire. Lin Bin kept making heavy breathing sounds, and the sound seemed like a free and easy

Catholicism, like a long-silent lake, was instantly roasted by a raging fire, boiling unscrupulously. In contrast, after a burst of unforgettable pain, Yan'er kept moaning from her mouth. Although this sound was gentle, it could not obscure Yan'er's inner pleasure and joy. Yan'er couldn't help but feel that she seemed to have suppressed her for too long and long, and longed for this free and easy catharsis.

The room, which was originally a little deserted, was filled with the most primitive ambiguousness between men and women.

The next day when Lin Bin woke up from his sweet dream, he saw the naked geese beside him, the messy clothes on the ground, and the clothes included a pair of white jeans, a white down jacket and a milky white sweater. He did not show any surprise. On the contrary, the purest happiness and satisfaction appeared on the corners of his mouth.

By recalling yesterday's memories and asking Yan'er, Lin Bin finally knew that all of this was arranged by He Chen. He Chen deliberately got Lin Bin drunk and deliberately arranged for Yan'er to appear in front of Lin Bin at the right time. At the same time, He Chen also found the video of Han Jiaren's performance on the Internet, and gave Yan'er a set of Han Jiaren's clothes that day. He Chen even opened a room for them. After figuring this out, Lin Bin couldn't help but smile secretly and thought to himself, if his obsession with Han Jiaren is a manifestation of stupidity, then what He Chen did for himself and Yan'er is also a manifestation of stupidity? However, Lin Bin had to admit that the former kind of stupidity is a kind of worthless stupidity, while the latter kind of stupidity is a kind of meaningful stupidity. Fortunately, Lin Bin's idea was not known to He Chen, otherwise, he would not know what kind of feelings He Chen would have.

It was another Sunday midnight, and it was the messy alley. Although the cold wind in winter was still playing unscrupulously, the moon and rivers could be clearly seen in the night sky. The moonlight and starlight poured down, silently nourishing the world in the cold wind, and a rare tranquility hidden in silence.

Lin Bin brought Yan'er here early and came to the snack stall that He Chen often went to. He ordered some spicy midnight snacks and inappropriate beer. The midnight snacks and beer were all He Chen liked. But tonight, what disappointed Lin Bin a little was that He Chen did not appear in front of him, which was not consistent with the habits that He Chen had developed recently. Lin Bin had to wonder if He Chen had left the city. In fact, He Chen did plan to leave Jinxiu City, but before leaving, he did not forget to say goodbye to Lin Bin. The way He Chen said goodbye was a bit special, which was a silent farewell, a silent farewell in his heart.

Although He Chen did not appear in front of Lin Bin tonight, he did have come here, but he just hid it on purpose. While Lin Bin and Yan'er were waiting for him at the food stall, he was hiding in a nearby alley. This was not He Chen's mysteriousness, but in fact he felt that the atmosphere in front of him was no longer suitable for him to integrate into. He Chen clearly saw that in the clear light of the moonlight and the starlight, Lin Bin and Yan'er were talking and laughing, and seemed very harmonious. Without having to hear it in close contact, He Chen could make judgments from the expressions and behaviors of the two. Most of what they said now was love words, and most of the laughter was a kind of happiness.

"Brother Bin, will he come tonight?" Yan'er looked at Lin Bin and asked softly.

"It probably won't be here, I think he must have left this city." Lin Bin said.

"What are you going to do next?" Yan'er asked.

"I want to send you back to your hometown first. Life in big cities is not suitable for you. You belong to a simple countryside." Lin Bin said.

"What about you? Don't you go back with me?" Yan'er continued to ask.

"Of course I have to go back, but as a man, I should work hard to achieve my own career." Lin Bin said solemnly, "Yan'er, believe me, it won't take long. When I save enough money, I will definitely go back and marry you. I want you to be a happy woman, just like the sun, scattering dazzling light. I want people in my hometown to see your extraordinary beauty and they all envy our lives."

"Well, Brother Bin, Yan'er listens to you, Yan'er believes you will definitely do it." As he said that, Yan'er snuggled up to Lin Bin with a sweet face.

