I don't know how I feel.

I don't know how to describe my mood at this time.

When Tianhai Qimingyue faced the person in front of her, she never thought that he would think this way from the beginning...

"So what were you planning to do?"

"...Is it important?" Raku Sakakihara asked softly.

"Of course it's important...I want to know your answer."

Sakakibara's eyes stayed on her face for a second longer, shook his head, and took the initiative to throw away her hand, "Nana Mingyue, it doesn't matter how things are."

"Then what do you think is important? After everyone no longer needs you, you choose to take on everything and leave alone? What good will this do to you...? The good things will always be left to others, then you

What about yourself?"

Tianhai Qimingyue completely understands.

After he was completely angry, this guy knew that with his own personality, he would continue to make people around him uncomfortable and miserable.

My sister, Ling, Zhixue, myself... are all like this.

That's why...he would deliberately say those excessive words to himself after that, and continue to encourage and cultivate Ling Yuxue's growth to fulfill his sister's dream.

This bastard understands his own mistakes and knows that there is no way to solve these mistakes. No matter which side he chooses, he will hurt the other side... That's why he puts a hand in everyone's back, and when he hates him, everyone

When people no longer need him... go away silently.

"...idiot."

Tianhai Qimingyue thought about this kind of person for a long time, and finally could only find this word to describe him.

"...scold me again?"

"The one I'm scolding is you, idiot, idiot."

Although he was a little tired, Nanami Mingzuki still looked so domineering even now... Sakakibara Raku felt even more tired and uncomfortable.

"Okay, okay, since you hate me so much, then don't say so much in front of me, and leave me alone -"

Under the street lamp, Sakakibara Raku hadn't finished speaking. When he raised his head, he saw the little bit of crystal in the eyes of Tianhai Qimingyue.

...Why are you still crying?

Besides, she is Qi Mingyue, she... can cry?

Sakakihara Raku discovered that in the eyes of Amami Nanamigetsu staring straight at him, there were not only tears, but also the true feelings that she had not expressed in her heart as her eyes trembled.

what is this...?

Can’t bear to leave yourself?

From her perspective, the things she did were not enough to make her angry?

It's not that Raku Sakakihara wants to escape from them, but that when he is around a few people, he will only cause them to cause unpleasant things again and again. This brings pain to everyone, and makes the wounds in everyone's hearts irreparable.

.

Since Qi Mingyue hates herself so much, since Ling, Zhixue, and Liuli have all been hurt again and again because of her.

Then, let "they no longer need to be by their side" and let them "live happily and happily on their own"... This is enough.

"...Then what should you do?" Tianhai Qimingyue asked this question again on the bank of the Thames.

...

What should I do...?

To be honest, it seems that I have never seriously thought about it, nor have I seriously dealt with this issue.

In my last life, I was miserable and no one could like me.

Hmm... It's probably because of this relationship that I want to take care of the unloved people around me again and again. I want to give them warmth and care.

This is also equivalent to redeeming myself from the suffering in the past.

I don't want them to end up in the same miserable situation as I did in my previous life.

What should I do...?

I never thought that as long as I could help people in the same situation as myself, I would be able to gain happiness and salvation.

It's the same feeling as a child who grows up in an orphanage and wants to start a family in the future and doesn't want his own child to become an orphan.

...

"You guys...are always like this."

"Why am I always like this... Qi Mingyue, don't you have the same bad habits? You have a vicious tongue, you are also arrogant, and you are also extremely aloof... You are obviously feeling very uncomfortable, but you still insist on saying that you are fine.

Are you okay? I don’t know if you’re really okay? You’re still saying you hate me while you come to the UK to play pretend games with me... Is it fun? Since you hate me, why don’t you go further away?”

"Because you are always such a bastard."

"how do I...?"

Before Raku Sakakihara could finish his words, he felt something bump into his arms.

He lowered his head and looked... His hand had been subconsciously placed on the flaxen hair, and she had put her head on his shoulder, their heads intertwined, and they were filled with breath and breath.

It's the familiar fragrance of green apple.

...

...

There were no words, just the sound of the wind blowing by the river.

This is probably because Tianhai Qimingyue wants to use practical actions to convey her inner thoughts at the moment.

——Still, I don’t want you to leave.

She hugged her waist tightly, and the words she spoke through the movements of her hands were so clear.

...

However, Sakakihara Raku didn't think there was anything heartwarming about this.

You must know that an hour or two ago, I was arguing with her on the bedside.

The relationship that had been estranged for a long time was now so close again, and Sakakihara Raku just felt very uncomfortable.

He sighed softly and said earnestly:

"...before...you were the one who said you hated me."

"I must correct you. First of all, you are the one who hates this word. I just said that I can no longer accept your endless compassion." Amami Nanamiyue said calmly on Sakakibara Raku's shoulder.

"But in July, didn't you get the thing you most expected in your life because of this compassion?" Sakakibara opened his hands outwards and did not choose to take the initiative to hug her.

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"Then this cannot be the reason for you to accept other women. I...can't accept that you chose to break your promise..."

Hearing these words that were almost like a whisper...

Raku Sakakihara once again heard the insecurities that existed in her heart in the past...

Why is July so insecure...?

It's not difficult to guess now... She is afraid of being abandoned... just like her mother left her alone on a rural platform in the past.

He is obviously a lonely and aloof person... what he is really afraid of in his heart is actually loneliness.

July... is also such a contradictory person.

"...You are holding me like this because you don't want me to leave?"

"..."

"If you don't say anything, take it as your acquiescence."

"..."

"What is there to miss about a rotten person like me? I can't take responsibility for my feelings. I can't satisfy people. I have to keep messing around with women. You are so good. Wouldn't it be better if you left me?

"

"..."

After waiting for a long time, Sakakihara Raku saw Amami Kuruuri smiling at him on the other side of the street lamp.

He sighed and avoided looking.

"...When I left for England, my aunt said something to me."

"What words...?"

"When you are angry, you will always only see the bad side of things. Just like when you are quarreling, everyone will bring out the past mistakes of the other party and repeat them. In the quarrel, you must devalue the other party to be worthless.

This will establish your own victory.”

"...What does Qi Mingyue want to say through this?"
To be continued...