In the deserted alley, He Chen, who was trapped in the cold wind, saw Lin Bin and Yan'er leaning against each other, and couldn't help but feel an inexplicable warmth, as if a drunken spring breeze blew across his heart, dyeing this cold winter with a fresh and bright color. At this time, He Chen couldn't help but sigh at his living state. Different life experiences and different pursuits of life have decided that he will embark on a different path from Lin Bin. In fact, everyone has his own path, starting from one end and ending, and those who are busy on the road are not

Knowing where he came from, he could not accurately predict where the end point would be, what kind of scenery would be, the only thing that can be confirmed is that constantly pursuing on this long road is the most correct choice. He Chen felt that he would not be able to understand the happiness that Lin Bin had at this moment, because this happiness was free from He Chen's life. He Chen was glad that although his life was not on the same track at all, he participated in Lin Bin's life trajectory in the right way at the right time.

Yes, in He Chen's opinion, everything he did for Lin Bin was appropriate, at least the happy scene in front of him proved his idea. In other words, He Chen felt that what he did was nothing at all. He just broke the gap between Lin Bin and Yan'er in advance, shortening Lin Bin's process of sinking and wandering. If He Chen did not do those things, as time passed, Lin Bin would sooner or later be freed from Han Jiaren's too dazzling light. The gap between Lin Bin and Yan'er would be broken sooner or later. As for whether the person who broke the first was Lin Bin or Yan'er, it was no longer important. What was important was that Lin Bin and Yan'er could not cut off a love relationship in the invisible space in this life.

Thinking of this, a faint smile appeared on the corner of He Chen's mouth and he turned around and left silently.

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Two years later, when He Chen was reading "j-young Literature", he saw an author signed by Lin Bin. This name immediately pulled He Chen's thoughts back to three years ago.

According to He Chen's understanding, Han Jiaren is still the same as she did on her own stage as she did three years ago, showing the charm of a female star, blooming with her dazzling light like the sun. No matter where this light scattered, it is enough to arouse the pursuit of reporters and fans of all kinds. As for Lin Bin and Yan'er, He Chen doesn't know much, because since he had a formal farewell with Lin Bin three years ago, He Chen has never seen Lin Bin and Yan'er again. The two of them are like the scenery passing by outside the window, while He Chen is a person sitting in the train. In He Chen's life, they are actually passers-by in a hurry. Of course, these two passers-by have left He Chen with some special resumes.

He Chen learned about Lin Bin again, and through "j-young", what made He Chen feel relieved was that this magazine actually arranged a "special recommendation" section for Lin Bin. Not only did it briefly introduce Lin Bin's situation, but it also published three prose works by Lin Bin at one time. The introduction said that Lin Bin was a young man who had worked in this year's work and literature. He has published literary works in more than a dozen literary magazines and dozens of newspapers, the most of which were poetry and some prose.

Three essays, one entitled "The Iceberg of Wandering", one entitled "Struggle in Spring", and one entitled "My Bride Under the Moon". After reading these three essays carefully, the memories in his mind could not help but turn them back to three years ago. Thinking of the experience related to Lin Bin and the things between Lin Bin and Yan'er, even some sentimental passages at that time, they couldn't help but become beautiful.

In "The Iceberg of Wandering", Lin Bin recalled the past when he was obsessed with Han Jiaren. However, from the words and emotions that Lin Bin recalled, He Chen had discovered that Lin Bin has now separated from his sinking and confusion, replaced by a kind of nostalgia that faces calmly. Lin Bin said that although he was like an iceberg chasing the sun at that time, there was also a kind of tender charm in the process. Under the sun's illumination, his iceberg continued to melt, and that melt was also a beautiful process. The melted water could flood some of the cold of that winter. In any case, in the process of chasing, his heart was clear and happy. Now that the water has been injected into his heart, whenever he saw Han Jiaren from various media, the water deep in his heart would involuntarily produce undercurrents, but it was not afraid of this undercurrent. In his opinion, this undercurrent is a true portrayal of life emotions.

In "Struggle in Spring", Lin Bin explained the fragments of his life in the city. Behind these fragments, there is another woman. This figure is no longer Han Jiaren, but Yan'er. Lin Bin compared Yan'er to spring, and it is the spring that exists in his heart. Lin Bin said that during the days of working and fighting in the city, this spring is always in his heart, like a road sign, and it can also provide him with motivation to resist cruel reality. Lin Bin, who is far away in a foreign land, can't help but think of her deep affection for herself every time Yan'er's face appears in his mind. Lin Bin obviously wants to tell Yan'er the dilemma of struggling in the cracks in the city, but he is unwilling to let her share the heavy reality with him. Lin Bin finally made a beautiful wish in this article, that is, he hopes to return to his hometown as soon as possible, buy a dowry for Yan'er, and then have a good man who is not cheap.
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